 Lass 2009-10-18 . chapter 24Hey,
It's been a long time since you've updated, although I'm ashamed to admit it's been even longer since I read this story. A few chapters have been added since I last looked, and all were lovely, as usual.
It's unfortunate Lily's anger didn't have more effect on James, and looking back, it probably would've been better for her to visit Severus and try to get him to change his attitude. Not only do I think he'd at least try to figure everything out and change his behaviour, he also would've been able to help in other ways - like getting rid of James in Lucas' life - in the process.
At a certain point, I really just wanted to rage against the unfairness. Okay, I'll admit, at many points. But at least now everyone seems to try to be kinder, or at least ignore Lucas instead of bothering him all the time. A small kindness, and it could've been better, but at least now he gets the chance to live for himself instead of constantly having to avoid the next person who wants to hurt him. And some are actually trying to be his friends, although I don't blame him for not trusting them - so far, his trust has been betrayed by pretty much everyone but Boris, Poppy and perhaps Jonathan and Adrian.
I love the friendship between Lucas and Adrian, by the way. It's a really nice development, despite not being planned for. It really helps the story along and at least now there's someone with both the motive and the guts to correct Severus. The somewhat tentative relationship with his brother is also nice, can't wait to see what'll ever happen if Jonathan finds out about James' behaviour towards Lucas. Although, knowing the story and the title - perhaps I shouldn't be too hopeful, huh?
Severus really vexes me, although less so now that he's tempered his behaviour a little. It's not the fact that he can't figure out Lucas is really Harry - after all, that's not an easy set of prejudices to overcome. He thinks Harry should be a Gryffindor when Lucas is really Slytherin, he doesn't suspect James would ever treat his son unkindly while Lucas was abused (although that should, perhaps, not be such a stretch of the imagination considering how James treated him before... Then again, child abuse is a completely different thing), he only sees Harry's flaws in Potions whereas Lucas was perfect...
Honestly, I don't blame Lucas at all for not knowing how to respond to Severus' letter. The man has treated him unkindly when he was Harry, after all, and unfairly so. He didn't know Harry was Lucas; okay, but he didn't even give Harry a fair chance, and that's just completely wrong. His anger is completely justified, I think, and I really hope Severus will be very, very, VERY ashamed when he finds out. He tries to make amends right now, and that's a good thing, but he's still got a long way to go.
Although justified, I'm not sure I agree with the fact that Lucas is getting more and more bitter and angry at the world. It frightens me to think about him never being able to forgive, and I'm glad he has at least a few people he can really trust. I sincerely hope that never gets ruined. As for the rest, well, the title /does/ say that he can't stop hoping, so perhaps he's not as far gone as I'm afraid. Then again, that title also implies things will keep going wrong all the time, and I really hope things will go right for him just once.
Really wondering how Severus is going to find out about Lucas, though. I've already imagined a scenario where James, while angry at Lucas for the next random and unjustified reason, adresses Lucas with his full name when shouting at him. I've also wondered about how the summer holidays would go, what with Lucas probably going back to Boris and running into Severus there. That would end up with some pretty strange situations, with Lucas either not knowing how to act or being cold. I mean, I just can't imagine it going back to the way it was before Severus treated him so badly and disappointed him.
So, to sum everything up; I absolutely adore your story still and really hope you'll be able to update sometime soon. If you need inspiration or something to get rid of writer's block; if it means you'll continue one of my all-time favourite stories, I'm always willing to help if I can.
Good luck and I wish you all the best!
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