Author: Little Wolf LOVER PM
After years syao, finally returns only to find out that saku has moved on and is getting married. will she marry and break his heart? or will her love for him over power any other? i'm uploading this fic again after many request LOL i hope that all wilRated: Fiction M - English - Romance/Drama - Syaoran L. & Sakura K. - Chapters: 2 - Words: 9,987 - Reviews: 85 - Favs: 53 - Follows: 10 - Published: 11-22-02 - id: 1079682
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Chap. one: "Reappearance."
NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNG CHILDREN, REPEAT NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNG CHILDREN. IF YOU KNOW YOU'RE TOO YOUNG DON'T READ THIS…PLEASE!!!!!
Author's note: Hey this is for all those who wanted me to update this story again LOL, I hope that you guys enjoy it again even after it got wiped clean from . hopefully they won't block this and my account LOL.
I did a bit of editing, so hopefully this story will be easier to read… hope you enjoy!!!!
Slowly, I made my way to the house of my love. After years of intense training, I finally became the leader of the my Clan. With my new role and authority, I no longer needed permission to return for my beloved Ying Fa.
For years, I would close to my eyes, and will her face into existence. Now I would be able to reach out and caress her beautiful face. No longer would I need my imagination to create a likeness. Feeling the warmth of her skin beneath my fingers would soon be reality.
When I reached her house, I realized they were having a celebration. Standing at the gate, I wrestled with the idea of leaving, but my need to hold her in my arms won. I could not tolerate another day without seeing her. I held the bear she gave me close to my heart as I walked through the gate and up to the door. I took in a deep breath and rang the doorbell. When the door opened, I stared into the face of a man, who appeared to be a bodybuilder.
"Good evening, is Sakura home?" I asked eyeing the ogre of a man in front of me.
"Yes she is, but we are having a very important celebration. I suggest that you come back some other time," the guy said in a mean tone. "What is it that you want with Sakura, anyway?"
"I'm sure if you tell her that Li is here she will want to see me" I answered, calmly. "My business with her is not your concern," I noted my answer seemed to have gotten him angry as he glared at me.
"She will not see you and her business is my business. I have never heard of you," he yelled, flexing his arm muscle. He stared at the scrawny boy in front of him, knowing the little fool was treading into dangerous territory.
"I must see her I have come a very long way. Who are you?" I asked, trying to suppress my irritation at having this man interrogate me.
"I am her fiancée. She's getting married tomorrow. And I don't remember her telling me anything about you," he growled, narrowing his eyes. When he said that my heart felt like it was ripped from my chest, the weight of his words squeezing the life from it. 'I took too long, she moved on' I thought, bitterly. I wanted to die. I slowly turned and walked towards the gates.
"Paul, what's going on, why are you yelling?" a female voice asked.
"I was yelling at that ass who claimed he knew you, but I told him he was wrong because I have never heard of him," Paul answered, angrily, pointing at the stranger's back.
"Hoe? Hey wait, who are you?" she asked, the guy at the gate. She couldn't make out his face because the shadow of the tree covered him. Above me, thunder rumbled as I slowly walked out of the shadows.
Here I am, a day before my wedding. I should be the happiest person alive, right? Wrong, I haven't been happy since Syaoran left. Deep in my heart, I know how much I still love him, but I cannot wait on him forever.
I haven't received any letters from him, even though I have sent hundreds. He has probably moved on, and doesn't want to break my naïve heart. The promise we made so many years ago means nothing anymore. I know that my family and friends don't really care Paul, but he his financially stable; and if I can't marry the guy I really love then it doesn't matter.
I love Paul. He's nice to me even though we get in fights, but every couple has their arguments. I know I should be happy with my decision, but why do I feel like a traitor to my heart's yearnings? Shouldn't I be happy? Why do I feel incomplete?
"Sakura, what's wrong?" Tomoyo asked, walking up to me. The doorbell rang and Paul went to answer it.
"Me? I'm fine," I replied, plastering a smile on my face, but she saw right through it.
"I don't understand you. You know that you don't love him, yet your still going to marry him," Tomoyo stated, seriously. I winced seeing conviction on my best friend's face. "You can't fool me," she added, her eyes pleading silently with me to change my decision.
"Sorry, I need to stop this. Tomorrow I will be Mrs. Sato" I replied, trying to sound thrilled. I could not allow my friends to see me wallow in misery. I made my decision, and there was no going back.
"You know it's not too late," Eriol said, walking up to them.
"Stop it please! I love Paul, not even Li can change that," I snapped, interrupting him, switching back to Syaoran's last name even though it hurt. Everyone's attention got directed to the door where they heard yelling. They went to see what was going on.
"Paul, what's going on, why are you yelling?" Sakura asked, with everyone standing behind her.
"I was yelling at that ass who claimed he knew you, but I told him he was wrong because I have never heard of him," Paul answered, pointing at the stranger's back.
"Hoe? Hey wait, who are you?" Sakura asked, the person, whose face was covered by the tree's shadow. He took a step forward and the first thing that stuck out was his eyes. 'It couldn't be those eyes' she thought seeing his burning amber eyes. Sakura felt as if her air was being squeezed from her lungs, and it took all her strength to stand erect.
"Oh my god, Syaoran!" Tomoyo screamed, running up to him. She threw her arms around him in a tight hug. Everyone else started out of the house to greet him even Touya.
"Syaoran?' Sakura whispered, standing in shock. She wanted to lift her hand, to reach out and caress his face just to make sure it wasn't a dream. Sakura wanted to run to him, to be able to wrap her arms tightly around him like everyone else. Instead, she found herself rooted in place, the distance between them lengthening even though he was right in front of her.
She couldn't breathe. At any moment she felt like she would die from the emotions raging in her tiny body. she wanted to scream his name, and tell him how much she loved him. Most of all she wanted him to know how it hurt to wait for him without word. Then guilt washed over her in waves because it was obvious he had waited, while her patience had run out.
The ring on her finger weighed a ton, drawing her deeper into her hole of despair. "Hey gaki, it's nice to see you," Touya said, shaking his hand. He stared at the young man he hadn't been able to tolerate years ago, but now he prayed he would save his sister from the mistake she was about to commit.
"Yeah… you too," Syaoran said, in a strange way. Touya being nice to him was shockingly creepy.
"It's good see you again my cute little descendent, but you have really horribly timing," Eriol whispered to him. Syaoran only nodded in understanding.
"Sorry, I interrupted your celebration. I was just keeping my promise. Here," Syaoran said, handing Tomoyo the bear. She knew exactly what he meant. "If you guys want to talk I'm at my old apartment." He needed to get away from Sakura's house, before he did something he knew he would definitely regret. "I'll let you get back to your party."
"Are you sure you don't want to stay," Fujitaka asked, hoping he would help open his daughter's eyes.
"No, I've got a lot of stuff to pack," Syaoran replied, trying to swallow the pain his voice. Glancing at them, he knew they saw through his mask. "But thanks for the offer. Ja ne," he added, walking through the gate.
"Yeah Syaoran, we'll see you later to catch up," Tomoyo yelled, sadly. She knew he was hurting terribly, but she couldn't and didn't want to blame Sakura. "Oh Sakura, what have you done."
"Syaoran…" Sakura whispered, realizing he was going to walk out of her life for a second time. Again, she felt the crushing blow of loss, "wait!" she screamed, her body finally reacting to her commands, but he was already gone.
"Everyone knows him?" Paul asked, pissed. Thunder rumbled above, and lightening streaked across the dark heavens, but it began to rain heavily.
"Yeah, we all want to elementary school together, god he's hot," Rika said, with a dreamy expression on her face.
"He was my best friend" Takashi answered, with sadness.
"The best soccer player. He could even kick your butt without breaking a sweat" Naoko stated, nodding.
"He's Eriol relative, Tomoyo's good friend, interested in my father's work, my glaring partner and someone really important to the Kaijuu," Touya went on, glancing at his sister. he prayed she would wake up and realize just where her heart belonged.
"And what is he doing here and how come no one told me about him?" Paul asked, his anger doubling by the second.
"He made a promise to his love to return after becoming his clan's leader. Here Sakura this is for you. His promise completed," Tomoyo said, handing her the bear. Sakura stared with wide eyes at the very bear she created with her own hands years ago, and began to tremble.
"I have to explain to him, Eriol where?" Sakura asked, frantically.
"Where all our memories of adventure is, " Eriol answered, knowing she would get it.
"Thanks!" Sakura said, running off in the rain, ignoring Paul's calls.
"Where the hell is she going?" Paul yelled, furious.
"She went to him," Chiharu answered, praying Sakura and Syaoran would work things out. She didn't want to picture her friend with Paul for the rest of her life.
"What? She's my fiancée no fucking way!" Paul yelled, stalking after her.
"Don't worry they're just friends" Tomoyo reassured, smirking. 'Sakura, don't blow it this time and dump this jack ass.' Paul ignored her and went after Sakura anyways.
"He'll never find them," Eriol said, smiling and he would make sure of that.
Sakura ran as fast as her legs would carry her. She screamed crashing to the ground when she tripped over a rock. Tears rushed her eyes, but she pushed herself up and continued with haste, knowing she had to catch up to him. The only thing that mattered was finding Syaoran. When she reached the park, she saw a figure sitting on the swings. Slowly, she made her way to him. Syaoran knew that she was behind him, but didn't turn around.
"Go home, I don't want to have to deal with your fiancée," Syaoran stated, in the coldest voice he could muster. It hurt him, but he had to do it. Sakura was hurt by his tone, but knew she was the one who had caused it.
"I came to see if you were ok," Sakura said, nervously. It had been a very long time since she was the recipient of cold shoulder.
"I didn't know you cared," Syaoran spat, glaring at her as he turned around. Sakura shivered at his stare, shrinking under it.
"I know I hurt you, but I waited for so long. You didn't write or call. What was I suppose to do?" Sakura asked, crying. "Then I met Paul and he was nice to me…"
"He was nice?" Syaoran hissed, icily, standing from the swing. Sakura jumped, willing herself in place. She knew she deserved his anger. "I wasn't allowed to write. I tried to but my letters never made it. I was punished all these years, because I failed my mission!" he got out, clenching his fists. His eyes narrowed, as he continued, "But I kept on going, because I thought that I had something to live for. Every day, I struggled to keep alive; they threw everything at me, but I kept on going just to see your smile, your eyes, and feel your warmth."
Tears streamed down her cheeks only to be washed away by the rain as he poured out his heart to her. She years she felt neglected, but it paled in comparison to what he endured. Was the love she felt so him so weak that it could not endure time? Did she even have the right to say she loved him?
"Every day, I dreamt, yearned for you, and I finally come back to find out you didn't wait, YOU NOT ME BROKE THE PROMISE!" He lashed out, hating her for giving up on the love they shared. He steeled his heart against her devastated look knowing he had to speak what he was feeling. He felt betrayed, and it hurt terribly because it was by the one person he loved with his whole being. "I should have died, because what I'm feeling hurts more than anything else I've had to endure!" Syaoran yelled furiously, his tears mixed with the downpour. Every word he said tore Sakura apart inside; it hurt her more than anything to know that she had caused him this kind of pain.
"I'm sorry, so very sorry. I didn't know, but what am I suppose to do? I can't just dumped Paul," Sakura asked, her voice weak and her tears came like never before. 'It's all my fault I should have waited.' She thought, miserably.
"Then…I wish you all the best," Syaoran said, before running off. He blocked out Sakura's calls as he headed back to his apartment…
"Syaoran, please!" Sakura screamed, falling to her knees, her shoulders wrecked with sobs. Only the thought of losing him again made her feel dead. It had been easier to live believing he abandoned her for someone else, but to know the one person who caused him the most pain was her, tore her apart. She wanted to die. Curling over, she buried her face in her hands, overcome by grief. "No! I'm not going to lose you, again! CARD GIVE ME WINGS!" she screamed, getting up. Wings formed on her back and she took off towards Syaoran's apartment, shielding he eyes from the rain.
When Syaoran got to his apartment, he booked the earliest flight for china in the morning; he would call the movers at the airport. He was just getting out of the shower when he heard banging coming from his room. He wrapped a towel his waist and went to investigate.
Sakura tired of waiting used the lock card on the slide door to open it. Her wings disappeared, and she walked into his apartment only to be bombarded by his all too familiar scent. She was engulf by the warmth a deadly contrast to her cold body.
"Sakura?" Syaoran whispered, looking at the shivering girl before him.
"Syaoran, I'm sorry!" she cried, new tears forming. She didn't know if he would ever forgive her, but she prayed he could find it in his heart. "I was stupid, so very stupid and I'm sorry so very sorry. I love you and the last thing I ever wanted to do is hurt you," Sakura barely got out crying. She was trying to get a hold of her tears, but it was a futile attempt. "Please forgive me, I don't want to lose you again, Xiao Lang!" she begged, shivering from the cold. Her heart sank when he walked back into the bathroom. When she thought she couldn't cry anymore her tears came harder blurring her vision.
She collapsed to the ground, wanting to die from the pain she felt in her chest. Hearing her, he rushed into the room. Finding her on the floor in tears, he bent down beside her, wrapping the towel around her shoulders. Her sobs filled the room, and she had to force herself up to look him in the eyes, "Do you forgive me?" she asked, uncertainly.
"Of course, I forgive you. I love you too much not to" Syaoran answered, wiping her tears away. Sakura didn't know what to do, so she did the one thing she had wanted to do for so very long, she kissed him. Syaoran let the towel drop to the floor so he could wrapped his hands round her waist. To others it was just their lips touching, but to them it was a whole new world and the best kiss either had ever felt. Syaoran ran his tongue across Sakura's lips, and she responded by parting her them. Taking the invitation, he deepened the kiss; their tongues dancing in perfect harmony as they both explored the other.
"We shouldn't," Syaoran stated, pulling away from the kiss, when he remembered that she was another man's.
"What's the matter?" Sakura asked, searching his eyes for something. Standing, he hauled her to her feet, ignoring his raging emotions.
"It's not right. You're another man's fiancée," Syaoran answered sadly, stepping back. Sakura looked down at her hand to see the plain ring that made her forbidden. She looked at him as she took the ring off and let it fall to the floor.
"Not anymore, I'm yours," Sakura replied, firmly, not wanting anything to keep them apart. Her hand shook as she reached up to caress his face, "I love you so much," she told him, staring into his eyes. "Too much, and I will never ever let you go ever again," she went on, tiptoeing to press her lips to his.
Syaoran was overjoyed at her proclamation, and this time he didn't hesitate to show her how much he was hers when they kissed. He left her lips and trailed kissed down her neck. Sakura lifted her hands so he could remove her shirt and help him to unclasp her bra. She pressed her body against his feeling his warmth as he placed butterfly kisses on her neck.
His hands work their way down to her waist, slowly he pulling the zipper down making her skirt fall to the ground. He started to kiss her again as they stumbled over to his bed falling on it. Syaoran looked at her perfectly formed breasts, 'suteki' he thought running his finger over her now erect nipple, making her moan in pleasure.
He started to suckle on it, while teasing the other nipple. Sakura's moans became more frequent with each new sensation her body was feeling. She ran her hands through is hair as he continued to work. His hands slid down her body stopping on her women hood that was confined under her underwear. Bringing both of her legs to one side he quickly rid her of the garment. Sakura moved her legs back the way they were as Syaoran ran his hand down her leg then to her inner thigh. She gasped as his hand encountered sensitive area sending shock waves of pleasure coursing through her.
"More Syaoran," Sakura moaned, in his ear as he rubbed his hand against the nub of her vagina. She moved her hips against his hand wanting to feel more. She pulled him by the shoulders so he could meet her lips in a demanding kiss, as her hands trailed down his perfectly toned chest. She felt every one of his abs until she came an obstacle, still kissing him she quickly pulled off the towel that held back his erection that was screaming for attention. Wanting to give him pleasure, she slide her hands lightly up and down causing him to moan in pleasure." I want more," she purred, nibbling on his ear.
"Are you sure?" he asked, looking her in the eyes.
"Absolutely," Sakura answered, feverishly as she kissed him. He slowly parted her legs. Moving between them, he entered her breaking through all resistance. It wasn't until she whimpered in pain that he realized she was a virgin. His heart tightened in his chest with remorse, 'you baka' he yelled at himself mentally.
"I'm sorry, I thought…I'm sorry" he apologized, seeing her in pain. Sakura shut her eyes biting her lip so she wouldn't cry out, but a single tear found its way through.
"No, it's ok. You didn't know, just don't move," Sakura assured, as unbearable pain surged through her body.
"I won't not until you're ready," Syaoran promised, kissing her tear away.
Sakura moved her hips against him as the pain was replaced by the feeling of him inside her, it was unreal. "It's ok now," she said, smiling up at him. He began to move inside her sending waves of rapture going through them. She wrapped her legs round him pressing him close to her. She wanted to feel all of him.
"Let's switch," Sakura got out between kisses. Syaoran complied and turned over placing her on the top. She started to moved her hips in an up and down; he moved his hips to meet hers as he knead her supple breasts. Both had never felt anything like this before and didn't want it to end, they were as close as any human could get. They were sharing the most precious gift ever.
Syaoran sat up to kiss her as she worked against him. Then he started to suckle on her breast again giving her more pleasure. She wrapped her hands around his neck taking in his intoxicating scent. The way they were wasn't too comfortable so Syaoran quickly switched, placing Sakura on the bed. She yelped in surprise at the quick movement.
"Didn't mean to scare you," Syaoran said, huskily staring into her smoldering eyes.
"Hmmm…didn't mind" Sakura replied, wrapping her legs round him as he begin to move in her slowly at first then picking up speed. He would alternate between going up and down to circular then between fast and slow. Sakura tried desperately not to dig her nails in his back, but was failing miserably as she began to move against him going as far humanly possible.
"Oh god, faster Xiao Lang," Sakura practically screamed, that gave him all the strength he needed as he went faster. Their body's slide across the other as they worked trying to devour the other, moans became one and thrusting synchronized.
Knowing that they were reaching their peaks, he thrust harder and faster into her, her moans became screams of pure bliss. She tightened her hold on his neck as her body was rocked with multiply orgasms. He felt when her body stiffened under him making him deposit load after load into, her inner walls tightened around his manhood milking him of his essence.
He rested against her, their breathing hard form their exertion. He rested his head against her collarbone trying to catch his breath, his body felt like lead. "That was amazing my little Wolf," Sakura hummed, running her hands through his damp hair.
"You were amazing," Syaoran replied, looking up at her. He brushed her damped hair off her face. He hauled himself up and gave her a passionate kiss…
… Syaoran fell asleep first; Sakura stayed awake thinking of all that they had been through together as she played in his hair. Soon after she too fell asleep in the same position. He didn't feel heavy at all on top, in fact, she loved feeling his warmth, his steady heart beat and his breath on her neck.
Sakura woke to the sound of the shower. Wrapping the sheets around her, she got out of bed. She went to the balcony and pulled the curtain back letting the sun's warm rays come through. It was a beautiful day, and the sky had not one cloud in it. Syaoran came out of the bathroom, and paused seeing her at the balcony. Slowly, he walked towards her, wondering what she was thinking about.
"Morning," Syaoran greeted, wrapping his arms round her waist. She placed her hands over his and rested her head on his chest.
"Morning Little Wolf," Sakura replied, tenderly. "It's funny that I'm not at my own wedding. It started five minutes ago," she added, giggling as she turned around to face him. Her face was glowing because she had not been this happy in a very long time.
"No regrets?" Syaoran asked, smiling only for her.
"No regrets at all. I haven't been this happy in such a long time," Sakura stated, kissing him with all the love she was feeling.
"Since as you're missing your wedding to be with me. Why don't you come home with me for awhile," Syaoran asked, looking at her shocked expression.
"You mean home home… like with your mother and sisters home?" Sakura asked, not believing she heard right.
"Yeah that home, we can leave now without anyone knowing," Syaoran answered, chuckling at her shocked expression. "Will you come?" He came to Tokyo for his bride, he wasn't going to leave without her, not after last night.
"Of course, I would love to go, but I have to call my dad and get some clothes packed," Sakura exclaimed, hugging him. "It won't take me long." For years, she had dreamt of the day he would want to take her home with him, and now it was happening.
"Ok. Why don't you go get your stuff packed and meet me back here so we can leave together?" Syaoran stated, feeling just as happy as her.
"Yeah, we can do that but can I shower first?" Sakura asked, feeling as light as a feather.
"Yeah of course go right ahead, and I'll find some clothing for you," Syaoran answered, chuckling lightly. She gave him one last kiss before she went to shower.
When she came out of the bathroom, she saw a pair of khaki drawstring pants and a forest green t- shirt on the bed; she got dressed before she went to meet him in the living room. "I'll meet you here in an hour," Sakura said, standing at the door.
"An hour," Syaoran repeated, giving her one last kiss before she reluctantly left. She ran down the stairs and towards home. When she reached home, she called Tomoyo and told her that she was going home time with Syaoran, then her dad who was on his way home but had to stop at work for some papers. Apparently when she hadn't come home, everyone figured that the wedding was off. She was about to leave the house when she had an unexpected visitor.
As it got closer to the hour, he got excited. When she was running half n' hour late, he didn't worry because Sakura was always late. As it rounded two hours, he started to get worried; he called the house but got no answer. He then called Tomoyo's but got no answer, he was about to call Eriol when there was a knock on his door. He dropped the phone and rushed to the door.
"Sakura, it's about…"Syaoran started but his words caught in his throat when he saw a devastated Tomoyo. "Tomoyo, what's wrong? Where's Sakura?" he asked, getting worried. When he said her name, she started to cry.
"Sakura was…she's in the hos..pital" Tomoyo choked out, crying uncontrollably. Syaoran's heart sank when he heard that. He was angry, scared, and lost all at the same time.
"What hospital is she at? Tomoyo, take me to her!" Syaoran yelled, grabbing her. She nodded and they both took off towards the hospital in Tomoyo's limo. When they arrived, Syaoran rushed to out of the car towards intensive care. He had tried t ask Tomoyo what was wrong with Sakura, but the poor girl couldn't answer him.
"Where is she? Is she ok? What happened?" Syaoran asked frantically, running up the group of crying girls, and guys' trying to hush them "Will somebody answer me?" he yelled, losing his composure.
"Sakura was hurt, and we think it was by Paul," Yukito answered, one of the few able to get out coherent words. Fujitaka hearing the yelling out in the hall knew Syaoran had arrived.
"Syaoran, would you like to see her?" he asked, walking up to the boy, who was on the verge of a meltdown.
"Yes please. Thank you," Syaoran said, walking to the room when Touya walked out; he didn't even notice Syaoran. He walked into a white room where the only sound heard was the beeping of machines. He felt tears threaten, when he laid eyes on his beautiful cherry blossom. Her head was wrapped, she had a black eye and bruises all over her face and arms. He noticed that her ribs were also wrapped.
"Oh god my beautiful, beautiful Ying Fa," Syaoran whispered, caressing her face gently. The powerful Li clan leader was crying and was actually scared, because he didn't know how to help her.
"Syaoran, I'm sorry" Sakura whispered as her eyes slightly opened revealing her emerald orbs.
"No, I'm sorry I shouldn't let you go, but don't worry you'll be all right," Syaoran whispered, trying to smile.
"You're crying please don't cry. Don't cry, I don't want to go seeing you cry," Sakura whispered trying to wipe his tears away, but it hurt too much to move her hand. He bent down to her level, and moved her hand to his face, having no doubt in his heart that she wouldn't be okay.
"I can't help it, don't say that you're not going to be all right" Syaoran whispered, through tears, his voice cracking.
"No…I can feel it. I'm—not going to, but—but I'm glad I gave myself to you. I love you Little Wolf" Sakura said, as her tears started fall, even though it hurt she reached up and kissed him lightly on the lips.
"No. No you're going to be all right. Please you have to be, this can't be the end for us," Syaoran stated, crying.
"I'll always be with you, I love—" was the last thing she said, as her hand fell to the bed, the machine flat lining.
"NO! Sakura wake up!" Syaoran yelled, when the nurses and doctor came running in. "Do something!" he yelled, furiously, unwilling to believe he had lost her.
"I'm afraid she's gone," the doctor said, covering her body. he felt his heart stop hearing his words. Syaoran felt like the floor beneath disappeared and he was falling uncontrollably into a dark abyss. His mind was rejecting everything he heard and saw with his own eyes. he knew deep in his heart that she would never leave him.
"No you're wrong she's not! You're wrong!" Syaoran hollered, falling to the floor, crying like a child. Fujitaka pulled him to his feet and hugged the weeping boy as he too shed his tears.
Today they all lost a friend, a sister, a daughter and most of all a lover
Author note: so what'd ya'll think? It was my first naughty fic and sad one.. Please review and tell me what you think. If I get enough reviews I'll write the end…