This is really sad. I guess no matter how much he tries, Alec can't always be all right.

its so sad, i love it.

Great Alec story. It really shows that he was wounded deeply by Rachel's death and I can feel that if he hadn't allowed himself to fall in love with her, he'd be okay and why he approaches it and his other relationships from a comfortable distance. He knows what it's like to get so close, then get hurt and tries not to repeat that ever again. Partly because he's a good man deep down and wouldn't want anyone to get hurt because of him, but also because he doesn't want to feel that pain ever again.

Really wonderful!

Favorite parts:

I should have been able to remember her… I should never have forgotten. Even as he thought that, though, Alec knew that it wouldn’t have been possible. If making him forget hadn’t worked, then he would – more than likely – have been terminated.

I’m always all right.

He wasn’t, not at all. But allowing himself to break down wouldn’t do any good whatsoever. Rachel was dead, and he hated himself for the part he had played in that.

Alec closed his eyes against the pain that threatened to blanket him.



Thanks for sharing it!