Everything by Lifehouse



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"Find me here,

Speak to me,

I want to feel you,

I need to hear you. . ."

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"Ephram!" I heard someone call behind me. I smiled, when I saw Amy.

"Hey, what's up?"

"Oh nothing, I just need to see if I can borrow your CD player?" She asked.

"Sure, why?" I reached into my backpack.

"Well, Bright was borrowing mine and he dropped it, and I don't have money for a new one."

"So make him pay for it."

"Yeah, but he already owes me the $15 he bought the CD with."

"Not a good credit record, huh?"

"Yeah, you could say that," she laughed. I love hearing her laugh. It made my whole crappy day seem a little bit better. "Anyways, I'm headed to see Colin and I need something for the bus ride."

My smile slowly faded, it does that every time she mentions Colin. I just hope she doesn't notice. I love this girl, who's in love with someone else.

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"You are the light,

That is leading me

To the place where

I find peace again. . ."

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I handed over the CD player and the case.

"Lifehouse, POD . . . cool CDs, Grover." I winced at my nickname that she had picked out for me a few months ago. Then she said goodbye and left. I couldn't help but smile as she walked away. I just moved to a town too small to be put on a state map in comparison to my old home: New York and she's the brightest light I've ever seen. I don't know how I would've made it through just one week her without her.

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"You are the strength,

That keeps me walking,

You are the hope,

That keeps me trusting. . ."

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I walked down the hallway toward my locker.

"What did I tell you about keeping away from my sister?" asked Bright, meeting me at my locker.

"And what did I tell you about being the stupidest guy in school?" I replied nonchalantly.

He gave a fake laugh as he slammed my locker shut. "Yeah, and you would know all about being the stupidest guy in school."

"You know for a guy with your name, you're not that bright." That hit him, he hates his name.

But, inside I heard the words that Amy had told me yesterday: "Please try to get along with Bright. I know that he's got this big, overprotective, Neanderthal brother thing going, but this year's been really hard for him.

"Sorry, low blow," I apologized as I started walking away.

"Yeah, you'll sure be sorry." I ignored his comment and kept walking. Only Amy could give me the peace of mine to just ignore him like that.

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"You are the life to my soul,

You are my purpose, you are everything,

And how can I stand here with you,

And not be moved by you? . . ."

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"Hey Amy," I replied walking up to her at the diner.

"Hey Ephram," she smiled. "Want a fry?" She motioned to her plate.

"Sure," I picked a few off. As I reached over, I could smell her. She smelled fantastic. I almost couldn't stand sitting here so close to her, knowing that she wasn't mine. But she didn't have a clue as to how I felt. She meant everything to me, and she was there trying to be everything for Colin.

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"Would you tell me?

How could it be

Any better than this? . . ."

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I knew what I needed in my life, to have a feeling of wholeness again. I lost it after my mother died, and after Amy told me about Colin. This moment was the closet to actual happiness that I could get from her. Just being near her always sent my head spinning out of control.

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You calm the storms,

You give me rest,

You hold me in your hands,

You won't let me fall

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"Hey Delia, Ephram," Amy greeted us at the market getting food for dinner.

"Hi Amy," replied Delia.

"Hey," I said.

"Are you going to the party tonight, Ephram?" she asked me.

"What party?" I was virtually clueless.

"Mark Thompson's party, everybody's invited."

"Sure."

"Can I come too?" asked Delia looking at Amy.

"Now Delia, do you really want to be hanging around with some weird, depressed teenagers all night?" Amy asked her.

"No, I get that from being around him everyday." She motioned toward me.

"Ha ha," I gave a fake laugh.

"So, I'll pick you up at 7? And dress warmly, it'll be outdoors." Amy looked at me.

"Ok."

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"You still my heart,

And you take my breath away,

Would you take me in?

Would you take me deeper now?"

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It actually took me over an hour to get ready. I know that this wasn't a date, or at least she didn't think it was, but it just felt like it.

When she arrived at my door she looked like she had been crying. When I asked her why, she said that the doctors had said that Colin shows no sign of waking up. He hasn't been gaining much progress. I didn't know what to say, I didn't know what to feel. This was the guy that was keeping me and Amy apart, but I couldn't just wish that he would die.

"Do you still want to go? It's perfectly okay if you don't want to, but. . ." my voice trailed off.

She looked up at me, "I'm fine, let's go."

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"And how can I stand here with you

And not be moved by you?

You tell me how could it be

Any better than this? . . ."

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I saw her, sitting on the ground. Looking seriously depressed, I thought I saw here wipe a tear from her eye. I walked over to her and sat down.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"He's dying, Ephram. He doesn't have much hope of getting better. I don't know what I'd do if he died."

"You'd still have me."

She looked up at me and a faint smile graced her face. "Yeah I would. Thank you, Ephram. I don't know what I would've done without you."

Before I could even think about what I was doing, I leaned over and kissed her. What surprised me the most was the fact that she was kissing back. We held on for a few moments, and then she let go all of a sudden.

"I can't Ephram. Colin needs me now more then ever. Me and you would just be a mistake."

Then she walked off, leaving me all alone in the dark again.

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"'Cause you're all I want,

You are all I need,

You are everything,

Everything."