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Every Word Has Meaning

2009-10-14T05:37:30-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: General/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 2, Words: 302, Reviews: 13 Updated: 10-14-09 Published: 10-10-09
Status: In-Progress

Episode titles placed within a 100 word drabble. From a Supernaturalville challenge where I couldn’t stop with just one title from each season. No, I had to cram as many titles as possible in and still try to make sense. 16 is my record. Can you spot 'em?

Always Giving, Never Asking Back

2009-10-04T20:19:14-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K
Genres: General/Family
Pairing: Dean W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 237, Reviews: 5 Published: 10-4-09
Status: Complete

Drabble inspired by the beautiful recording of Simple Love by Alison Krauss. If any man deserves to look back on his life and know he had a simple love like that, it would be Dean Winchester. For he gave so much to so many...without ever asking back.

Control

2009-09-26T06:16:24-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Sam W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 2,370, Reviews: 12 Published: 9-26-09
Status: Complete

5.02 Good God, Y’all tag. I thought Dean would fight me on this, try to keep his family together. I need to get this lust for power and blood under control. I’m tired of lying, tired of hiding who I am, what I’ve done. So tired of fearing what I am. GGYA

Fortunate Son

2009-08-28T19:59:37-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Hurt/Comfort/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 7,471, Reviews: 17 Published: 8-28-09
Status: Complete

4.19 Jump the Shark tag. Someone needed to reach out and bridge the distance. Take one small step toward fixing them. Sam wanted to help, do one thing right that would make Dean feel better instead of worse. Ignoring reason, Dean cracked open the door.

The Dresser

2009-08-14T11:45:54-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Humor/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 7,578, Reviews: 11 Published: 8-14-09
Status: Complete

4.06 Yellow Fever tag. Drunk!Dean befuddled and confused, trying to get back into his suit after the mill. It appears he might have needed a helping hand getting dressed. A brother’s duty is never done. Humor and brotherly moments.

Fire Came and the World Burned

2009-07-21T14:51:05-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Tragedy/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & John W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 2,008, Reviews: 10 Published: 7-21-09
Status: Complete

It started with fire, as their perfect life ended in flames. Three POVs as the night Mary died is remembered. 2009 Supernaturalville Fire Challenge story. Season 1 oneshot. Inspired by 1.01 Pilot and 1.09 Home.

Time Moves On, But I'm Still Here

2009-06-28T21:28:04-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Sam W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 4,349, Reviews: 11 Published: 6-28-09
Status: Complete

3.11 Mystery Spot tag. It was finally over. Wrong again, Sam. On slow-mo replay, the trickster actually said they were out of it…the time loop; said he’d wake up and it would be Wednesday. He just never promised Dean wouldn’t die on that Wednesday.

Reflections

2009-06-24T17:36:38-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K
Genres: Family/Friendship
Pairing: Dean W. & Bobby S.
Chapters: 1, Words: 119, Reviews: 12 Published: 6-24-09
Status: Complete

Father's Day Drabble for Supernaturalville challenge. A father is someone special, someone who is there to help guide a boy to manhood. Someone who loves him unconditionally. Every young boy deserves a father like that. 100 Words.

Reckless

2009-06-02T23:34:34-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Hurt/Comfort
Pairing: Sam W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 2,427, Reviews: 21 Published: 6-2-09
Status: Complete

S3 - Sam is injured, Dean is mad. Much brotherly love and angst ensues. Sam was sorry…sorry to be the one causing his big brother such pain, ripping into Dean’s fragile facade and delivering this crushing blow. Repercussions from Dean’s demon deal.

Somethin' To Talk About

2009-05-26T00:04:35-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Humor/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 7,729, Reviews: 14 Published: 5-26-09
Status: Complete

3.11 Mystery Spot tag. Two hours until midnight and Sam decided the safest place for Dean was holed up at the motel. Problem was, Dean was bored and wanted to talk about all the ways he’d died. One man’s humor is another man’s grief. Brotherly Moments.

Secrets and Lies

2009-05-01T23:46:03-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Family/Angst
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 2, Words: 5,094, Reviews: 19 Updated: 5-1-09 Published: 4-21-09
Status: Complete

4.14 Sex and Violence tag. The distance between us continues to grow, weighed down and stretched taut by all the secrets and lies, the hurts and betrayals…all the crap from demons and angels to the freaking apocalypse, and it’s too much. Two POVs. Angst.

End of the Innocence

2009-04-18T01:00:01-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & John W.
Chapters: 6, Words: 31,462, Reviews: 54 Updated: 4-18-09 Published: 2-19-09
Status: Complete

Every hunter has his first hunt. Dean only wanted to erase the memory of the Shtriga and prove to Dad he was a man. Problem was he was still a boy with a tender heart. To do the job Dean learns to build his walls. Wee!chesters and Grown-up reflections.

Touched by an Angel

2009-04-04T22:32:55-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Family/Drama
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 4,024, Reviews: 10 Published: 4-4-09
Status: Complete

4.17 It’s a Terrible Life tag - Brotherly Moment Ending. He met up with his brother in the stairwell, one bounding down the stairs two at a time as the other raced up...coming together, united in purpose, even as they approached from opposite ends.

On His Grave the Rain Will Fall

2009-03-09T23:29:24-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 585, Reviews: 9 Published: 3-9-09
Status: Complete

I’d faced so much death in my life, so much loss. All I had left was my brother. He never saw it coming, but I did… Time ended on a dark and dreary day. - Death of a brother as seen on the show. Spoilers through Season 3. Dark One Shot. Angst.

The Rack

2009-02-11T22:59:21-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Hurt/Comfort
Pairing: Dean W. & Castiel
Chapters: 4, Words: 18,009, Reviews: 47 Updated: 2-11-09 Published: 12-11-08
Status: Complete

4.10 Heaven and Hell tag. He couldn’t believe this was him. Dean Winchester wouldn’t do this… couldn’t do this, but there he was, knife in hand. Alastair threatens and Castiel offers redemption as Dean relives his time in Hell. Angst and Guilt. 4 Chapters

Choices

2008-12-29T23:34:50-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Sam W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 6,019, Reviews: 12 Published: 12-29-08
Status: Complete

3.07 Fresh Blood tag. Sam’s POV. Life often changes in the blink of an eye. You make a bad decision, turn down the wrong path, and before you even realize it your life has changed. You find yourself trapped on a course, inevitable, with no way out.

Christmas Present, Christmases Past

2008-12-23T01:22:28-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Family/Friendship
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 7,271, Reviews: 13 Published: 12-23-08
Status: Complete

Dean wanted to bury his thoughts of Hell and make this holiday special for his brother just like Sam had done for him last year. Each hadn’t felt like celebrating, but for their brother they were willing to bury their own hurts and make it happen. S4

Frail Grasp on the Big Picture

2008-11-29T13:17:02-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Mystery
Pairing: Sam W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 3, Words: 8,543, Reviews: 17 Updated: 11-29-08 Published: 2-20-08
Status: Complete

3.11 Mystery Spot tag. Three POVs. They say there is clarity in dying. That in that split second between life and death you understand. The universe opens up and the world makes sense as the planets align and order is restored. I say that’s a load of crap

The Weight

2008-11-19T18:31:51-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: General/Spiritual
Pairing: Castiel & Uriel
Chapters: 1, Words: 2,827, Reviews: 15 Published: 11-19-08
Status: Complete

S4 Castiel and Uriel talk. Don’t you find it odd that the one who always followed orders without question is now supposed to save the world? Find the true path and show us the way? This is a mistake! He’s mindless, an attack dog. He can’t be depended upon

Life is Meaningless signed T Bear

2008-11-08T09:15:52-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Humor/General
Chapters: 1, Words: 1,064, Reviews: 11 Published: 11-8-08
Status: Complete

4.08 Wishful Thinking Tag. Be careful what you wish for ‘cause wishes turn bad, wishes turn very bad. Bi-polar depressed Ted E. Bear isn’t living the high-life. Not hardly. Humor with a twinge of teddy bear angst.

White Room

2008-11-05T07:20:08-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Hurt/Comfort
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 20, Words: 73,417, Reviews: 154 Updated: 11-5-08 Published: 5-15-08
Status: Complete

3.16 NRFTW tag. Dean’s ordeal in Hell, then his recovery. Hell was a white room awaiting its paint job. Every horror imaginable visiting him until he escaped to another white room. He wasn’t the man he used to be. Would he ever be that man again? Hell AU.

Battle of Carthage

2008-10-11T23:09:53-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Drama
Pairing: Sam W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 1,415, Reviews: 11 Published: 10-11-08
Status: Complete

4.04 Metamorphosis tag. Sam’s POV. Sometimes the inner struggles are as devastating as the outer battles when two brothers face off on fundamental differences. A war was brewing, would it divide the brothers? Oneshot.

A Horse is a Horse Unless of Course She's Deke W's

2008-07-10T15:02:59-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Western/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 2,910, Reviews: 4 Published: 7-10-08
Status: Complete

You don’t steal Deke Winchester’s horse. Besides Dad and Scott, Blaze was all the family Deke had and he held on to his family with a vengeance. This horse thief was in for one hell of a thrashing. Cowboys in chaps, and water… "Get Well, Angela" challenge

What Evil Lurks in the Heart of Man

2008-06-12T11:57:03-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: M
Genres: Angst/Hurt/Comfort
Pairing: Sam W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 7, Words: 51,063, Reviews: 85 Updated: 6-12-08 Published: 10-20-07
Status: In-Progress

3.01 TM7 tag. Envy was taunting Sam with secrets long buried. The fear in Dean’s eyes wasn’t from facing the seven deadly sins. No, Dean feared the truth. It was sordid and unsavory and so very wrong on so many levels, but God help him, Sam needed to know

Last Act of a Desperate Man

2008-05-16T00:11:34-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 2, Words: 2,223, Reviews: 8 Updated: 5-16-08 Published: 5-14-08
Status: Complete

LDC tag. Sam was right. I wasn’t thinking, wasn’t myself. I just needed to believe in something this one time. That there was a chance, some hope left. That Dad would come through again, like he had so many times before, like he always did. Sammy responds

Monument Valley

2008-05-12T20:57:53-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 4,897, Reviews: 6 Published: 5-12-08
Status: Complete

The final days of Dean’s deal were upon them. Goulding’s Lodge was a destination motel in the middle of nowhere. Sam wasn’t sure why Dean wanted to stay here, but he hoped when he found him he’d find out. Maybe at long last unlock one secret. Angst & Hope

Prank Wars Tales from Beyond the Edge of Reason

2008-04-16T19:51:15-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Humor/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 4,407, Reviews: 16 Published: 4-16-08
Status: Complete

It always escalates. What starts out as just a little harmless fun turns into an all-out fractious war like the time... Teen!Chesters. Supernaturalville Prank War Challenge entry.

Now Showing

2008-04-09T20:36:51-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Mystery/Humor
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 14, Words: 44,940, Reviews: 61 Updated: 4-9-08 Published: 1-10-08
Status: Complete

Preseries. It hurt for John to see his son so hesitant, so lost, so reluctant to do the job. “Why don’t you take Sammy with you as back-up?” “NO! I can’t expose him to this, I won’t!” Humor and angst as Sam tries to help Dean with his first solo hunt.

Rules of War

2008-02-25T21:08:12-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: General/Drama
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 1,059, Reviews: 13 Published: 2-25-08
Status: Complete

3.12 Jus in Bello tag. There are choices in war. Hard choices. Difficult decisions. Actions taken that under different circumstances you would never even consider, but in war anything goes. Interesting concept, justice in war.

Full Circle

2008-02-16T16:09:08-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K
Genres: Mystery/Spiritual
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 155, Reviews: 5 Published: 2-16-08
Status: Complete

3.11 Mystery Spot tag. Someone is watching.

So That Was Christmas

2008-01-04T10:15:02-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Family/Angst
Pairing: Sam W. & Bobby S.
Chapters: 1, Words: 10,130, Reviews: 13 Published: 1-4-08
Status: Complete

3.08 A Very Supernatural Christmas tag. Wee!chester moments as Bobby talks with Sam about the monsters, Dean frets over how he came to own the amulet, and John regrets missing out on Christmas. Family love with a touch of angst.

Santa's Helpers

2007-12-18T20:45:36-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Humor/Fantasy
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 11, Words: 50,911, Reviews: 163 Updated: 12-18-07 Published: 12-15-06
Status: Complete

Preseries. While investigating Santanappings at the mall the Winchesters make the ultimate sacrifice. Dean is an elf, John is Santa and that’s not even the weird part. Come along on a strange joyride cause Xmas was never this whacked out before.

Not My Life

2007-10-17T19:55:11-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Family/Angst
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 8,163, Reviews: 21 Published: 10-17-07
Status: Complete

3.02 TKAA tag. Brothers need to talk about the important events in their lives... like when Dean thinks he might be a dad with an eight year old son. Sam didn't know what to say to ease Dean's pain, so he offered his brother the only truth he knew.

After The World Ends

2007-10-03T18:57:36-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 92, Reviews: 3 Published: 10-3-07
Status: Complete

2.22 AHBL2 tag. A brother’s perspective. Something big is going down. End of the world big. Well, then let it end... When will the world end? When my brother dies.., that’s when my world ends. Brotherly Love and Winchester Angst. Not a death fic.

Chocolates

2007-09-23T18:52:27-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Humor/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 597, Reviews: 4 Published: 9-23-07
Status: Complete

Dean reflects on what he’s made of and what lies deep within. An extremely short examination of this fascinating man named Dean Winchester.

Spirit's Lament

2007-09-11T05:40:50-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Poetry/Supernatural
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 65, Reviews: 3 Published: 9-11-07
Status: Complete

A poem from the eyes of the hunted. I don’t normally write poems. I tried for a challenge, but never sent it in.

Whiskey, Women and Song

2007-08-10T15:51:36-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Romance
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 11,139, Reviews: 21 Published: 8-10-07
Status: Complete

AHBL2 Sam didn’t know the particulars on his brother’s exploits, just that Dean liked sex and women liked Dean. I shouldn’t begrudge him a good time, it’s just, he’s having fun and I’m the only one worrying about this? How can he just roll over and die?

Famous Last Lines

2007-06-08T14:10:41-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Humor
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 3,132, Reviews: 17 Published: 6-8-07
Status: Complete

AHBL2 tag. Dean was laughing at the memory, acting like this wasn’t the first day of the last year of his life. Sam shuddered, resigned to follow Dean’s lead on this perverted conversation. What is it they say about a fine line between comedy and tragedy?

Waiting

2007-05-29T15:28:45-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Drama
Pairing: Dean W. & John W.
Chapters: 4, Words: 11,878, Reviews: 46 Updated: 5-29-07 Published: 11-7-06
Status: Complete

AHBL2 tag. Bobby’s POV. Bobby had been waiting seventeen years to finally see Dean sacrifice his life for his brother. Bobby always thought the end would come in battle. He never imagined this, never foresaw this. Fourth and final chapter. CSPWDT tag.

Legacy

2007-04-27T12:33:06-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 4, Words: 20,153, Reviews: 72 Updated: 4-27-07 Published: 4-19-07
Status: Complete

On edge after John’s death and trying to hold on, Dean gets his long overdue emotional release when the past confronts him with the pain of his childhood on top of the burden of protecting Sammy. Everything converges to bring Dean Winchester to his knees.

Sammy's Tears

2007-03-23T15:11:07-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Drama
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 1,403, Reviews: 14 Published: 3-23-07
Status: Complete

2.17 Heart tag. Dean never could stand seeing Sammy’s tears.

Deliver Us from Evil

2007-02-03T14:27:40-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Spiritual
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 1,516, Reviews: 16 Published: 2-3-07
Status: Complete

HOTH tag. You pray? The wheels in Dean’s mind were turning, trying to comprehend this incomprehensible information that had been so casually exposed. What do you pray for? I pray for peace in the world, for the strength to fight evil...and I pray for you.

Sacrifice

2006-10-19T11:46:52-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Family
Pairing: Dean W. & John W.
Chapters: 16, Words: 39,778, Reviews: 243 Updated: 10-19-06 Published: 8-18-06
Status: Complete

Preseries. This was tough, this dying. Dean always thought when he died it would be quick, in the heat of battle, in a blaze of glory. He never anticipated knowing and waiting, pondering his own imminent demise and what his passing would do to his family.

Valentine, Texas

2006-09-27T15:57:26-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Western/Adventure
Pairing: Dean W. & Sam W.
Chapters: 21, Words: 40,701, Reviews: 141 Updated: 9-27-06 Published: 5-29-06
Status: Complete

1876 “God made all Men, Samuel Colt made them equal.” The West was inundated with vampires. It was the perfect place to kill and slaughter, cowboys died every day and no one really seemed to care, most were too concerned with staying alive themselves.

Dreams

2006-08-25T21:18:22-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: K+
Genres: Angst/Spiritual
Pairing: Dean W. & Mary W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 2,225, Reviews: 5 Published: 8-25-06
Status: Complete

Wee!chester. Dean’s been restless all week and he’s thinking about Mom. “The thing is, when I was twelve I had a dream of Mom. One fleeting moment in time when I saw her and felt her presence so strongly I knew it wasn’t a dream, I knew I was with her."

Reality of a One Night Stand

2006-07-09T14:26:19-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Drama
Pairing: Dean W. & John W.
Chapters: 3, Words: 5,477, Reviews: 47 Updated: 7-9-06 Published: 7-5-06
Status: Complete

When life became too difficult, Dean chose the one night stand:a physical release and a temporary pleasure. His body’s pleasure could fool his mind into thinking he was alright. Two broken souls connecting as one and for one night pretending to be whole.

All the King's Men

2006-06-24T08:49:32-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Drama
Pairing: John W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 3,162, Reviews: 20 Published: 6-24-06
Status: Complete

Companion story to Shattered, Dean’s breakdown. John’s POV. What is he asking me? Dean never asks for anything, he’s the easy one. Never demanded any time, effort or worry. Always my strong, self reliant son. When did he become breakable?

Shattered

2006-06-15T12:18:59-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Tragedy
Pairing: Dean W. & John W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 2,567, Reviews: 17 Published: 6-15-06
Status: Complete

Devil's Trap tag. That damn Demon, read his mind and made it happen just like he always feared it would. Even now he couldn't sort it all out. Is it the truth or just his childish fears rearing their ugly head? He was too tired to think about this. Angst.

Alone

2006-05-17T17:18:24-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Drama
Pairing: Dean W. & John W.
Chapters: 18, Words: 26,661, Reviews: 116 Updated: 5-17-06 Published: 4-4-06
Status: Complete

Orders sequel. Dean at 16. Dean was alone. A black hole of loneliness beckoned him. An abyss so deep and dark that he could see no light, no hope. His deepest, darkest fear had been realized. The emptiness encompassed him until a lone voice called out...

Should Have Known Better

2006-04-24T15:54:46-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Tragedy
Pairing: John W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 3, Words: 3,866, Reviews: 26 Updated: 4-24-06 Published: 4-18-06
Status: Complete

Nightmare tag. November 2, 1987 John was a broken man. He should have known better. He should have known not to hope, not to dream, not to believe. The liquor had control over him as he lashed out at the one obstacle to his chance at oblivion. Wee!chester

Three Hours

2006-04-11T18:12:14-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Tragedy
Pairing: John W. & Dean W.
Chapters: 1, Words: 1,087, Reviews: 7 Published: 4-11-06
Status: Complete

1.18 Something Wicked tag. John grabbed his young sons, threw their stuff in the trunk of the Impala and booked. He had felt anger toward Dean for not listening, for not following orders, but he mainly had felt terror. He looked at his son differently now

Orders

2006-03-30T08:33:21-08:00

Author: bjxmas
Category: Supernatural
Language: English, Rated: T
Genres: Angst/Drama
Pairing: Dean W. & John W.
Chapters: 11, Words: 19,120, Reviews: 85 Updated: 3-30-06 Published: 3-14-06
Status: Complete

Dean Winchester at fifteen. Dean's emotions were raging out of control: guilt, panic, shame, sheer terror. How could he tell Dad how badly he had screwed up? How he had been weak and let what he wanted dictate his actions? A soldier follows orders!