Hi!
I stumbled upon you story as I was searching for a 1xR fanfic, having my passion in their relationship of sorts renewed a couple of days ago.

I sat through the completed 25 chapters the whole day and I must say I found it superb and quite interesting. It made my head spin, my insides turn...and in the end, you broke my heart.
I'm a sucker for happy endings and your story had me wishing of a different turn of events. I'm even tempted to make a fanfic out of yours hahaha!

I hope you find no offense in my review, but I felt compelled to write you one, since I truly feel your story was and is wonderful and it deserves one.
Still, I wanted a happy ending. Is there a sequel? Oh, wistful wishing.
Yes, I felt cheated when I got to the last chapters, because their romance was all too sweet, it was looking so well! It had a slow process and it made me feel satisfied along its rhythm...and then your plot squashed my needs as a reader. Insert histerical laughter here. But that was planned since the beginning and I can't blame you or your muse.

Your story left me feeling down, can't deny the fact...and I'll be blue till I find a nice, fulfilling story about them -my favorite couple from the Gundam universe-. Your fanfic was wonderful and perfect. BUT! hahahahaha I wanted it to be even more perfect (to appease my desires).

It's been so long since you posted and completed this story, and I hope you get to read my review.
Perhaps you have more angsty fiction of 1xR WITH happy endings? I'd love to read them. (:

Thank you for such a wonderfull piece of creativity! :D

*cries* how could you end it like that! I'm so sad :( I wish I didn't continue reading, it just made me so sad. *wipes tears* I'm so angry now... I'm going to read something happy now to take my mind off this.

Aww, I just read chapter 20 and I almost cried, how dare you. *sniffles* OH I can't wait to see what happens next! *continues to next chapter*

I'm only on chapter 6 but I love how spot on you are with the Heero Yuy personality. I know this anime came out like 9 years ago here in the US but I still love it. It's already almost 20 years old, geez. Love how you're not making him much like his character in the show so far. It's cute, reminds me of my first date. Good job! *continues on to next chapter*

This was the most prominent, most beautifully written, story I've EVER read. And I do mean that. It had so much depth to it. It was emotional. It was realistic. And you did an amazing job of exploring all areas of a first relationship and a first love. You put in the emotional roller coaster of doubts and happiness and confusion. You put in all the steps of being into a relationship, and I have never read anything so real. You portrayed the journey to love and sex very well. For all this, I commend you.

Although I'll have to say all your other characters besides Heero and Relena strayed. I would expect Duo to have done what Wufiel did for Relena.

Your ending, I enjoyed but it left much to be desired. Not because it was poorly written or anything but for the same reason everyone might say. It's because it didn't have a happy ending. It's because you know that they're supposed to be together but they don't in your story. And it leaves much to be desired and you leave the readers hoping and imagining. I had hoped you put a sequel but I can see you won't. Either way the ending was good despite the bitterness of it.

goodfic

Wow. I actually don't know what to say, it was so heart-breakingly beautiful. Literally sitting with a lump in my throat and a lead-weight in my chest after reading this story. It had so much feeling and poignancy, but most of all: the characters were all so realistic and emotive without having cliched 'angst' feeling. Painful and peacecful. Lost myself in a whole other world.
As Jessica put it before, thank you for sharing your gift.

I like how this story is so detailed into the relationship and all of its stages. most of the stories that i have read over my tenure as a fanfiction reader and author always seem to have this really rushed feeling to thier relatinoships. like " hi, u wanna go out?...sure!" then bam! sex. it really doesnt make much sense. but your story does a much better job than that. verry well written with good, if a bit excessive details. and i havent even finished reading it yet!

amazing...just amazing writing skills... too bad they didn't get together in the end... but it was a great story anyway...loved it! keep up the good work!

So, I've read this story a long while ago, but I can't remember if I ever reviewed for it.

If I haven't, forgive me, I'm making up for it now.

I just have to tell you though.

This is the BEST HeeroxRelena fanfic I have ever read.

I'm being DEAD SERIOUS.

It's truly genius and oh so real. It's exaclty how I would picture Heero and Relena's relationship if it ever did continue.

I'm telling you now because I was going through my favorite stories list and came across this one again and I loved it the first time and loved it even more the second time.

You're an amazing writer, again, I'm being dead serious.

Yup, so I just wanted to let you know that because I thought you deserved it.

Keep up the fantastic work.

--Emer.

/sighs blissfully yet sadly/ It was inevitable. I suppose I don't hate Heero after all. I was just so caught up in Relena's torment that I felt like her, you know? Thinking I hate him. Really his sadness and loneliness moved me more than hers, but being female and having my own dream-like, romantic ideals I identified with Relena's position, you know?

So, Ranleth and Wufei? Is there a story there? I think there might be! Oh well. I did like the ending. I was a bit surprised that they met again before he left. I was expecting him to leave without goodbye and have that be it. I nearly cried again in that last chapter about the story she'd tell and the girl he'd remember, and then the sun setting... It was beautiful! And I'm being sincere here.

As for disapointment in their not getting together... I've seen evidence of it in your other fics so I wasn't surprised by your twist here. However I would like to declare that, as far as this fic is concerned, I am contenting myself with a fantasy that at sometime later in the future a romance develops between Relena and Wufei. That would be interesting...

Oh, and have I mentioned how I essentially almost lost it when Heero grabbed her shoulders and was yelling? OMG! That was so powerful, his break... it was torturous! My poor, distant, lost little Heero!

And before I forget I have to say that reading your stuff is highly emotionaly draining! I almost felt like I was abusing my own heart just continuing, but I was too curious. I had to know, had to go on. I'm glad I did, but damn I feel raw after that! I feel like I just relived my own confusing and painfully long breakup! I have no idea how you wrote that! If just reading it is this taxing and draining... I can't begin to understand what writing it must be like! Or must have been... Whatever.

Looking at your AN, an epilogue would be cool, but it is unnecessary. I kind of like where this left off, from a writer's POV, because as a reader I really want that final closure of do they see each other again? does she get what she wants? does she find love? does he find love? and other etc.

I'm not too sure what else I can say about it. I could repeat how much I love your style, but I've already said it a few times, so... I think I need sleep. Need to recover from this emotional trip you've taken me on. Beautifully done! Sattisfying in every way! Gorgeously painful and deliciously full of longing and hope and love. What makes it so brilliant is that it IS real. And it is tragic, esp. for our sex. It is a pit we are all doomed to fall down from the moment we hear our first "prince charming" tale and you have captured it wonderfully, in my oppinion. Esp. for these two characters. The tragedy is potent and the feelings sincere... I can't tell, think I liked it?

Anyways, hope to hear from you soon in the form of FMS or Amour. I think I'm gonna really give myself a break before reading other things you've done. Need to heal myself from the heartache of Desires of the Heart. Exquisitely disappointing! I like elegant contradictions! But yes, well done! Even if you finished it three years ago, it's always nice to hear praise, non?

TTFN

Beautiful! I love Relena slapping him! Yes! Ooh! Yea! Okay.

What just happened? What's with the explosion? Is this weird message thing to do with Wufei's being there and taking her tea to chat? Was Heero jealous of the smile she gave Wufei? Should he be? What IS she going to do to him? I can't wait!

No pause. Must read on. Will review final chap more thoroughly. Loving it!

TTFN

I love your attention to detail, your descriptions of the "inner world" as it were. I've said it before, but it is wonderful how easily you weave the characters' thoughts and emotions into the narration. I only have a grasp on the physical and a limited skill at the emotional, I feel. I think that's why I like reading your stuff so much because I want to be able to weave those same things in and out of my own writing the way you do! Not forgery! I just want to have that skill too. You know what I mean.

To the story, however, I'm still reeling from Wufei's appearance! He almost seems random, yet he plays such a crucial part! For a second there I held a fleeting thought that maybe you were going to introduce a relationship between Relena and Wufei in which he healed her wounds (sappy wonderfulness!). But I know you're a RelenaxHeero shipper from all the fics you've written on them and it just didn't seem appropriate... Still, I can't help but wonder what his personal reason was for talking to her and trying to help her get over Heero. Unless... Ha! You wouldn't, would you? O.O

And now Heero's going to go save her life! Just like she doesn't want her to! It almost seems like you're trying to hint that he really does love her and doesn't know it, but that might just be my accursed wishful thinking. Like Relena, forever waiting... But we can't wait forever, can we? Anyways, Oh man! She's going to flip! Or she's going to break! Ooh! I bet it's the latter. That won't be good. Poor Relena.

On the other hand, during her conversation with Wufei she annoyed ME with her needy, desperate wanting. I know she loves him, but... it was pretty sad. I think I felt pity for her, though. Anyways, dry eyed through this chapter, and I'm wondering if that's going to stay... Loving it!

TTFN

Update Amour AND Final Mission Status!

You had me balling at the end there! Oh GOD, I hate you! I can't even review sensibly.

Good for her! Hurt him like he hurt her! Curse him for not understanding! Oh man! I have never hated my favorite character so much! And yet I feel so completely like Relena... Like he broke MY heart and that I can't decide if I want him or if I want to punch him! I knew she shouldn't take him to the party. Even if she needed to, I knew it was a mistake! And yet I clinged to every word! Have I mentioned that I love your writing and that I completely hate you? It's true!

And those stupid girls! What was he thinking? Bastard! Right! Be calm, review sensibly. I'll try.

In all honesty, I almost hope that was the last time she saw him! But I know that there are three more chapters. So they must meet again eventually, right? I guess I'll just have to read and find out. You know what? I'm gonna finish this tonight! I don't care anymore, I'm reading until there's nothing left to read! And I'm gonna keep the tissues close this time just in case.

You go girl! /sniff sniff/ I love you and yet I hardly know you...

TTFN

I have no idea where to begin! I think... OMG! It's just killing me! My heart is just crying inside! Stupid, idiotic Heero! I have never hated or loved him so much! I think maybe he cared about her more than he thinks and in truth he just got scared. That he wasn't ready for her, is obvious but... man! It's just so beautiful! The emotion when he was talking to Mandred... I was trying so hard not to burst into tears! I swear my heart was breaking inside! I can still feel it.

But why is she taking that asshole with her to the party? I'd rather go alone! (note, when I say a-hole I'm really actually in love with him, so... wow you rock!)

What was the emotion he kept fighting down? Why was he such a butt-munch to Mandred? Will Mandred ever come back (poor guy!)? Oh man! I'm dying here! Any thought of saving the last few chapters till later... gone!

Must read more! I may just continue reviewing the later chapters individually because 1. you're amazing (don't get too bigheaded now) and 2. I won't be able to resist even though this is a complete thing. Besides, I think you'll appreciate it non-the-less. I am awed by your brilliance!

TTFN