I have been reading this story for a long time. The only reason I ever visit anymore if for this story. I am so happy you have updated and I know that it is a lot work to come up with another chapter, but please do. I gain so much satisfaction from it. It truly is wonderfully written and a wonderful plot line. Don't give up!

wow! almost over! i think u better end this one coz really it's been a long time and u may not continue at all if ever. i hope they end up together.

I cannot tell you how excited I was that you updated, I think I almost had a heart attack. I had truly given up hope that I would never know what happened. I read all your other stories, and this is by far my favorite. Thank you for coming back to the story after two years. The last chapter definitely brought back all the energy and excitement I had for the story before. Please update when you can!

Oh, another wonderful fic of yours.
Oh, he loves her...he's deeply in love with her. They have a child...oh, I can feel the happiness bubbling inside me. Please do assure me this one will end with Heero in Relena's arms...pleaase!

A super incredible cliffy you left for us here, but well, December's here. :D

I find this story refreshing and it soothes my poor wracked nerves after I finished reading Desires of the Heart late in the morning. Let me tell you, I even dreamt about Heero and Relena, and the sad but 'real' ending you gave to them.
So now, I'm feeling better. At least he loves her and wants her back. That's good. Really good. (:

Kudos for you! I'll be lurking around, waiting.
Byee!

First of all, I wanted to let you know, THANK YOU FOR UPDATING! :) I have been following your stories for years when it comes to 1xr. I think you have an amazing talent and every one of your stories keeps me anticipating for the next chapter, even after two years!! I dont read fanfiction as much as I used to but I still check in from time to time to read your stories and I almost had a heart attack when I saw that you updated this story. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not keep us waiting long for the next chapter! I only come back to fanfiction and 1xr soley because of you. Keep up the amazing job!

First I must admit, it hs been some time so I have to some degree forgotten segements of the plot to date. But on reading it a lot has come back to me, and it all now fits together nicely.

It's ironic that it would take something like that to finally make him realise the truth, and I think the fact it was the other four who helped him realise it means that they are most certainly his friends.

Still, it seems that they really have gotten themselves in some sort of a mess now, because they just made themselves into targets as if anyone works out what is going on then there is going to be hell to pay.

I do look forwards to seeing what happens, in the mean time good luck with NanoWrimo.

Good luck & best wishes,

Hououza

i wasn't able to catch up immediately on the update but thank god i opened blissfulignorance's just-in sec and got an early christmas gift!! after 2 years? finally.

yes. relena's characterization is somewhat limpy (for lack of better term and also referring to purdy's review) compared to other fics but i somehow find it essential to the the already flawed relationship between her and heero.
heero acknowledging his 'mistake' hopefully pays off. there's too much stuff going on both lena&heero to be put to waste. like c'mon! if there's a list for people who deserve to be happy, they'd be tying on the the number1 spot.

i'm pretty glad your passion to the series hasn't faded yet. thank you for continuing this :)

To quote you, you requested, "I appreciate any comments, the more robust the better." I looked up the word "robust" and it has quite a few definitons from healthy, to bold, to rough, to rude. Well, to make this absolutely clear, I certainly do NOT ever want to be rude, especially to a veteran 1xR writer who I admire greatly. But for the longest while now, I have refrained myself from writing a review to avoid just that. Being rude to you. Everyone else is absolutely over the clouds in love with this story, and very understandably so. However, this has made me very frustrated b/c I seem to be the lone wolf, the black sheep when it comes to how I feel towards the story...

I can't possibly hate the story. Otherwise, why would I keep coming back? Just the pure intensity and the drama you've created b/t Heero and Relena is what we 1xR fans crave. And I would be a blatant liar if I said I have never come back to this story just to read the lemons alone, b/c I have. Many a time;) And the writing itself, is something so mature and so out of the ordinary good of the fanfiction world, its like finding a gem among the rough.

However, though I can't say I hate the story, I do not like it as well. In fact, what you have done, what you have written has absolutely infuriated me to my wits end I do not understand why nobody else has said anything about it. And these feelings are caused, specifically by Relena. I am so sorry, but I cannot stand her in this story. How can I possibly feel sorry for her? Am I suppose to? Am I suppose to feel sad for her and wish for a happy ending? Seriously, how? Is that what you wanted the readers to feel? B/c I'm just so confused on how I can feel that for her...and even more confused that your readers are actually feeling it!@_@

I have commented once on live journal, and I'll come clean and apologize in advance about it. I wasnt exactly cordial. I'm sorry. However, it wasn't really directed towards you, but mainly towards RElena. Of course you wrote RElena this way in the story, so yes indirectly it was towards you. Again, I am sorry. To paraphrase, I said something along the lines of how Relena had lost all her marbles from all the banging she did with Heero. Again, I am really really sorry.O_O And again, I am not writing this to start a war with you, or to be mean. Actually, I'm writing this to maybe learn from you, and most of all to understand you. Andn to understandn Relena in this story. Seriously what was she thinking? I know that in love stories like this the characters, more often than not, the female, are suppose to lose themselves in the lust, love and obessesion of it all. I mean, isn’t that the whole point of indulging in these stories? To feel the slightly semblance of what it is to be in love, especially for those of us, like me, who have never felt that emotion before? But Relena in this story….you have made me loathe her more and more with each chapter that has passed. How in the beginning, she was simply fine—more than fine: she was 24, playful, full of life and humor. Then yes, she slipped fell back in love with Heero and lost herself—all understandable—but slowly but so surely, she becomes this almost co-dependant love sick, (really sick sick) dog that just can’t live without him. This young, strong woman who was once Queen of the World, survived a war, and one of the most benevolent and most intelligent female characters I love and admire was being destroyed by a love story. You really made my heart ache, Zapenstap.

As a fellow Relena fan to another, you must have gone through the same motions that I have. How in the beginning you were swept away with the story of RElena and Heero, and the bountiful possibilities that sparked your imagination. And how you eventually loved them separately as well, especially Relena, this smart, bright young girl….and how the second you learned there were all these malicious haters towards someone that stood for peace, your mind kicked into overload in defending her—of course in the most mature and dignified manner as possibly, b/c that how RElena would’ve wanted it. How you would just simply ignore or easily debunk the arguments that she was nothing more than a delusional, useless, clingy, co-dependant, rich spoiled damsel in distress. And yet when I read the RElena you have portrayed in this fic, it feels like a slap in the face to everything RElena is and what we fans have defended of her. It feels like a betrayal.

But yikes, I’ve already lost my mind here. Let me try to regroup. Its not to say that I want Relena to be perfect. Of course not! It would be even worse, if not devastatingly BORING if all our interpretations of Relena was her being nothing more than the always good, always moral, always pure princess of peace. We read stories to learn the flaws of our favourite characters. It’s the flaws that make them interesting. The mistakes create a story. Its just I simply think you went OVERBOARD with the flaws. You’re not even overboard the ship, you’re in a completely different dimension-you’re in bizarreville. Relena isn’t RElena anymore—she’s this worn out shell and a crazy woman has possessed her. How she just keeps going back to him and taking all that crap. I don’t blame her for not being unable to fall out of love with him, but I blame her for putting herself in the situation that she still can’t lead a happy full life without him. I mean, I know she continues on living her life and all but it still certainly feels like that. And what, is Heero the only emotionally steadfast in her life?o.O What, she doesn’t have other friends to fall back on? Other than that out of her mind Candace Mae? Seriously, other than work, her life revolves around Heero, that one man? Please correct me if I’m wrong, but I don’t’ remember a single mention of anyone else in her life. No girlfriends, no Zechs…its all Heero Heero Heero.
Please help me understand. I want to like her I do, but I just can’t. Help me. Am I suppose to like her after how she’s behaved? After her choices? Of her keeping the baby, and tricking (or trying to trick) a perfectly decent, good man into believing that that was his baby. And now all of a sudden, everything is falling apart-WHAT DID SHE THINK WAS GOING TO HAPPEN?!o.O I mean, I know that the only other option was to get an abortion, and I’m not even going to go into detail on that one with a 20 foot pole. But she didn’t even stop just a moment and think on how that choice would’ve saved everyone from a spiralling whirlpool of pain, lies, and heartache? How it would save her life from turning into, what she says herself is a “spectacle”?
Which then brings me to the very end of my insane obsession with this story….I can’t see a happy ending. I really don’t. In fact, I don’t’ think Relena or Heero deserve a happy ending. Heero’s screwed up too many times and as for Relena…..she’s made her bed(no pun intended) and she should LIE in it. And that is how I feel. That is the very power of your writing Zapenstap. Its driven my inner geek insane! LOL. And I need your help to get out of it. And I need you to know that I have written this review with much thought and all the decorum I have inspite of my feelings towards this story. If you can’t tell, I even tried a bit of humour. But please please, I really hope you don’t take this as an attack. I have admired your skill as a writer for years. I would even love it if you were to become my mentor to help me get out of my writing hiatus….and if I may say so, even become friends. So I hope to hear back from you.
And of course, I will be waiting with baited, impatient breath for the final chapter. Your faithful reader, Purdy

you write brilliantly. you've made us wait for so long, too long. this is my 2nd favorite gundam fic (the first is Final Mission Status *wink *wink, read it five times already). Honestly I already gave up on this fic. Imagine my surprise when I saw an update! I must say you know how to weave the characters at the same time keep them in character, they have enough motivations, and the plot is really intruiging. I hope for an update, you said December, please don't make us wait until next year, maybe your little gift to your avid readers ^_^ thank you very much. you just made my day with this chapter.

By far, one of the most satisfying updates in a long time. For me, anyway. And worth the two years' waiting, certainly. I never really forgot this story, and that bothersome Candace Mae-- who wasn't so bothersome this time around. Thank goodness for story alerts!

I like the turn Heero took in this chapter. His redirection, I guess. From what I remember of the previous events in Amour, he was sort of building up to it. What I'm trying to say is that how he sort of confessed his feelings to the other pilots and then to Relena felt really plausible and unforced to me. I didn't question it for a minute, and was glad it finally happened. I was sort of getting frustrated all those months and months ago with how he 'couldn't love her' and whatnot. It turned out nicely. And reasonable too is Relena's reaction to her wedding day and Heero's sudden appearance.

I also enjoyed the others' involvement in this story. They'd been often absent, but they entered here seamlessly, it felt like. And graceful was your recap of the previous chapters. I was worried when you mentioned before the chapter that you would try to insert one as a courtesy, but as I was reading, I felt the story coming back to me and I didn't even realize that it was because of what I was reading. Nicely done!

I look forward to December.

sweet!

wow, that was intense to say the least. i've got the chills just thinking about the next chapter. ah, what a wonderful christmas present that will be! :)

ah! your wicked! please please i hope you will finish this story even before december. i don't have work as of this moment and i am spending my entire day reading heero-relena fics just to keep me sane but after my training and probably by december i will have a formal work i may not have the time to read abymore. please. please, you are breaking my heart with the cliff-hanger. whenever i visit the site i always choose stories that are completed but then your work got me completed hooked though i knew that i will feel the painful frustration when i get to the last page, my feeling and attention on its highest , but then there is no more to read. please. have mercy...

so intense and dramatic scenes...love it! keep up the great job and hopefully you give us a peak before december!!

that was immensely satisfying and yet frustrating at the same time thanks so much for updating, and i count myself lucky that i will be too busy in november to notice that you haven't updated this wonderful story. can't wait 'til December '09. keep up the good work and encourage your fellow excellent GW writers to start updating too! :D