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Elica
2006-07-07
ch 1, anon.
abuseAmazing! Brilliant! Fantastic! Wonderful! Awesome!

I don't know what to say. It was so good!! I couldn't walk away. Read it all at once! : D Addictive.. :lol: It was so sad at the start, with Garth dying. The Daniel Martin character, very well done. I am a gymnast (quit 2 months ago, actually) so I could understand those characters (Daniel Martin's family.) I loved how you wrote Paul Donald's character as good one, on 'our' side. I have always liked him as he had respect for the Mt. Thomas cops!!

You gave me a heart attack a couple of times!! At the start I thought it could have been Alex that died!! :o . But calmed down when I found that it wasn't! LOL Then, when Amy comes in and Susie's like "Have you seen Alex today?" ... "He's in A bad way.." :o :o I thought he was in hospital about to die!! Phew! :D You really have me all Alex/Amy now!! I never really could get them as a couple, I really wanted to but I found it hard to picture it. Not anymore!! LOL :P If it weren't for Maggie and PJ they'd be my new favourite couple (or almost couple ? :unsure: ) :P Very much in love with those two now, you made it so real, I could picture it. Haha When reading it I was like, I so have to make a banner with those two - then realised that I can't cap the pictures that have been played in my head!! :lol: :(

The songs you used! Perfect for those paragraphs. Westlife, 'You Raise Me Up' - Loved it. Also 'Somewhere over the rainbow' - gorgeous song.

"I’m all out of faith
This is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed
Bound and broken on the floor"

Aww Poor Amy! I'm glad Alex got her through it!! :P :)

"Hold me closer tiny dancer
Count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in sheets of linen
You had a busy day today"

- This was my favorite! Fitted perfect, once again. I loved it! What is the song called?

Favorite moments:
Alex giving Amy a piggy back up the stairs

The Boss helping Alex and Amy get Daniel Martin

Susie looking after Amy in the toilets after Daniel and Paul’s interview

Kelly and Joss looking into Amy's office whilst Dean and Paul were in there - so something they would do!

Of course, Alex rescuing Amy at the end

Amy forgetting to take the wire off. And that ‘it ruined the moment’! Classic..

I've been reading those 2 parts all day! :) just had a peek at the next part, 'Butterflies' and as much as I want to go on and read it, I don't think my poor eyes can take it anymore :P Not to mention it's length! ;) Also noticed the song credits - allot of my faves! :D

Sorry about my long review. Your probably over me going on about it. LOL meh.

I really think that this could be published as A Blue Heelers book, called "Amy's story."

Thank you!
jakc
2006-06-25
ch 1,
abuseSo I've finally made the effort sit down and write a rather lengthy review on what is a rather brilliant fic. Bare with me if this sounds like some analytical essay, I've spent too much time recently annalysing text to think in any other way when reading something!
First of all I'd like to congradulate you on such an amazing portrayal of Amy, you've probably heard this before but I've never been able to warm to Amy in any way probably because there's so much that I can't relate to the character and her experience, or maybe it's just the way she was portrayed on Heelers and the lack of time they spent to delve right into the character that really IS (was) Amy. In any case you've just done a splendid job. I actually sat reading this fic, feeling, UNDERSTANDING what goes through that intricate brain of Amy's. The way you took on her point of view and revealed so much about her, no episode of Blue Heelers could have compared. It was as if I'd just stolen Amy's own journal, reading her thoughts written by Amy herself. Never have I seen a more realistic portrayal of her character. I've think I've suddenly warmed to her and this fic's made me just ache for more. (Which I'll most certainly get to soon!)
I know for certain that you didn't create Amy but if I were to know nothing about her I could just say you did. You lifted that cloud of enigma about Amy, for certain.
I learnt one great thing about Amy that didn't really shine out to me when I watched her on T.V. Amy was a fragile person, you could almost say her fragileness paralleled with that of Tess', different circumstances of course but still that same underlying principle that they both bore this amazing facade. They were like you said "made of steel", well they liked to think they were, in all honesty everybody including them, particularly them, knew that if you were to strip away the pseudosteel you'd be left with nothing but a delicate, scorned soul. And you did the most brilliant job of presenting that in your fic, you really did. Amy was just that, "level headed and under control", she didn't "lose it on the job", she was "hard enough to handle just about anything" and she wasn't "supposed to fall apart". The most amazing thing was that she did. An important goal of your novel (do correct me if I'm wrong), was to show that Amy fell apart like a house of cards, she even admitted to herself that she wasn't made out of steel, like she initially hoped she was. And best of all was that she cried, she wasn't meant to let herself cry. I felt for her then, I don't cry, for some indefinable reason if I were to cry then I would lose control over myself and so I understand Amy's plight. I loved it that she cried, she couldn't handle it anymore.
Something that I noticed that's definately worth pointing out was, "the inner Amy". We all suspect ourselves of having or being more than one person (multiple personality I think they call it), within ourselves (if in any way I think it helps us understand ourselves from a different perspective) but for 'people like Amy', this 'inner' person is a dire necessity. For them it's the "unscarred, undetered" person that they protect for fear of being hurt.
What was wonderful is that, not only did you concern yourself with Amy and her delicate emotions you also included someone invariably imporant who sought to bring out Amy's inner self. Alex, Amy's "soldier" and in my opinion the real hero in this fic.
Now I shouldn't be one to judge, I didn't give either Alex or Amy a chance when watching Heelers but to me them being paired together always felt strange. Strangely enough, when I was reading this fic and felt Amy's need for someone I couldn't really imagine anyone else but Alex...except maybe Garth. It was interesting to notice just how important Garth really was to Amy. All I remember of him was a vague image of a rather brute and insensitive man, yet there's more to him in this fic and when you reveal more about Garth you then seem to just have to reveal just that little more about Amy. Well the Amy Amy wasn't most of the time, in love. I have to admit I've always had a vague curiosity what sort of a relationship Amy let herself have with Garth, baring in mind that when Amy revealed that she had a relationship with him I seemed to pay very little attention to anything spoken on the television so I'm grateful that you've given me a realistic suggestion. Just like Amy's relationship with Garth, it felt "thrilling and romantic" to read. They almost belonged to this little secret society based entirely on the hope of keeping it a "little secret". Amy's love for Garth seemed more than genuine, unrealistic but still very genuine, so when Amy lost Garth I couldn't help but feel a relentless sense of pity. Garth and Amy "shared a lot" and in that split second, in what was a chivarous act everything that Amy and Garth had was gone, "splattered across that bumper of that car" that led to his brutal end.
Grief isn't something I've had the horror to deal with that much, but as Amy lost Garth I felt as if I lost him too. Amy lost Garth and his "little world", that made walking through that apartment with Amy all the more unbearable, to see her sift through his belongings and reminise about how much of herself she gave to him, or even the little scene where Garth's smell engulfed her as she just walked in was heartbreaking. They say that smell triggers memory, and funnily enough as evolved and sofisticated human beings are no-one can ever forget the smell of a loved one, and it most certainly torments us after their death.
Quite contrary to Garth then came the compelling character of Daniel Martin. A man so "Obsessive,possessive, strong and powerful", a belittling man that strove to tear down that glorified image of Garth that Amy so brilliantly defended. I might seem cruel but Daniel Martin was a brilliant character, I held no admiration for him but in the same way that'Tom Buchanan' from 'The Great Gatsby' held an omnipotent strength so did this Daniel Martin and it made his downfall even more rewarding.
And of course coming back to someone whom I regard as the hero of this fic, Alex. Alex, another character I certainly didn't like probably because his larrikin behaviour was very selfish and insensitive but you revealed that other side of Alex that perhaps I overlooked. I didn't like the Alex on T.V. but I did this one, I guess I have a soft spot for chivalrous people. It was Alex's knight in shining armour qualities that grew on me really; his persistent urge to drag out the "inner Amy" and at the same time risking being a "substitute". That scene between them actually made me think of that strange phenomenon so notoriously labelled " the rebound crush". What is it that we truly hunger for, affection itself or the person from whom that affections comes? I thought that for Alex's sake Amy would, with an abundence of tears confess her undying love to the poor guy but the realistic saddist in me won in the end, not for the worst though. Amy put it so well, she "missed" Garth but she could no longer 'love' Garth and Alex wouldn't be a "substitute", he couldn't possibly replace Garth because he didn't need to. Undeniably Alex would become the next person to really love Amy for who she was and much to Amy's resentment be that someone who would look after and care for her, ardently. What I loved most, was that in the end Amy finally gave in, going by Alex's rather poignant advice "Even heroes have the right to bleed" Amy gave into his magnanimous charm and the prospect of letting go. Caught still wearing the wire, her absentmindedness in taking it off gave that subtle assurance that Amy really wasn't planning to keep this relationship under wraps, she was "over living life with a caution notice", no more fragile "porcelein doll". Amy became the "human being" I suppose, with or without her "big purple security blanket" (brilliant image by the way, I think I might go get myself one now!).

Something you're probably sick of hearing about are pictures/images, (I tend to be a little obsessed) but it is something that just keeps coming back whenever I read a fic of yours. The other day just happened to be a rainy day, I was cleaning out my drawers again and to my delight I stumbled over that T/J fic that I printed off so long ago and just to tease myself I skimmed through it, just to live those pictures, just that ONE more time. I must be a little boring with this image thing but it's the only reason I read anything. Images I make in my head are more vivid than those ever produced on a television screen. For author's whose writing make those images, I hold the greatest esteem. And you've really outdone yourself this time Brindy. For all the examples I could list, these seem to be the most memorable:
1. "At the thought my heart feels like it’s falling down my chest cavity, hitting me on the bottom rib and I double over feeling winded." And of course, I saw Amy's heart fall when reading that, better still I felt it, felt the surge of pain as it hit her bottom rib, felt the gush of nausea (:S that might have just been me ) felt Amy's anguish.
2. "Why must hospitals be such sterile, unfriendly places? I hate the silence of them." I have the joy of visiting these places often and I can never get over the smell. The sterility just about kills me! Hospitals although they are rather cheerful places still have that omninous silence about them, I too hate the silence.
3."It is the most haunting and horrifying sobbing I have ever heard..." Is it just me or do you tend to actually hear that mother cry? Maybe it is just me but that scream was just so frightening, I still hear it now!
4. "Don't worry about the coffee" Ahh coffee, life's panacea for everything. I do love the smell of coffee brewing though, m.

5. And something rather trivial:
"all the more to see you with I guess" *giggles* I couldn't help but think of Little Red Riding Hood! "All the better to see you with..."

Again Brindy I can only congradulate you on your spectacular fic and I absolutely can't wait to get stuck into this next one, and the one after that too. Most off all I'd like to thank-you for giving me such insight into Amy's mind, "No one can get her completely" but I at least understand her a little, finally!

jakc
panthersfan
2006-04-18
ch 1,
abuseI really loved this story. Alex and Amy really do belong together and this is a great story that shows it. I love it how they work together without fighting and Amy shows another side of her. If this were an espoide, everybody would watch it, but hey thats just me! But in the end, i really love the syory and hope u do another one similar to this.
cya Jennifer. (Beanie)
brenda
2006-03-02
ch 1, anon.
abusethis is a great story! please write some more stories bout amy cause she rocks!

my only criticism is that you could have maybe split this story up into a few chapters... i found it a bit daunting when i realised how long it was going to be!

brenda
The Evil Sheep
2006-02-27
ch 1,
abuseoh my god your story is so good. You should publish a friggin book. why don't you accept annonymus reveiws it took me ages to reveiw man!
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