I got a review saying this story is like "Because he loves me", which I
don't recall reading although I might have but I have to say that it hasn't
been copied and I'm sorry if that is how it comes across. I'm going to read
that story tonight and make changes wherever necessary if mine really is
I had this chapter all typed up but then when I went to upload it, it
hadn't saved so I had to type it all over again, but it's not the same as
before so I'm a bit upset because the first Chapter 2 was really good and I
couldn't remember half of what I typed before but oh well : (
Ross and Rachel walked up the hallway, towards Monica and Chandler's
apartment, hands interlocked tightly. They reached the door where Ross
"You're so beautiful," he said, stroking Rachel's face softly
"Really? Even with my make-up all ruined and puffy eyes?" asked Rachel
"You would look beautiful if you were covered with pig crap" said Ross "Are
Rachel took in a deep breath "As I'll ever be"
They walked into Monica and Chandler's to see them sitting at the table
"Hey, How was the doctors?" asked Monica
"Well.." began Rachel before she was interrupted by Emma who came
barrelling through from Daniel's room.
"Mommmmmmy" she yelled, throwing herself at Rachel.
"Hi Pumpkin" said Rachel, bending down and kissing her head "Did you have a
good morning with Daniel?"
"Uh huh" said Emma, before wrapping herself around Ross's legs "Hi Daddy. I
missed you today"
"Hey Princess, I missed you too" said Ross, embracing her "Listen Em, why
don't you go and play in the bedroom for a second. Mommy and I have to talk
to Aunt Monica and Uncle Chandler"
"OK" said Emma, running back through to the bedroom.
"Where's Phoebe and Joey?" asked Rachel
"Across the hall" said Chandler "Why?"
"I'll get them," said Ross, exiting the apartment and returning a few
moments later with Pheeb's and Joey
"What's going on?" asked Joey as they all sat in the living room.
"We've got some news," said Rachel softly
"I know," said Phoebe "You're pregnant"
"Oh my god" said Monica "You're pregnant? That's so great, we're gonna be
pregnant together except I'm a few months ahead"
"NO..I'm not pregnant," said Rachel "I wish that's what I could tell you
but it's not. I've got Liver cancer"
"No way" said Monica "Cancer?"
"Why? How?" asked Chandler "Of all the people in the world, God gives
cancer to the most kind hearted, decent woman"
"That's not all," said Rachel "There's more"
"Can it be cured?" asked Joey
"Stop" said Phoebe tearfully, holding up her hand "I don't want any more
"The cancer is in its advanced stages. I've got 6-8 months, 12 at the
most," said Rachel, her eyes beginning to well up "I'm dying"
Ross took her hand and pulled her onto his lap on the couch, wrapping his
arms around her protectively.
Monica immediately started crying, tears ran down her face, which she
instinctively covered up.
"Mon" said Rachel softly; tears then began to run down her face too.
Monica took a deep breath, then stood up and ran into the master bedroom
where she threw herself on the bed in tears.
"This isn't fair," said Joey "You're one of my best friends Rach, I don't
know what I'll do without you"
"You and me both" said Ross
"Can't they do anything? Chemotherapy, Radiation ANYTHING?" asked Chandler
"They can't do anything," said Ross "It's all too far gone"
Rachel looked at Phoebe who was sobbing softly into her hands
"Phoebe" she said "Don't cry for me"
"Well what am I supposed to do? My best friend's just told me she's going
to die. Am I supposed to be laughing?" said Phoebe "This is terrible"
"It's ok," said Joey soothingly, as he pulled Phoebe close to him
"I don't understand. I thought liver cancer was for old drunks?" said Joey
"Why is this happening to you?"
"I don't know" said Rachel "Because life's a bitch I guess"
"Why aren't you more upset?" asked Joey "I'd be kicking down the walls
"I honestly don't know. I didn't react well when I found out. Who would??
I'm numb with fear and sadness. I'm scared Joey, I'm scared to death,
scared about leaving you guys, about not getting to see my little girl grow
up. I'm angry too, There's so many things that I wanted to do before I do,
I wanted to see Emma go to school, watch her graduate from college,
experience all the emotions as she gets married, has her first baby, All
this things that I'm not going to see and it makes me mad" said Rachel, her
voice cracking "But I know in that aspect, that I'll be leaving Emma in the
safest hands possible, that you guys will be there and bring her up to be
every bit the girl I would have wanted her to be"
"You don't have to worry about anything like that Rach," said Chandler
"We're going to be here every step of the way"
"That I already knew," said Rachel "I love you guys so much, you mean the
world to me"
"We love you too Rach" said Phoebe, standing up and wrapping her arms
around Rachel and Ross, soon joined by Joey and Chandler
(Monica and Chandler's Bedroom)
Monica was lying on the bed, face down. Her whole body was shaking with
tears, of all the things that could possibly happen in life, this was one
of the worst. Her best friend, someone who she had always relied on to help
her through tough times was going to be taken away from her.
She heard a soft knock on the door and Rachel stepped into the room
quietly, joining Monica on the bed.
"Mon" she said, touching her back "Monica"
Monica sat up, her face all streaky and tearful.
"Why Rach?" she asked, "Why is this happening to you?"
"I don't know," said Rachel "Maybe my time is just coming sooner then we
would have all hoped"
"It's so unfair," sobbed Monica "I can't imagine what life would be like
without you here. You've always been here and it's all going to change"
"I don't want to die Monica, I'm so scared about what's going to happen but
it's going to happen, I can't do anything about it so know all I want to do
is spend as much time as possible with the people who mean so much to me.
Every single moment is precious," said Rachel "There is so many things I
was looking forward too, but it's over"
"What were you looking forward too?" asked Monica
"So much. Just little things that don't really matter but mean the world to
me. I was looking forward to spending the next 50 years with you guys,
watching us al raise our families and become everything we've ever dreamed
off. I thought we'd all grow old together. I was looking forward to
retiring with my best friends but you're all going to have to do it without
me. I was looking forward to watching you bring this Baby girl into the
world but if I'm not here, I want you to tell her all about her Aunt Rachel
and make sure she knows what good fashion really is"
"I will," said Monica, a small smile making it's way across her face
"She'll know all about you"
"I'm going to miss you so much" said Monica softly "You're the bestest
friend a girl could ever want, my life will never be the same without you
"Don't talk like that" said Rachel "I'm not gone yet"
"I know. I'm sorry" replied Monice "Rachel, You mean so much to me, You've
always been there for me through thick and thin, you've helped me through
so much crap and guided me into making right decisions, I'll be forever
grateful to you for that"
"Ditto" said Rachel, hugging Monica tightly
(Cut back to the living room)
Everyone sat in silence, taking in the information that they had just been
given. Ross was silently staring at his hands and Joey didn't know what to
say. It was a tough realisation for all of them, knowing that one of them
wasn't going to be around for much longer. Phoebe was sobbing into her
"You guys didn't hear the good news," said Ross suddenly
"What good news?" asked Phoebe
"Rachel and I are getting married next month" he said "And we'd like you
all to be apart of it"
"You're getting married" said Chandler, a sad smile spreading across his
"Yes. I couldn't let her go without marrying her first. She's my soulmate"
said Ross "I just love her so much, More then anyone will ever know"
"We know Ross," said Joey "We've been there during your ups and downs and
you guys have always loved each other"
"Lobsters" said Phoebe "The two lobsters"
Emma and Daniel came wandering through from the bedroom, oblivious to what
had just gone on until Emma noticed Phoebe's tears
She climbed up onto Ross's lap and whispered in his ear "Why's Aunt Phoebe
"Just some bad news Em" said Ross 'you don't have to worry"
"Ok. Where's Mommy?" asked Emma "I want to show her somefing"
"She's in the bedroom with Aunt Monica" said Ross "Please don't interrupt
"I won't" said Emma "I just wanted to give her a kiss but I'll give you one
instead. I love my mommy and daddy"
"And they love you too" said Ross
(Later that night- Ross and Rachel's Apartment)
Ross and Rachel were lying in bed, hugging each other tightly and talking.
"How do I tell her Ross?" asked Rachel "How do you explain to a 5 year old
her Mommy is going to die?"
"I don't know' said Ross "I don't think she'll even understand"
"I'm scared, I'm being so strong but all I really want to do is go outside
and scream and yell. I want to scream at god for doing this to me" said
Rachel, her eyes beginning to well up yet again. "For taking me away from
my family years before my time"
"Let it out, Rachel" said Ross, stroking her hair "You can yell and scream.
Just let it out"
Emma's head suddenly popped round the door and she came and snuck up onto
the bed with them
"What are you doing up?" asked Rachel "Kindy in the morning"
"I couldn't sleep" said Emma "Why do you have tears Mommy?"
Rachel looked at Ross and he nodded.
"Emma, Mommy needs to tell you something" she said, her voice full of
"What?" asked Emma "Is it about me spilling my drink all over the floor? I
didn't mean too"
"No, No" said Rachel "Emma, Mommy's not going to be around for much longer"
"Why?" asked Emma "Where are you going?"
"Do you know where Heaven is?" asked Ross "Where all the beautiful angel's
live up above?"
"No" said Emma
"Well Mommy's going to be going to heaven in a few months. And she's not
going to be coming back" said Rachel "I'm so sorry sweetie"
Tears began to flow down her and Ross's face as they watched their little
girl, wise beyond her years, try to understand.
"Is it because I've been bad?" asked Emma "I'm sorry Mommy, please don't
Rachel began to sob heavily, and Ross tried to sooth her
"You haven't done anything Emma" said Ross "Mommy's sick and one day the
Angel's are going to come down and take her up to heaven, Where she will
become a Beautiful angel and look down on us"
"If you're sick, I can try and fix you with my nurses kit" offered Emma
"I'll make you better"
"I'm not going to get better Emma" sobbed Rachel "I would stay if I could
but I can't. I'd give anything to be able to stay here with you but it
"Can I come with you?" asked Emma "I want to be an Angel too"
"Someday" said Ross "Someday you and I both will join Mommy and we'll be
"Promise?" asked Emma
"I promise Honey" said Rachel "I love you so much Baby"
"I love you too Mommy" said Emma, wrapping her little arms around Rachel's