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DISCLAIMER:
I don't own anything related to Zelda.
WARNINGS: There's going to be lemony freshness in this fic. Beware. Some of it is likely to be yuri(think Gerudo...?)and some of it might be yaoi, but the main relationship in question is het.
And yes, this chapter is disturbing. The next one will be kinder to poor Zelda.
NOTE: Zelda and Link, according to the creator of the game, are brother and sister. If they weren't, this might be a Zelda+Link story; however, they are, so...tough. As with my other fics, this chapter is considerably shorter than following ones will be.
TO SHARE A DREAM
Chapter One
Zelda dreamed.
In the dream, her eyes opened slowly.
Sheik was awake already, his head propped on his elbow, his deep eyes watching her. "Good morning." he said softly. Zelda yawned a smile and stretched, throwing back her arms and arching her back. When she dropped back down, limp and happy, Sheik's arm was underneath her; he pulled her tight and kissed her. "Sleep well?" he asked when he pulled away, his hand tracing idle patterns on her shoulder. She smiled dreamily. "I did, my heart. Did you?" his rose-colored eyes darkened a shade. "Dreams." he said shortly. Zelda's heart sank. "As bad as last night?" Sheik's face was serious and sad. "Worse, lover, worse. I think that the Goddesses are trying to tell me something."
Zelda bit her lip, trying and failing to hold Sheik's gaze. "No. After all these years, after everything you've done, after...after DYING for their cause, you deserve this. They can't take you from me. Not when all we have is here!" She flung out one pearly hand to take in their surroundings--the deep round bed floated in a void of faintly swirling colors. There was no cold floor to walk across barefooted, no window to fling open to let in the sunlight--Zelda could have all those things, or Sheik could, but never together.
Sheik had died saving refugees from the war, at the beginning of it--he was the son of the woman who had been Zelda's attendant once, before Ganondorf had risen to power. When he died, his mother begged the goddesses for him to be allowed to pause in the place where sages rested--they did one better, and allowed him to use a willing body to roam the living world, to shape that body to fit his spirit, for as long as he was needed. Zelda, hearing the story, had offered herself--and upon meeting the young man in this place, had gone further. She loved him, and they spent what time they could together here, in comfort and relative peace.
Discomfited, Zelda rose to her feet. A rosy floor appeared beneath her feet, and she paced back and forth. Sheik watched her, in pain himself, uncertain of what to say. Her little nightshift--imagined, unreal as anything else in this place--swayed a little in a breeze summoned by her unrest.
"Love..." he began, and stopped. He slid from the bed and walked over to her. He pulled her to him, held her to his bare chest. "Everything will be well." He said softly. "If I must die in truth, and if my soul--or whatever I am, here--must pass to the next world, then rest assured that I will wait for you."
"No. I refuse to consider it." Zelda's lower lip quivered, and her eyes were bright, but her stubbornness won out and the tears didn't fall. She looked up at her lover and shook her head. "You will live." She said. "If I must petition the goddesses on my knees, you will live."
Sheik smiled softly at her. "As you say, Princess." he said, with just a hint of mocking in his tone. "After all, you are the high and reigning princess of Hyrule, and your word is law." His ruby eyes twinkled. Zelda smiled despite herself--Sheik was so quiet that in the beginning, when she first knew him, she'd sometimes had trouble deciding if he was serious or not. "You mock me." she said, reaching up and tweaking his nose.
His long hand snaked up and caught her smaller one, caressing her fingers. Never breaking eye contact, he said "Never." He brought her hand to his lips and kissed it. "I love you too much." He leaned over and kissed her throat, smiling at her little noise of pleasure. Her arms slid around his shoulders and she pulled him close for a kiss, her lips lingering on his for one sweet moment. His hands settled on her hips, fingers caressing her through the silky fabric of her thin gown. Zelda backed up, slowly, leading him to the bed step by step. Her azure eyes were luminous in the shifting half-light, and Sheik paused in pleasure, staring into them. He lowered his mouth to her ear, and Zelda shivered at his warm breath on her throat. "The first time we shared a body," he began, "I stood on the banks of Lake Hylia and watched the sun rise. Just as the very edge of it showed over the horizon, the water began to glow. It was so beautiful...After so much time without a body, seeing something so glorious as that was overwhelming. I remember just staring at the water, watching the color change from midnight blue to the a blue so pale that there are no words for it, all the colors of the sky reflected. I thought I would die from the joy of it."
he lifted one finger and caressed Zelda's face, a faint smile touching his lips. "So it was, when I saw your eyes for the first time. All the colors of the sky, and deep enough to drown in." Zelda let out a little gasp, and then laughed, a low, rich sound that never ceased to surprise Sheik. "Ahh, your silver tongue." she said. She kissed him again, harder now, her mouth opening to his.
"It's good for other things." he said. Zelda's eyebrows shot up into her hairline. "Oh?" Sheik really smiled then, the rare grin that only those closest to him ever saw. "Let me show you." he said.
He turned her and pressed her onto the bed, sliding her nightgown up and over her head as he did so. Straddling her, he kissed her shoulder, and her throat, and then her breasts, delighting in her sighs. "Also, my hands are not without use." He said, running the very tips of his slender fingers along her sides, down her hips and back up again. She wriggled, and pulled him down against her, her small hands running through his hair and swiftly along his spine.
"I love you." She said breathlessly.
He kissed her softly, his eyes shining with care. "And I you, my heart." His hands crept up and tickled her, and she writhed, laughing manically. "No, no no, stop! Stop!" She gasped for breath and distracted him, one of her hands sliding down to tease him. As he gasped, she thought They're not going to take him from me. I am going to have him forever, for as long as we choose to live...
And then there was no time at all for thought.
She awoke with a start. The memories were so strong that they twisted in her grip and cut her--even now, even after three years, she could still remember the exact way he smelled. Her nostrils and throat were full of that scent, and she turned her face to the pillow in misery. She began, quietly, to cry.
"I'm not strong enough to do this alone." she whispered. "But there's no one else."
There was yet no sun through her window--by the stars, it would be another couple of hours before it rose. The Princess tossed in her bed for another ten minutes or so--it was cold, and too big for her. She needed another body in it, someone to hold her and cuddle when she woke too early, but she knew that she'd sleep alone for the rest of her life.
Mechanically, she rose and bathed, spelling the bathwater warm with a thought. She dressed--there was another diplomatic breakfast today, so she chose her gown and headpiece with care. It was blue, the color of the sky on a summer morning, and she stared at herself in the mirror for a long minute. You would have liked this dress, my love. she thought. I have so many blue dresses now. I never really cared for the color before...before. She couldn't even bring herself to think about it in words. But you always liked blue. She smoothed the gown with half-gloved hands, and turned from the glass.
Mornings like this always seemed unreal to her. Sometimes she almost let herself believe that this was the dream, that she truly slept in Sheik's arms, and that he'd wake her any moment. "It's just a dream." he'd say, brushing her hair back from her eyes, and then she'd turn her face to his chest and sleep, breathing him in, feeling warm flesh against her lips, a warm arm over her. And when she woke fully, they'd lie there for hours, talking and making love, before deciding who was more important to the world today. One of them would eventually take the body they shared, the body that she'd been born in, and it would change to fit the spirit while the other one dozed in the back of their mind, waking a little to see things of particular interest, waking entirely in battle or diplomatic situations. It was all a dream, all one dream or another.
But not anymore.
Now, when she slept, she slept alone in every sense. That subtle, comforting knowledge that was Sheik was gone, and her body seemed too large for her--she thought sometimes that if she shook herself, she'd be able to hear her soul rattling around in the empty space.
Today...today I meet with Link of the Gorons, and discuss the trade situation on Death Mountain. The emissary to the Gerudo should arrive today with the revised treaty--Nabooru's given strict instructions to her girls, so there shouldn't be any trouble. Zelda sighed, pulling on her boots. I still need to finish that draft of the free-waters declaration for the Zoras...with all the work we've been doing to hold the peace steady, it would be stupid to have them feel the need to start electrocuting Hylians now--and people need to learn which of the waters are safe to fish in. She yawned, grimacing at the still-dark window.
I should talk to Link--he was more surprised than I was to find out that we're half-siblings, and it's thrown him a bit off. Good thing he's used to being surprised. And it would be so nice to get a few days off to visit with Ruto. The Zora princess had been almost as hurt by Sheik's death as Zelda; Sheik had pulled her from stasis under the ice of her homewater, and she'd never felt that she'd repaid him for it.
Zelda stood again, boots laced, skirt perfect and unwrinkled, and gathered herself. Time for the world. She thought. I am the Princess Zelda, protector of my people, and that is all I am. Images of Sheik blurred through her mind, and she forced them away. And that is all I will ever be.
AUTHOR'S NOTE--Comments, please? If anyone likes this fic, I'll continue it. It has potential, but I think it's probably going to be pretty emotional, so if I'm going to get geared up to put myself through that I'd like to know that it's going to be read. ;) Ja ne!