The last line of this just gets me somehow... It's very intimate, very strong.

I'm thinking that the others couldn't compare to Spike in bed. Angel was one time and the first. Parker was a one time and it was probably all about him. Riley was probably too vanilla for it to be anything fun. Spike on the other hand wants his partner to enjoy it. She dumped a guy who would die for her or her sister, who loves her and is great in bed. Idiot.

Why would he stay? I mean you are just using him and he knows it. But He didn't care, because he always hoped it would become more. Now that he knows it wont why should he stay?

I like where this is going! Can't wait to read more.