Very well done, so much suspense wondering if John had actually killed McKay or something else. Great job!

Really intriguing story. loved the last lines - they were very poignant

Nice Shepwhump and angst. Well done!

-LilRicki (aka Pansy Chubb)

OMG ... Way awesome. Wonderful writing!

So I'm sitting here reading this and over and over I can't stop saying "Holy ** this is amazing" Seriously, deep, impacting and the way you write this has me gnawing at my nails. D: I love your POV on Rodney, John, oh gosh all of it is just so perfect. Gave me chills, dude. You inspire me to write another day.

Hahah, I'll die if I don't see more of this, great job XD;

Fantastic story, really well written. Please update soon! Will we hear about how Ronon and Teyla are dealing with it?

Very very intense -- amazing story.

That was a really intense fic!

Excellent story - and very realistic ending. What made it good was the very things I normally avoid - you never find out who the villain(s) was, you never found out exactly what Rodney did to him (but you can guess), you never found out if Sheppard recovered. Do you intend to write any sort of sequel - for example, Dr Graham gets Sheppard to "recover" but nobody knows what Rodney did until months later when Keller realises Rodney's dying - he's been falsifying medical computers to hide his ulcers as guilt over feeling no guilt eats him up inside - and they find someone from the attacked planet who witnessed it who explains so Sheppard/team can help rodney deal with it...sorry, just my imagination!

Wow, that was pretty dark. But I loved it, very well written!

Kristen
Here is a little blast from the past. Hi, it has been so long since I had a chance to read anything on this site. I have saved all the e-mails though, some day I might get to it. Anyway, good start to the story, I can see much improvement since I started reading your stories. I how you have set up the story, and given clues to what the answer might be, but not actually giving the ending away. I am looking forward to seeing what you do with some of the implications you have integrated into this first chapter.

About 1 ½ years ago I got from Netflix and watched the entire 3rd season of SG-Atlantis because I kept thinking I was missing something when reading your stories, then my life got crazy. It is not over yet (it is getting crazier) but I wanted to at least review one of your chapters. Keep up the good work. I will try to read the chapters as they come out.
Amy

Oh, that is good. Very intense but very smooth unfolding of the mystery of what happened to poor John, told in your usual stunning fashion. Ultimately a great story of friendship. Another gem!

Whoa. THat was REALLY intense. Can we have another chapter or ten? :0)

OMG, that was totally intense! There are times when knowing the truth about what happened is necessary for recovery, but in this case, it's probably better that Sheppard not remember. And it's a testament to their friendship that Rodney will do anything to protect Sheppard.

Slightly dark tone is a huge, major understatement. I didn't quite understand everything that had occurred until the very end. When I got it, I was beyond horrified and worried for John and what repercussions would occur for him even if he never understood or remembered what he did. He already takes everything as a personal failure and every death as his fault. The guilt would kill him. It reminded me a little of that Korean horror movie where a guy has the same thing done to him, I think it is called unleashed or unchained. Great job but a stronger warning is definitely needed. This was quite disturbing, which is a testament to your writing but an M rating might be appropriate. What you don't say is worse than what you do.