Author's Note: I really don't like this title. Alas. And I think my brain just farted since I'm not sure if I capped the title properly. ^^;

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Layers that are Me

i watch him from the corner of my eye
can he see me
can he see
the way he looks at me
soft sad terrible
he sees her
her and never me
i scream at the thought
i ran into the forest once
and kicked a tree
and screamed
and cried
when we camp i watch him stare off into the sky
he sees her in the stars
i hold shippou tightly
his tail buries my tears
sometimes there is tension
when we are close
but when he looks to me
scared confused indignant
all he sees is her
i am sure
he looks through my eyes
and all the layers that are me
peeling back every level
searching for her in my eyes
i feel like a shadow
a mimic
an imitation
if he loves me
all he loves is her
i am her to him
eyes face body soul
but he makes me feel so warm inside
i
i love him
but then he gazes into my eyes
he only sees her
and at times like that
i want to take that damn rusty sword of his
and tear myself apart