i read this fic some time ago and saved it, but just brought it out again to re-read. epic in it's darkness AND romantic love!

i 'think' i remember having a conversation with you years ago, where you said you were originally not going to have them end up together (they hated each other after the imprisonment or something), but you changed your mind while writing it. i'm really, really glad you changed your mind! instead of it driving them apart, you had them brought together in their shared dark-soul and dependence on each other. brilliant!

thank you! :)

Just spent all afternoon/evening reading this... and now don't even know what to say. I loved it so, SO very much I just... wow. That was intense. I can't even imagine. The style of it, the kind of overview, rather than going into every detail, seeing how they're affected throughout a span of time... fabulous. Each adventure, piling up more and more... it was amazing. I thoroughly, thoroughly loved it, and am now even MORE inspired to write my epic Helen Magnus whump story... though it won't involve the same level of tragic romance, which now upsets me.

ACK.

So good..

*stumbles away in a daze, shaking head*

MajorSam

You've got a gift for writing angsty Sam. I enjoy your fluffy stuff as well, but this one really blew me away.

great story !

This was really good. I mean, really, really good.

hilarious!

Great fic - couldn't review before now too busy reading.

Truly a wonderful story! Thanks so much for sharing!

THANK YOU for actually dealing with the CONSEQUENCES of Aliens Made Them Do It. So refreshing to see that happen in any SG-1 calamity situation, but especially in this particular one. A very engaging, jam-packed read with lots of great lines, especially the chapters with depressed/"fine, fine, fine"-Sam POV. I hope you continue taking SG-1 fic in new and exciting directions!

Nice story! Loved it! Very inciteful of certain aspects of the human psyche. Keep up the amazing writing!

Aria N

interesting, i think you got the personalities a bit mixed, but I liked the story, continue writing

Uh-oh, this has to be by far the darkest Stargate Fiction I've ever read. Very unusual approach... Not to mention that you didn't just kill one of the shows characters, you killedl THREE of them without as much as blinking...

Interesting!

Wow, great fic! I always enjoy dark and AU fics and this one of the best I've read. I'm really looking forward to reading more of your work.

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I really like your story! Carter really turned into a killing machine! But it made sense, with everything she's been through. Their relationship just seemed to fit well, the way you wrote it it wasn't forced or corny. They needed to act as a unit to keep surviving!