|Reviews for And I'm Calling on You to Be My Lifeline|
| rustedroots 10/3/11 . chapter 6
This fic is so sad, but amazing at the same time! Great chapter :)
| myangryteddybear 10/3/11 . chapter 6
Another great chapter. I actually read your update the day you posted it but didn't have time to review then...but I'm glad for that b/c it gave me a chance to let it sink in and let me think on it. The more I went over the chapter in my head, the more I decided that I loved it.
You gave us a chance to see Tina and Santana actually interact the day after THAT call. That scene was very well done and didn't feel like the interaction was at all forced which it had a lot of potential to be, but you totally nailed it instead. Tina came across as being genuinely sincere, which she was, but also not acting suspicious or as though she knew something she wasn't supposed to which is something Santana would instantly have picked up on if Tina HAD been acting like that. And Santana revealed a lot more to Tina than she realized since, had Tina not been privy to her insecurities and general emotions, then she wouldn't have picked up on much of what Santana had REALLY been saying. Like when Santana said she'd had help getting through the situation the night before, the look she shot Brittany might imply to anyone else that Britt was the one to help her through it. Even how she referred to it was an understatement that only Tina could appreciate since she heard it all...just as she know exactly how much it means to Santana that she didn't lose her best friend. Still, it was nice to see Santana inadvertently admitting that the person on the phone helped her to that very person b/c she's obviously not the kind of person that would typically thank someone for helping her...at least not on purpose. Nicely done.
Santana was kept very much in-character and that is something that I greatly appreciate considering that, in stories where she is depressed and-or suicidal, writers sometimes can't pull it off. She doesn't give too much away when talking to Tina. She's more open than usual given that she doesn't really ever actually talk to Tina(that she knows about at least). However, the circumstances make it believable b/c it would make sense that she would be slightly more open after having such an emotional night then doing something as difficult as quitting Cheerios(which she admitted herself and Tina acknowledged internally) as well as being on a happy-high after the halftime performance. She has adrenaline and endorphins running through her system so she's going to be more willing and open to Tina's questioning.
Also, I loved that you avoided one of the major pitfalls of these kinds of stories where, after one major incident or conversation everything is suddenly all okay again. You did a wonderful job of conveying that, no, things aren't all okay and not everything is sunshine and roses, but that things are at least manageable right now...until it isn't so much anymore.
We all know how horrible things were for Santana during Valentine's Day and you did well in finding a balance between making it out to be some tragedy and glossing over how angsty it had to have been. It's realistic that we see Santana's insecurities are still there and unresolved as well as a crop of new ones coming up now that she doesn't have Cheerios anymore and that her grades are still, unfortunately, suffering. I was glad that you didn't ignore how it was going to obviously affect her since she no longer has cheerleading. I was so glad that she finally told Tina what had happened that started it all off and it was great to see Tina pushing her when she asked "If you really loved her wouldn't it had been worth it?" She's pushing Santana to acknowledge her feelings and accept them and really come to terms with who she is.
The scene at BreadstiX was short, but it still was more than enough to almost make me cry. So sad that Santana is hurting to the point where her smile for Brittany is forced. And I found this line so heartbreaking and beautiful: "It's only when Brittany does something that can only be described as Brittany that Santana really smiles, when her love outshines her pain." Very well put. And the saddest part was when you pointed out
how "few and far between" those smiles are since they aren't hanging out or anything very much anymore. It makes me hurt for Santana even more.
Poor Santana- and Tina- since she is crying and upset so much that she accidentally calls Tina so much by mistake. Even worse is that she doesn't mention Sam, which I'm sure must frustrate and confuse Tina a bit too. And while Tina is right about Sam possibly being good for Santana, she knows that being with him is only hurting Santana more if she's always sobbing over how much of a mess she's made of things.
I liked how, at the end, when you mentioned Brittany's response to Sam being with Santana. You showed that Britt may be at least a little jealous and reminding us that this is hurting Brittany too. I'd almost hope to see Tina reaching out to Brittany to see how she's affected by everything with Santana or to see if she's noticed how depressed Santa's been lately. I almost wanted her to after that call last chapter, but it might not have been entirely fair or responsible. Since it would seem as though she was forcing her to be w/ Santana only to pass off responsibility for Santana's feelings or to force Britt to be with Santana only to keep her from trying it again. Still, I would think that Tina would want to maybe talk to Britt and see if she can get her to at least reach out to Santana more...even if nothing more than as a friend. Even if that doesn't happen, I have full faith in you that it will work out fine since you clearly know what you're doing.
I also wanted to mention that I'm glad Tina was able to get some sense of relief after talking to Santana in person and seeing that she had been doing better after the call the previous night. It's good that she has Mike and he is such an uncerstanding and caring boyfriend that she can lean on when things get to hard for her to handle on her own. We can also see that she's torn b/c of how she's such good friends with Artie and Brittany and she's happy for how happy they are together, but she also has intimate knowledge of how hard it is on Santana. It hurts her to know how much pain San is going through and she wants her to be happy too and she knows she can't really reach out to her b/c they haven't talked much...at least not to San's knowledge.
Things should definitely be really interesting w/ Blame It On the Alcohol coming up soon. And I'm actually kind of afraid of what's going to happen when you get to the events/repercussions of Sexy. I'm thinking that we'll get another chapter like this last one.
Wow, this is probably the longest review i've ever written. Sorry about that. I guess maybe waiting so long to review left me tTOO much time to analyze it all *smirks* Just interpret this as a sign of how good of a writer you are and how much I enjoyed your latest installment. I'll be waiting anxiously until next Saturday for your next one.
| Jellysnack 10/2/11 . chapter 6
I really love this fic. But I have a feeling that the Hurt Locker phone call is not going to be a good one...at all. But seriously, thank you for writing this.
| teezee 10/1/11 . chapter 6
Great chapter as always.
| after8icecream 10/1/11 . chapter 6
I really like this fic
| mick3y92 10/1/11 . chapter 6
i love how tina is trying to get closer to santana and trying to bring her out of her shell when she talks on the phone with her cant wait for more
| Dani2606 10/1/11 . chapter 6
I love how Tina is actually trying to interact with Santana and look out for her in school ... I think that she'd really have needed someone like that during the whole Barfie debacle in Season 2 and to see this fic give that to her is warming my heart :). Can't wait for more! Oh, btw, is Tina ever gonna tell anyone else or Santana about it?
| Literaryluminations 10/1/11 . chapter 6
This is just heartbreaking to read. Poor bb Santana.
| ellociin 9/28/11 . chapter 5
this was such a sad and serious chapter. great update
| Literaryluminations 9/25/11 . chapter 5
I just want to scoop Santana and Tina into a giant hug and never let go. Poor bbs.
This story is making me cry. Wow. Just...wow. I have no words. BRILLIANT job.
| AGleefulEnding 9/25/11 . chapter 5
Oh good lord, my tears are filling entire oceans right now D:
Such a beautifully written story and moving, adding this piece to my favorites, keep up the amazing work 3
| thejollyape 9/25/11 . chapter 5
I'm trying to find the right words, but you've made me feel so lost that I wouldn't know where to start looking. You've managed to capture both sides in a way that makes me feel, a lot. So much that...well...a lot. It's respectful, it's real, it's raw and it's f-ing beautiful because of it.
| myangryteddybear 9/24/11 . chapter 5
I love this story so much. I'm a huge Santana fan and I can't help but love Tina from the way you write her. She's probably one of the most underused characters on the show and there's this amazing potential for a Santana/Tina friendship on the show that's never been explored. Really, Santana has never really been particularly harsh w/ her insults on Tina or Mike. Plus the whole thing where Tina and San work on Trouty Mouth together considering how we've rarely ever seen them interact.
Anyway, i love that we get to see everything from Tina's POV and experience her desperation and sympathy and everything right along with her. It was hard at times to read this last chaper b/c of how very real and frightening it was to hear Santana so close. Then there was that same overwhelming sense of relief when San eventually jumped out of the way of an actual oncoming car.
Obviously it's going to be hard for Tina to have all of this piling up on her the way it is. Aside from it being easier for a suicidal person to talk to a stranger, it's also easier for someone to talk to a suicidal person that's a stranger. If you actually know that person and see them on a day to day basis, you have a personal and emotional connection to them that you can't establish over the phone like that.
I think that, as much as I want to hear that Tina was able to ease some of the stress on herself by talking to Mike, I know that that probably isn't the best idea. It would be another teen, another peer knowing about Santana's problems and I think Tina knows better than to tell him. At least not the WHOLE story- maybe leaving out San's name would be a good idea even though he probably would figure it out since Tina asked him to keep an eye on her.
Honestly, I think that things have escalated to the point where Tina knows that she needs to talk to an adult about this. Generally I don't think Mr. Schue is good to talk to Santana since he never really seems like he understands her or even tries to, but I like him in your story. Still, I think that ms. Pillsbury would be a better person for Tina to approach about this...if not her own parents, perhaps.
And, being that you're in February in your timeline, I would like to express my interest in hearing about Santana's reaction to the fight w/ Lauren and the "reasons why you suck" scene in Glee from Silly Love Songs where Rach tells her she only has a future as a stripper(and all alone on V-Day at BreadstiX). I would just like to see how Tina would respond(and if she'd still mention Santana saying Mr. Schue needed a 12 Step program).
This story will obviously only continue to be amazing for as long as you choose to write it, but i'm only curious about your spin on things. I love this story so much and I anxiously await every update and I'm really looking forward to when/if Santana finds out who she's talking to(especially considering how many times T slipped up w/ San's real name this time). And if/when Tina will choose to approach San about her depression in real life(whether she mentions the hotline or not).
This is really long now so I'll just end it before it gets even more ridiculous. Just know that I definitely enjoyed the longer chapter and the nail-biting suspense it kept me in. Thank you for writing this story. I didn't realize how much I wanted to read one like this until I found it.
| Press528491 9/24/11 . chapter 5
Good chapter. I was actually hoping Tina would drive out and rescue Santana in person (and thus reveal herself as being the one on the "hotline"), and bring the story closer to an end that way. Not complaining, just saying that it would have been an equally tidy way to wrap this up. Also not to say that I think this should end now, as you thoroughly explained your intentions behind this story to me already, and I like where you imply it's headed.
My favorite part was Tina calling Mike at the end (I can't remember if Tina told him about Santana calling her or not, I'm going back to look it up). He's just so perfectly and quietly supportive and sweet. I love the way you describe their relationship, as you manage to do so in the simplest, shortest (but a nevertheless great) way.
Looking forward to more.
| teezee 9/24/11 . chapter 5
Great chapter. I like how you show Tina's emotional reactions.