anything!) I loved it so much that I decided to post it here. I thought it was a proper way to say

goodbye to Anya, since they just sorta brushed over her death on the show. I hope you like!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters! I do however own this monologue.

Enjoi!

"Human"

I'm terrified... I have been, but now more then ever. When I was a demon, I was strong. Fearless.

But now what am I? Im Human. I can do nothing for these people, simply because I'm a wee little

human girl. Buffy was right when she said that I was afraid. When she told me that I should leave.

But what am I doing now? Im standing steadfast in a hallway at Sunnydale High with uber-geek,

Andrew, holding a sword in my hand. I'm terrified, and I'm sure that he could tell, because he asked

me to think of happy thoughts when I'm killing the vamps.

"Bunnies." I said. "Fluffy. Hoppy. Bunnies!"

I guess my rabbit-phobia has always quite amused everybody. I could tell by now, and humor always

goes best with battles against the undead. At least for as far as I could remember.

I blow the hair out of my face as I prepare myself for battle. I have to be strong. For Buffy. For Dawn.

For Xander... Oh Xander. My heart was crushed when you left me at the alter, But...But I still love you,

and I'll never ever stop. Just because sometimes I give you the cold should and say mean, blunt things

doesnt mean that I don't care. Someday I'll tell you, but I have to get through this first. I have to live to

tell you. I am human, that much is true, but if I can do nothing else for them, I should at least live through

this.

For me. For you...

Oh no... Here they come! I'm a survivor. I must survive! I will...

I blindly swing my sword around. One. Two. Three. I count as the vampires fade to dust before my mighty

blade. Four. Five. Six. I can feel it! The power! The prestige! Am I more then human? Seven. Eight. Nine.

More and more they fall, more and more I swing. Confidence exudes from my body as I swing.

Then... A sharp pain, One from my shoulder to my rib on the opposite side of my body. I fall, and blood

gurgles out of my mouth. I have died. I guess I am human after all. I cry.

I love you Xander.

Always...