My scrambled eggs turned to sawdust in my mouth as she entered the lunchroom at breakfast the next day. She was the enemy, the Janis faced betrayer, the one who stole my girl. Kory said not a word to anyone as she past our table without sitting. The slender blonde taking up occupancy in a chair in the back of the cafeteria where the band ate. She hadn't even looked me in the eye and I was glad. I wanted the guilt to fester inside of her until she couldn't bare it anymore. I craved the satisfaction of knowing the shame was destroying her life as she'd ruined mine.

"What's wrong with Kory?" Julie asked Charlie with milk dripping down her chin.

"I don't know." Our captain shook his head perplexed. "Last time I talked to her, she was in a great mood."

I snorted angrily and poked a grape with my fork. "Maybe she's miserable because she knows she wrecked my life and may break up the team."

Everyone looked at me slack jawed and confused, it was obvious neither Kory nor Connie had mentioned anything to them. It wasn't just my back they were going behind. The other's had been deceived as well. Maybe I hadn't been to blind to see, no-one had.

Like usual Averman was the first to speak. "What in the hell are you talking about?"

"I cheated on him… with Kory, Averman." A whisper came from behind me and I turned in my seat to see Connie standing at the foot of the table.

Her hair was messy, her eye bloodshot and her lips were puffy. She looked like she hadn't slept all night or stepped foot in the shower that morning. Any other day if I'd seen her looking like she was in that much pain, I would've run to her, that day I couldn't bring myself to do it. I could scarcely stand to look at her.

How could she hurt me so badly, someone she claimed to love? More so, how could she have her lips on me one minute and her the next. To touch with hands she'd had roaming another girls body, it was disturbing. I was so angry I wanted to scream, to pull my own hair out, to do something. I couldn't take it anymore.

The rest of the team stared at her dumbfounded, I knew no-one had any idea what to you say. What do you say to a girl that ripped out the heart of one of your friends? For Charlie it was worse, he'd known Connie longer then I had, Kory was his neighbor and I was possibly his best friend.

"You did what?" Goldberg formed words with his mouth full of Cheerios.

"I've been seeing Kory, behind everyone's back."

Julie gasped and dropped her fork. "Wait a minute, we were rooming together for three years and you never saw fit to tell me you're gay! Connie Moreau that's disgusting."

"How could you do that to Guy and to us?" I never thought I'd see the day when Dwayne was upset at Connie, but it was that day.

My ex flinched liked she'd been punched and blinked her eyes. She hadn't expected our resident Cowboy to speak against her, I could tell. As steely eyes stared at her with confused and heated expressions her bottom lip began to quiver and I felt satisfaction in knowing she was in pain, like she had put me in.

"I didn't mean to hurt anyone, I just…" She bit down hard on her bottom lip and spun on her heels running out of the cafeteria.

Connie's POV

There was so much I wanted to tell them right then. Somehow I couldn't get my mouth to form the words. My tongue wouldn't shape the sounds. I had gone to breakfast with the intention explaining everything, of letting the team know that had pushed that part pf me away so long that I needed to let free. I wanted them to make up their own minds about me and Kory and all that had happened. When it came down too it, I just couldn't articulate it.

I went back to my room and flopped onto my bed with a whimper. I felt so guilty but I had made my choice. I was bisexual, I couldn't deny myself that any longer. I'd been with Guy for years, but I had to explore that side of me. I wanted Kory…

That's when I found the note, resting on my desk. I was in her handwriting, graceful, elegant print.

'Connie,

I guess you could say I'm taking the coward's way out by leaving you this letter, but I don't know what else to do. I don't want to fight with you, or cause you anymore trouble then I already have. I want you to be happy and it's obvious now that can't happen as long as we're together. You're not ready for this and I can't just be a toy you play with when the mood strikes you. I'm moving back in with my parents that's where I need to be right now. Please don't try to talk to me in the hall, I don't want a scene. I just want this to end it's evident by the way you acted last night, so do you.

Kory'

That was the last time I ever heard from her. By the time I got back from practice that night all her things were gone. I tried to talk to her a few times in class but she ignored me. I guess being deaf worked to her advantage, she play it off like it was simply because she didn't hear me.

Things with the team were tense for a long time. It was divided by those who were for Guy and other's that were on my side. Charlie was the most mad at me, since I broke the heart of both of his best friends. It took a while but eventually I was able to get out on the ice without fear of who was going to check me at practice.

Kory moved back into the dorms a month later. Not my room of course, she bunked with the cheerleaders. I guess the squad captain found out how graceful she was and convinced her to join them. Rumor had it that the two became a couple shortly after, but neither confirmed it. She even got the team to forgive her, well everyone but Guy. Don't ask me how.

Basically I was left with nothing. No chance of ever getting Kory or Guy back. Sometimes I look back on it now and think, that's what I deserved.