The connection in the first part, with Alec/Edward where it didn't make sense for them to be apart. The pull that they had for wanting to stay even if it was unusal; that, that was not only described perfectly but I've experienced this.

Great writing.

That's the hardest part, taking everything and putting it in boxes. Expecting them to show up at any moment, even when you know that it's not possible. Desperately wanting to turn back time.

You have also hit it on the head where people get uncomfortable around you when they expect you to just move on. And all you want to to is live in the past though you know it's not healthy or what you want.

I also understand the not wanting to speak to Jane thing. Especially since she was a twin. I was in Jane's shoes in the end. I lost a good friend because she couldn't be around me either.

You described the awkwardness of others well. Especially of those who know you but not them. They don't know what to say or how to respond. And you don't really even know how to express anything except tears and silence.

I planned on reading this through and going back to review each chapter but I can't. This is the most heart wrenching story I have read in a very long time and it is hitting really fucking close to home right now.

I just lost the my love six weeks ago today. And I can completely relate to this story which by deduction means you've felt this and I have no words for your pain.

They say time makes it easier but I am really questionable as to how. How do you move on when what you loved and wanted forever ends so abrubtly? How do you trust your heart to anyone else and not feel the betrayal to them? More or less trust someone else not to break the damaged pieces more?

Then their is the guilt of not getting better when you feel the pressure of those around you reminding you that you are still breathing. It's annoying when all you want to do is take it one day at a time and not feel bad for the bad days and enjoy the good ones where laughter over stupid things does come. But you're empty inside and trying to convience yourself that if you fake it enough then it will turn into reality.

I'm hoping the rest of this story helps show me a path as to where the hell to go from here. Because honestly, I have no damn idea.

That was really, really good. I'm glad Edward didn't leave Seth, but I'm also still glad that he never let go of Alec even though in RL it wouldn't be the healthiest of things.

I'm so glad Edward's talking, and Seth is just so perfect.

This chapter killed me with the opening dream sequence, and then gave me some hope again when Edward was able to be a little happy with Alec's friends, and then killed me again when he said goodbye at the end.

Oh, this chapter was so good. It wasn't full of hope, but it made me a little hopeful for Edward.

Gah, it's way too early for a cry but now that I've started this I can't stop! (I mean that I can't stop reading, but I suppose the crying is likely to continue as well.) At least you haven't set up the expectation for an HEA... This is beautifully written and such an accurate expression of grief. Edward's pain is absolutely palpable.

Your fic was recommended to me the other day on twitter. It is a very sweet story and really liked how you developed your characters and their relationships. Thanks for writing this!

Seth loves Alec because Edward does. I think that was an excellent fic and I can't wait to read the sequel. Some people might be disturbed by their relationship, but you can't help you love. I think that Seth was so understanding about Alex because Edward shared his love for A with him. Most people that suffer a lose like that keep it inside not wanting share it. Shutting up now.

Absolutly loved it.

-Chlo-

Fuck, this story really is fabulous

-Chlo-

Good grief that was a hot blow

-Chlo-