Sometimes you have to go for what you want. Even if you are Carlisle and you have a lot of control.

I've never liked reading a Carlisle-Esme fic. But this fic has completely changed that! It was excellent! Thanks for it :)

LOVE! aw...how sweet :)

AWESOME!

exactly how i imagined carlisle changing esme would be like!

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This fic by bethaboo was just recently completed in April. It's an Esme/Carlisle fic, and before you Esme haters flounce it, PLEASE give it a chance! It's not all sunshine and fluff. It tells the story of what happened after Carlisle changed Esme, and it follows her through her first year or so. It centers around Esme, but quite a bit of it is from Carlisle's POV. Even when we're not seeing things through his eyes, he's often in HER thoughts because, well, she's just a little bit upset with him.

I really liked this fic because Esme, in canon, is always portrayed as the perfect wife and mother. bethaboo, however, addresses a very important fact - Carlisle changed Esme because he loved her, but Esme was a suicide. Esme wanted to die. She didn't just WANT to die - she took steps to make it happen. And our kind, gentle mother-figure wakes up a confused newborn, which quickly morphs into a very ANGRY newborn once Edward explains what has happened. She's an angry newborn who blames her creator and hates him. Or at least she WANTS to hate him...

Ah, yes, Edward. He's in here, too, of course. Edward, who is finally adjusting somewhat to his new life and cares for Carlisle. But Edward misses his mother, too, and bonds with Esme-as-mother-figure. In spite of this, though, Edward is as conflicted as ever (of course), and like a lot of kids when Daddy brings home a new mommy, he's not sure he wants to share Dad's attention.

Esme wants nothing whatsoever to do with Carlisle. Carlisle wants Esme, but is consumed with guilt for having changed her. Edward vacillates between wanting to 'protect' her from Carlisle's interest - having seen her memories of abuse - and wanting her gone so he can have Dad back. Esme wants to leave as soon as possible. And Edward, well, Edward decides everyone will be happier if he helps her achieve this goal.

Carlisle, in this fic, is a man in love. And he's pretty sure it's a love that is in vain. He couldn't stop himself from changing her, but he considers it the most selfish act of his existence. He tries to do the best he can for her, as her sire, but his feelings for her seem to confound his ability to care for her as a newborn. He makes the mistake of letting Edward play too big a role in her care because of her overwhelmingly negative response to Carlisle, and they all end up paying a price for that.

Overall, a very good fic. Most of all, I liked the insight it gives into Carlisle's thoughts and feelings about the creation of his mate. It's rated “M” for mature, but there's not a lot of lemonade in this one. It IS a beautiful story. And I really like to think that THIS is the way it happened.

I absolutely have fallen in love with this story. I love Carlisle and Esme and have made it my personal mission to find more stories that have them as the main characters. Great job!

Aww. Lovely, Boo, truly lovely. I can totally see this happening in canon. Edward leaving (however temporarily) couldn't have been easy for these two.

Fantastic! I'm glad everything worked out for Esme in the end.

Awesome ending. BRAVO!

Thank you for sharing.

It's not many of us who brave the world of a non-BxE story. :)

How sad that Edward left them that way.

this epilogue was really good! You described their feelings very well! Great Job!

Great job, I am sad to see this story end. But it was a wonderfully bittersweet ending. I love that you had it set a while after Esme and Carlise were together.

Fantastic story, from start to finish!

I'm not normally an Esme/Carlisle reader, but I read this story, and was so impressed by your treatment of the characters. There are too many Esmes that seem automatically happy, and I've always shied away from those stories. I loved that she was different. You took into account that she had wanted to die, and that there was an adjustment period that was needed.

I've enjoyed a number of your stories, but have to say that this was especially well written, and quite poignant. Thanks so much for a lovely story, and I'll be reading Sins of the Father.

Fantastic job, and congratulations on finishing Eve!

Interesting epilogue, it closes everything pretty well.

And it's in a moment very important to them, when Edward leaves.

Good work. Thank you for writing the story.

Saludos