I hate how well you write.

Great story so far though, I love how hesitant Dean was to bring Sam back and all the different facets of Sam your exploring. Insane Tuesday Sams the best so far :D

Just...wow. This fic is so awesome. I am at a lost for words. I haven't seen the first four seasons yet. I am little late to the party but that is okay, right? Anyway...what a wonderful story. Thank you for writing such an awesome. ^__^ ::Goes off to read the other stories.::

Awesome story. I can't say enough good things. The way you delved into Sam's inner psyche was great and made Dean see Sam for what he was.

Keep up the good work.

wow. just wow. easily the best ive read in a long time.

just...wow.

Great job with this story! You examined a lot of issues that are usually ignored in the series and you did a wonderful job with it. I really enjoyed reading it, especially the ending. Thanks for sharing!

Well done!

You're knowledge of Supernatural is encyclopedic. To be able to find and inspect little canon scenes and clues that make up who Sam is, to process them with such care to detail, and then to reorder and give them back to us with the greater meaning exposed, takes skill and thought and (doubtless) no small amount of love for the series.

There are not alot of people in any fandom who choose to stay solely in canon, and when someone who can write so well chooses to do so, really exceptional pieces like this one can follow.

Speaking of following...I first read your work over on the Cal Leandros section of . You and so many others over there shared an interest in SN that it made me curious. Thank you for doing that!

This is a great ending to a fabulous story! The description of Sam as worthless, conceived without love, was so horribly sad - but the ending made up for it.

Season Five hasn't started screening in Australia yet, so I'm not sure where Kripke is going. I wish there could be moments like this.

(And Bobby is awesome, as always.)

This was one of the most amazing stories I have read-so sad-and so much hope at the end-great job!

(Collapses on computer bawling)

I was so afraid that this would have a sad ending. Im glad its hopeful!

I've often thought that Dean didn't deserve the halo-brush he got painted with in S4 and in lots of fanfiction. It was like he believed that Hell had been his pennance - past and future. Instead, I think it just started him towards Demonhood, like Ruby and like Sam's own choices. He came out blackened and damaged and that showed in the way he dealt with everything after his return.

Dean in this seemed to be equally willfully blind and almost arrogant - I was glad he felt empathy for and forgave Sam but.. no it didn't even seem like forgiveness. Acceptance, yes, that was it. A good start, but not perhaps the reaction he would have had prior to Hell.

I hope S5 takes some cues from you and ends on a positive note - those two didn't deserve a fraction of what they got.

*grins* Now if only Kripke would give us this kind of resolution!! "Because for the first time in a long time, Sam wasn’t his burden. He wasn’t Dean’s responsibility. Sam was just his brother." And for crying out loud, will one of these boys just realize that what Sam really needs is to have the chance to save himself? Though I guess you could argue that Sam tried that route and failed miserably this last season - though with Heaven and Hell stacking the deck against him, Sam never really stood a chance.

Still... I love the hope that you give with this ending. I love the idea that our boys can find one another again, because together - truly together - I really do think that anything is possible. They have incredibly awful odds, but as one professional review of the series has already stated, the boys seem to do their best work when their odds are the worst. And together? They really are the best together.

But aside from all of that - another wonderful piece, here! Faye - I've missed reading SPN fic that carries a hope for the future, that deals with the present and past, and leaves me with a smile on my face. It's a beautiful day outside, all sunny and vibrant, and I want the stuff I read to mimic that wonderful feeling... or maybe that's newleywed bliss still talking. ;p Either way, you continue to display your incredible talent in this realm, and it was a pleasure to read. Thanks, as always, for sharing. :)

GASP! yellow eyes!! gr...lol

"Too bad for her that the pill doesn’t protect against demon interference.”
-snort- oh boy...talk about supernatural birth control...lol

"Be the hero Heaven meant for you to be. Save the world and start by eliminating me.”
heh...that totally rhymed...LOL

"Hell’s bitch. Heaven’s pawn."
heh...I like that :)

aw!! that was such a good ending!!
great job! :D

That was a great ending! I'm really glad you gave us - and Sam and Dean - hope in the end. After seeing the premiere, I'm thinking Kripke's heading in the same direction even if it doesn't immediately seem that way from that final scene!

You raised some interesting points in this - particularly about Sam's inherant value, "My inherent value is dependent on the job Hell laid out for me," and "It would never matter because Sam’s part in this was over," and then we see that Sam thinks he has nothing to live for now because he'll never be free because he was condemned from birth. While that's true, it's also true to say that now Sam's done what Azazel had planned for him to do - raised Lucifer from Hell - doesn't that give Sam hope that he might be free of that 'dark destiny'? Now that his part in Azazel's plan - his inherant value as Azazel's weapon - is done with? That's one of the things that excites me about Sam's role in season 5 - what's he going to do next now that he's done what Azazel set out for him to do from the second Mary made the deal.

While I like the idea of Dean having noble reasons for it, "If he could kill this, maybe he could still save Sam," and I did like the allusion to Sam and John in Devil's Trap, I still don't think Dean could ever shoot his brother, any more than Sam could shoot John, even in an unreality like what was going on in Sam's head. I do like the metaphor though - Dean trying to excise the demon blood and leave just his brother behind. I'm hesitating to use the word 'evil' instead of 'demon blood' there because even though you've got Dean thinking "Kill the source, kill the thing that made Sam evil," I don't think that Dean ever believed Sam was evil and I myself don't believe Sam was ever evil - which is the clever part about how Sam fulfilled his destiny in the show. While he did what he was born to do - release Lucifer - he never went evil to do it. He's still redeemable. So I'm not sure about Dean thinking, "Kill the source, kill the thing that made Sam evil." I don't think Dean has ever seen Sam as 'evil' per se, even at the end of season 4.

I liked the fake ending. That was a nice little twist!

This was an interesting read. You should be really proud of this story.

...so...beautiful! *cries*

This is truly amazing. Your description of Sam's mind is so deep and thoughtful and I think I'll never be able to look at him as I did before. I always knew that Sam was tortured by what happened all around him, but I never really think that his emotional trauma would be this deep. Before, I thought that being with Dean is enough for him, but now...wow.

I love your writing style. Please write more wonderful stories like this.

Oh, and the part about hope at the end? Perfect.

What an amazing story! This would have made such an awesome episode! XD
I really, really loved it!