 past-the-pacific 7/1/10 . chapter 1Oh...oh DEAN. Oh Sam.
Fuck.
Wincest isn't even my thing (much) but THIS. This broke my heart and shattered it into tiny pieces. The sheer emotion in this fic took my breath away.
Dean lies very still. He can still feel Sam's body against his own, that lean length, all elbows and muscles and knobby knees. Feel Sam's breath against his face. His lips burn, feel weirdly numb. He touches them with his fingers, and can't feel it.
THIS.
And he does, still frozen on the edge of the bed, a rivulet of water dripping down his cheek from his wet hair and shivering in the air conditioner's blast, while Sam shoves crap into his bag, zips it briskly. Sam is leaving. Sam is leaving HIM. Again. It has the flavor of memory to it, dull and nauseatingly familiar. But he can't move. If he moves, something inside him will break, something he can't put together again, patch up and Bondo and pretend is all right again. If he stays very, very still, he won't break.
And THIS.
He wants to cry, but his eyes are dry. Wants to scream, and all he can manage is this breathy voice that doesn't even sound like him. "You can have it. Whatever it is you want." He's on his feet but doesn't remember getting there, just all of a sudden he's standing with his hand on the door, holding it closed, and Sam's face is twisted with surprise while Dean reaches up to touch his cheek, and then Dean says, "I don't mind, I don't," and Sam flinches away, steps back.
His face is white and horrified, and Dean's broken parts scrape against each other while Sam whispers, "I don't want it like that. I don't. Jesus Christ, who do you think I am, Dean?
These boys are just so broken and you just portray that perfectly without getting to that over-kill emo angst that unfortunately is such an easy line to cross in this fandom. Thank you for this rough, lovely fic (written three years ago). |
 Mr Jakey Fakey 7/30/09 . chapter 1*grabby hands* want more...*sniff*
definatly good story, likes very much. thankyou for writing such wondeful things for people like me to read with my boyfriend.
and get ideas from *nudge* hehe
no, we are not infact brothers so this theme may not be successful...oh well, he always was dramatic, ROLEPLAY! hahahaha!
sorry, the point is...very nice writing. and yes, keep it up - xxJake |