So, I've read this story a long while ago, but I can't remember if I ever reviewed for it.

If I haven't, forgive me, I'm making up for it now.

I just have to tell you though.

This is the BEST HeeroxRelena fanfic I have ever read.

I'm being DEAD SERIOUS.

It's truly genius and oh so real. It's exaclty how I would picture Heero and Relena's relationship if it ever did continue.

I'm telling you now because I was going through my favorite stories list and came across this one again and I loved it the first time and loved it even more the second time.

You're an amazing writer, again, I'm being dead serious.

Yup, so I just wanted to let you know that because I thought you deserved it.

Keep up the fantastic work.

--Emer.

/sighs blissfully yet sadly/ It was inevitable. I suppose I don't hate Heero after all. I was just so caught up in Relena's torment that I felt like her, you know? Thinking I hate him. Really his sadness and loneliness moved me more than hers, but being female and having my own dream-like, romantic ideals I identified with Relena's position, you know?

So, Ranleth and Wufei? Is there a story there? I think there might be! Oh well. I did like the ending. I was a bit surprised that they met again before he left. I was expecting him to leave without goodbye and have that be it. I nearly cried again in that last chapter about the story she'd tell and the girl he'd remember, and then the sun setting... It was beautiful! And I'm being sincere here.

As for disapointment in their not getting together... I've seen evidence of it in your other fics so I wasn't surprised by your twist here. However I would like to declare that, as far as this fic is concerned, I am contenting myself with a fantasy that at sometime later in the future a romance develops between Relena and Wufei. That would be interesting...

Oh, and have I mentioned how I essentially almost lost it when Heero grabbed her shoulders and was yelling? OMG! That was so powerful, his break... it was torturous! My poor, distant, lost little Heero!

And before I forget I have to say that reading your stuff is highly emotionaly draining! I almost felt like I was abusing my own heart just continuing, but I was too curious. I had to know, had to go on. I'm glad I did, but damn I feel raw after that! I feel like I just relived my own confusing and painfully long breakup! I have no idea how you wrote that! If just reading it is this taxing and draining... I can't begin to understand what writing it must be like! Or must have been... Whatever.

Looking at your AN, an epilogue would be cool, but it is unnecessary. I kind of like where this left off, from a writer's POV, because as a reader I really want that final closure of do they see each other again? does she get what she wants? does she find love? does he find love? and other etc.

I'm not too sure what else I can say about it. I could repeat how much I love your style, but I've already said it a few times, so... I think I need sleep. Need to recover from this emotional trip you've taken me on. Beautifully done! Sattisfying in every way! Gorgeously painful and deliciously full of longing and hope and love. What makes it so brilliant is that it IS real. And it is tragic, esp. for our sex. It is a pit we are all doomed to fall down from the moment we hear our first "prince charming" tale and you have captured it wonderfully, in my oppinion. Esp. for these two characters. The tragedy is potent and the feelings sincere... I can't tell, think I liked it?

Anyways, hope to hear from you soon in the form of FMS or Amour. I think I'm gonna really give myself a break before reading other things you've done. Need to heal myself from the heartache of Desires of the Heart. Exquisitely disappointing! I like elegant contradictions! But yes, well done! Even if you finished it three years ago, it's always nice to hear praise, non?

TTFN

Beautiful! I love Relena slapping him! Yes! Ooh! Yea! Okay.

What just happened? What's with the explosion? Is this weird message thing to do with Wufei's being there and taking her tea to chat? Was Heero jealous of the smile she gave Wufei? Should he be? What IS she going to do to him? I can't wait!

No pause. Must read on. Will review final chap more thoroughly. Loving it!

TTFN

I love your attention to detail, your descriptions of the "inner world" as it were. I've said it before, but it is wonderful how easily you weave the characters' thoughts and emotions into the narration. I only have a grasp on the physical and a limited skill at the emotional, I feel. I think that's why I like reading your stuff so much because I want to be able to weave those same things in and out of my own writing the way you do! Not forgery! I just want to have that skill too. You know what I mean.

To the story, however, I'm still reeling from Wufei's appearance! He almost seems random, yet he plays such a crucial part! For a second there I held a fleeting thought that maybe you were going to introduce a relationship between Relena and Wufei in which he healed her wounds (sappy wonderfulness!). But I know you're a RelenaxHeero shipper from all the fics you've written on them and it just didn't seem appropriate... Still, I can't help but wonder what his personal reason was for talking to her and trying to help her get over Heero. Unless... Ha! You wouldn't, would you? O.O

And now Heero's going to go save her life! Just like she doesn't want her to! It almost seems like you're trying to hint that he really does love her and doesn't know it, but that might just be my accursed wishful thinking. Like Relena, forever waiting... But we can't wait forever, can we? Anyways, Oh man! She's going to flip! Or she's going to break! Ooh! I bet it's the latter. That won't be good. Poor Relena.

On the other hand, during her conversation with Wufei she annoyed ME with her needy, desperate wanting. I know she loves him, but... it was pretty sad. I think I felt pity for her, though. Anyways, dry eyed through this chapter, and I'm wondering if that's going to stay... Loving it!

TTFN

Update Amour AND Final Mission Status!

You had me balling at the end there! Oh GOD, I hate you! I can't even review sensibly.

Good for her! Hurt him like he hurt her! Curse him for not understanding! Oh man! I have never hated my favorite character so much! And yet I feel so completely like Relena... Like he broke MY heart and that I can't decide if I want him or if I want to punch him! I knew she shouldn't take him to the party. Even if she needed to, I knew it was a mistake! And yet I clinged to every word! Have I mentioned that I love your writing and that I completely hate you? It's true!

And those stupid girls! What was he thinking? Bastard! Right! Be calm, review sensibly. I'll try.

In all honesty, I almost hope that was the last time she saw him! But I know that there are three more chapters. So they must meet again eventually, right? I guess I'll just have to read and find out. You know what? I'm gonna finish this tonight! I don't care anymore, I'm reading until there's nothing left to read! And I'm gonna keep the tissues close this time just in case.

You go girl! /sniff sniff/ I love you and yet I hardly know you...

TTFN

I have no idea where to begin! I think... OMG! It's just killing me! My heart is just crying inside! Stupid, idiotic Heero! I have never hated or loved him so much! I think maybe he cared about her more than he thinks and in truth he just got scared. That he wasn't ready for her, is obvious but... man! It's just so beautiful! The emotion when he was talking to Mandred... I was trying so hard not to burst into tears! I swear my heart was breaking inside! I can still feel it.

But why is she taking that asshole with her to the party? I'd rather go alone! (note, when I say a-hole I'm really actually in love with him, so... wow you rock!)

What was the emotion he kept fighting down? Why was he such a butt-munch to Mandred? Will Mandred ever come back (poor guy!)? Oh man! I'm dying here! Any thought of saving the last few chapters till later... gone!

Must read more! I may just continue reviewing the later chapters individually because 1. you're amazing (don't get too bigheaded now) and 2. I won't be able to resist even though this is a complete thing. Besides, I think you'll appreciate it non-the-less. I am awed by your brilliance!

TTFN

Dammit! I saw that coming and I hate it! It's so... Damn! Sorry about the curses, but wow do you know how to tug at the heart strings! I knew it was going to happen, but still I kept just wanting him to touch her face and say, "Don't be silly, of course I love you!" Is it so wrong to hope?

And yet it all seems so clear now. Curses. Truly I hate thee. Indeed. At least, I would if I didn't love you and your stupid writing so much! Darn you!

Sorry, I broke away to answer my phone and lost the thread of what I was saying. I'll cut this one short.

Oh! Definitely more... visual and... steamy and... oh! I don't mind though. I still love the way you write it. And yay for random Wufei interlude! Woot! I heart Wufei.

Ever since Relena started talking about going to the clinic and getting the pill I was worried with thoughts that Heero might be in this relationship for more physical stuff than emotional stuff. Obviously he feels an emotional connection with her, but he definitely seemed very physically driven, esp. after the night at the opera. This whole Wufei interlude kinda confirms it in my head. Yes, Heero went after Relena highly "goal-oriented" but he also went after her physically. I remember you kept saying that all this detail, the lime/lemons and the thoughts were important, and I can't help but notice that almost all of their relationship that you've shown us has been physical... (not accusing here, just drawing conclusions)

Oh, I hope I'm wrong! I really want Heero to be in this because he loves her and not just because she's physically satisfying or however you want to say it. I've just had this nagging feeling in the back of my head that, despite their deep conection, for him this relationship is all about physically having someone rather than the future or relationships or any of that. On the one hand, it would make perfect sense for him. The way you've set up his obliviousness to the world of girls/women and relationships makes it understandable how he would only see the one side of it. I don't think he sees it as a bad thing, but Relena and (hopefully) all the readers know that relationships that are too overwhelmingly physical don't work out. (If I'm right you're probably laughing no an evil cackle. If I'm not, you're probably still laughing though maybe not as evily and shaking your head)

Man! Sometimes I think I've figured out where you're going with this, and then I think on my own evidence and I'm not too sure anymore. Man, I love your writing! If I didn't love you, I'd probably hate you! Curses! Anyways, I need to slow down reading or else this is going to be finished too soon and there won't be anymore to enjoy! I love it!

And update your other stuff soon, please!

TTFN

I have to say you are definitely one of my favorite writers on this site (if not the favorite). I love your writing. It's so in-depth and detailed... and in this story its so nice and relaxed. There's such a languid tone to everything that is relaxed and calm. I'm loving watching this relationship unfold, being present for the quiet moments, the heated moments, the reminiscent moments. I know this is one of your older pieces but it's still wonderful. I enjoy reading your stories so much I'm trying real hard not to rush through everything at once and take my time with each story in order to appreciate the sheer depth to which you write and it's not easy. I just wanted to review like a rabid-fangirl after each chapter and say how amazing it was.

The way you write Heero and Relena is just brilliant. I don't think this is the most accurate you've gotten their characters, but even still I'm enjoying a tale of two people falling in love. And I don't know anyone who is so discreet and yet so satisfying in intimate moments. It's all so very nicely done! I can't wait to see how this is going to end.

Speaking of, I'd like to take this opportunity to beg you to update either Final Mission Status or Amour or both soon. Especially FMS. That cliffhanger is killing me! But that is not what I am reviewing now.

Ooh! And I love the Mandred insert. I'm so glad I'm not the only one who does that, insert my own characters from other things into stories. It's fun seeing how they act in new settings, non? It makes me curious to read The Mandred Chronicles. But that will have to wait. I'm loving this too much! I just adore how you create their thoughts and feelings so fluidly, interwieving them into the story without any awkwardness at all. Their thoughts are a part of the narration. That is something I would really love to be able to do. Perhaps with time and effort...

Anyways, this is getting impossibly long. I love the story and I love your writing. I hope you let us know at fanfic when you get any original writing published and where we might get it.

TTFN

(P.S. Update please!)

That story was... wow. The emotions were beautifully written and I'm left feeling like I have just broken up with someone lol... that whole sunken feeling. Thank you for this it may have taken me two straight days to read, but I can say it was worth it x

I'm sitting here heartbroken and with a strange hollow feeling in my stomach. I'm trying to think of ways to express how much your story meant to me, affected me. And I realise that there aren't really words for it. Even though I have never been heartbroken, you described the feelings so well that I know I would feel if it would ever happen. I'm now in a relationship of 3 years and sometimes when I'm in one of my dark moods I would start to wonder what the hell I would do if my boyfriend broke up with me, how in the world I'd manage to pick myself up and move on while everything I had ever hoped for,dreamed of, and expected be shattered, how I would cry and scream. And when I think about those feelings it occurs that there are tears in my eyes for things that haven't happened. The way Relena felt was like a description of how I would feel and it made me bonded with her character. I have a feeling that I'm not expressing myself clearly but I want you to know that your story has moved me and I know that it will always linger in the back of my mind, remembering it when triggered by an unexpected phrase, thought, situation or mood. The sentence : " It was like applying just enough pressure to hold together the shattered pieces of a crystal globe; too loosely and the pieces would fall outward, too tightly and they would collapse inward." will always be graved into my memory.
Thank you for this story that left me breathless.

the last kiss. last hug. they were just priceless!

you have no idea how this story affected me. it made me smile, laugh, curious, angry, and grieve. i knew at some point that heero wasn't ready for all of it but like relena, i hoped and got hurt. and though the ending was bittersweet i wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
(a sequel would be nice though.*winks*)

looking forward to see more beautiful works zapenstep!

it just took 4 words then *bam*. i wanted to cry with relena.

nice story so far

hahaha. skirts. easy access.

but seriously. i like how you slowly develop the story and how realistic you portray each character.