Awww Snape. Always a wild card. He brings up a good point, Lily. I appreciate that you allowed him to still hate Harry while acknowledging Lily's part in his life. It would be quite the bizzare situation to find yourself in, the son of your best friend and your enemy is sure to cause quite a bit of internal conflict.

Harry is... Harry. I like that you emphasized the selfishness of his attitude, and pointed out the flaws in his argument, but allowed him to believe himself anyway. He is fascinating, and I am scared for him.

Thanks!

aiee, reminds me of highschool angst / and even though I enjoyed reading it, I'm going to drop it, precisely because of the reminders of highschool angst _ ah, I want to say good things about this fic, I really do, but each thing I enjoy about this fic that pops up in to my head are in and of themselves things that I do not enjoy - .- so congratulations on some kind of meta-sadomasochism getting transmitted through your fic p Also, Harry's a bit of an idiot. I read so many fics but lately it keeps popping out at me that canon Harry was an idiot with some pretty fucked up thinking. I think you summed up some realistic teenage stupidity right there. meh, hope something magical or out of the norm happens sometime in the future, i realize the categories are set as Angst/Drama (one of the categories I least like -.-) mahh, probably not going to happen though, I was reading the beginning as Harry becoming unhinged in a terminally fatalistic way. when it was really just normal teenage suicidal tendencies. which aren't something to laugh off or anything, but its 'normal' in that I can name off a couple of people who went through pretty dreadful phases (nothing like the petty teenage angst I had) and I'm pretty oblivious to these things unless I get shown the cutting marks / I went to one of the nicest international schools in my country too, so look in to any other school and you'd get way more teens like that. unhinged craziness is always fun to read. teenage angst hits just the sliiiightest bit too close to home. still, fun read though

Very intense. Interesting take on this theme. Unique use of the blood quills introduced in OotP. I'm interested in which Slytherin was working with them.

wow. very powerful. i'm very interested in where you take this. i'd love to see harry be more "obnoxious" - just because snape may have the upper hand for now doesn't mean harry has to be a good boy.

I saw this on Potions and Snitches but for some reason can't review there? Couldn't see the security code :S So I found it here! Yay!

THIS STORY IS AMAZING! I AM LIKE SITTING HERE IN SHOCK AT HOW BRILLIANT YOUR WRITING IS! HARRY'S SARCASM IN THAT FIRST CHAPTER WAS SO PERFECT! Sarcastic Harry is my favourite hahaha. I LOVE THIS! Please update sooooooon, I'm anxious with suspense! You're amazing!

Forgot to comment on the poem in my last review. I have a very, VERY basic grasp of French, so I don't actually understand the entire poem, but yes, it does kind of give me that sort of FEELING...

P.S. If you haven't guessed by now, I'm a very "Feeling" type of person.

I love how everything you write is so ...relatable, for lack of a better word. The drawing incident, for one - I don't know how to put it into words, but it had such a great effect on the story. Maybe its because the incident grounds the whole story in school life. Maybe its because it provides a stark, I don't know, contrast? to Harry's thoughts, that while he's waiting to die there's still so much going on around him, and the incident just has so much of a SCHOOL touch to it that... I don't know. The entire scene, besides just making me laugh, made me kind of FEEL something, but I still can't figure out what or why. It's inexplicable. I'll need to analyse that further. It's like there's a particular role for that scene that still eludes me. Oh, never mind. Look at me, babbling on and on about a short 5 paragraphs that just won't get out of my head for some reason. It's interesting how you've written from Harry's perspective that everything seems to make perfect sense to him, and a reader can actually understand where's he's coming from. This is a lot better than tons of other self-harm stories I've read in that it's not just Harry sitting in a toilet cutting himself or something because of overwhelming guilt - filled with too much angst and tears that may make the reader feel really terrible for him, if they're sympathetic, or tut at his actions, like 'this is bad, this is wrong, he should stop", without really appreciating that it's not that simple. Yours clearly shows where he's coming from and how, in his view, that what he's doing makes perfect sense to him, but never does he seem to realise how dark his thoughts really are. So while there is an undercurrent of darkness the atmosphere of the story is never too heavy to be off-putting. You've achieved that fine balance between detachment and emotions, and you manage to insert humour that complements the tone of the story instead of clashing with the seriousness of it.I especially like the way Snape is handling the entire thing. Especially, especially "Everyone does forget about your mother, don't they?" he said, tone once again full of contempt. "No surprise that you do, too, I suppose." That is SO true. Snape is very in character despite the fact that he is showing concern for Harry's health. Actually, scratch that, he is in character because he manages to care about Harry's continued well-being without being concerned. Am I being confusing? I think I just confused myself. Never mind. What I mean to say is, awesome story, keep it up!

I have to admit that I'm completely ignorant about the whole self-cutting thing and self-pain thing, but from the perspective of an ignorant reader... that bit at the end with the RoR seemed almost bizzarely sudden.

Harry asking for pain like that seemed more like the organised instruction of someone who has already had a great deal of experience with self-harm - not a guy first stumbling into it.

And the word 'mercy' to make it stop? Smacked more of a little Domsub inkling than anything else.

Although I generally enjoy your writing style, I don't think I'm enjoying this Harry. He seems to spend all his time being sooky or gaping at Snape.

Just found your fanfiction and it's rather nice

I especially like the way Snape dumbfounded Harry by telling him that he also is a friend of his parents. That was interesting.

Well, looking forward to new chapters

I'm thinking, I did this before.

I understand Harry. Not totally, cos no one can, but still.

Bleeding makes it feel better. Penitence, maybe?

I'm still working on trying to stop those urges.

The counsellor says that it's not my fault. That helps.

It's hard to believe at first and even harder to believe it always.

It is easy to relate to Harry. You wrote this like it is quite real.

It's like a rollercoaster ride for me, I must say.

Some days I feel like I don't need to go through this shite.

Other days, I deserve that cutting, bleeding, pain. Pathetic.

I would love to see how Harry changes. To learn to love himself, maybe.

I love reading your story and hope you update soon. Cheers.

this is pretty awesome of a story line

this is really good! please write some more to this and the one you adopted! please

THIS is what Vernon has done to him.

hehehe, He made a biggest mistake in his life when he went and talked to Snape ; ). Wonderful fic! Can't wait for an update!

BRILLIANT!

I hope chapter four doesn't take too long but I'll be ready to read it whenever it comes out.

I think I know where you are going with the blood quill and I like it, I could totally see Harry carving the names of those who die into his skin. Poor Harry.

Great read and update asap.