That's a nice way to present Illya's feelings. He has so much conflict inside. I do understand his need to privacy and secrecy. If things happened, they are in the past and there should be no need to bring them back on the headlines.

Of course, that's particularly hard to do when you have a friend who cares as much as Napoleon.

Poor Illya and his angst! I love the line about "the point of remembering." It's very Illya. Nice.