My god, that was so unbearably sad! Perhaps my eyes are painful from reading so much online...but I actually felt like crying...Great job with this fic.

In the past I've tried to start reading this story many, many times. I mentioned by email when you first posted it that merely the summary, and the fact that it's _yours_, were enough to let me know this story was going to hurt, and so I've put this off for (literally!) years... Even now, I couldn't read it all the way through at once. Believe me, I take injury/death/loss stories in stride; but when the emotion is handled as it is here - ! And I have a considerably higher tolerance now for AtG-tragedy, as I'm a little removed from the fandom - but it's only now that I'm removed that I can handle this story with even a little coherence!

I'll now go and comment in detail on your LJ because otherwise perhaps this review would take up an entire page... but to summarize, this was moving and gorgeous and I would say definitely among my top 3 favorites of your stories.

I should probably be ashamed that this story made me feel so sad. It's just not natural dammit! I can't really muster the words to say how much I enjoyed because its just rather too good for some silly expression like 'great! Write another chapter.' Really really enjoyed it.

As always, one of the great writers on fanfiction!

Sorry, haven't reviewed in so long, had a down computer.

Baliansword

Well, now that I finally stopped crying I can review it.

This is by far one of the best stories I have read in a long time. I can picture Alexander writing that letter, tears falling from his eyes. Simply amazing.

I am sorry it took me so long to review. I read the story several days ago and found it very thought invoking. In fact, I found myself thinking about it during odd moments of my day.

There was so much love involved for both Hephaestion and Alexander. The saddness and personal loss their deaths brought

were heartbreaking. And yet, to have such love in their lives...it's all anybody can ask for.

You are such an icredibly good writer. You can bring such deep emotions from the written word. Bravo, on this wonderful story.

As always,

Love,

Wendy

What can I say to this - one word: exquisite. You captured their heartbreak so perfectly without losing their masculine perspective. Wonderful.

A highly moving and very sad story beautiful.

I don't even have a clue as to what praise to heap upon you this time Moon.

This story was just so beautiful. And lovely. And gorgeous. And every other synonym of beautiful that I can think of. This was so well-written and moving. I actually cried a little at the end.

I absolutely love your style of writing. It is so unique and I love your ability to truly bring the characters alive and make me feel for them. I really loved Alexander's letter to Amyntor. All the grief and angst. God, it was beautiful. This story just serves as another example as to why you're one of my favorite authors ever. Keep up the excellent work hun.

Please write more so I can cry and obsess and angst. Please!

Love,

Becky Greenleaf

Beautifully written and very, very sad. It made me cry, not nice! But, I'm glad you wrote it.

So very sad! Each time I am reminded of Alexander's death and his Lsat Plans, I feel sad that he didn't live another thirty years and do more to integrate different peoples in his mixed cities. Here, Alexander completely lost the will to live. Amyntor with his family still left to care for, found the strength to cope with his loss and grief and carry on. Perhaps the two should have written to each other earlier to offer comfort. Interesting that Amyntor felt after all this time that Athens would be a safer place for his family than Pella, as long as Antipater was alive and in charge.

Great story. I usually avoide Hephaistion's death but you are the writer so I could not stop myself. HEE HEE and this is incredible great. Thank you

*endless tears*

you have almost killed me with this story...so beautiful but so sad!I've loved the letter from Amyntor: so heartful and clear in his feeling for Hephaestion and for Alexander. Wonderful story like always!

I'm going away soon, so I will write you a mail very soon :)

With the risk of sounding melodramatic, I will tell you that I was not able to read past Alexander's letter. I will do so tomorrow, when my heart won't be in my throat and the need to cry into my fists will have stopped.

"Hephaestion was the sun who illuminated my world and without him I stumble in cold darkness."

Beautiful sentence, says it all about this the greatest story of Love and Friendship of all times. Alexander's letter is totally heart rendering, he pours out all of his endless grief to Amyntor, whom he sees as a second father, as described in your other stories, Hating Alexander and Loving Hephaestion.

Your story holds many flashbacks, and also gives a vivid picture of the present feelings of grief and dismay, both Alexander's and the Amnytor family's.

Amyntor's reply is also heart rendering, and his family's grief and fears are well described. Antipater's visit with the grim tidings of Alexander's death makes them leave Macedon permanently - and Amyntor's burning of the both letters is a final tribute to their inconsolable grief.

All the best wishes and many thanks for sharing,

/NorthernLight