I really like this...I watched Unknown Trouble the other night and I wondered what Ben was thinking when he was looking at the body...This answers that question. Good job!

Ben didn't hold back when he honestly told his training officer that taking a life was a "big deal" to him. He definitely comes across as sensitive and conscientious person, and the way you interpret and write his introspective reflections conveys that. Such a significant event would unnerve anyone, and certainly lead to some soul-searching and second-guessing. You've provided a thought-provoking look at what he might have been thinking and feeling with the bolded words for emphasis.