Disclaimer: The song belongs to the great Lifehouse. Rock on! And . . . Natsuki Takaya owns 'Fruits Basket'. I don't.

Author's notes: When I downloaded the lyrics of this song and I read the first line, I could swear this was made for Kyou and Tohru. So, I was inspired to write this fic. Ugh, Lifehouse is addictive, I've even wrote a Hatori/Mayuko fic on 'Everything' and maybe I'll do a Severus/Remus fic on 'Hanging by a moment'. Enough chit chat, on with the fic.

I'd rather chase your shadow all my life

Than be afraid of my own

In the Souma family, the cat is destined to feared, despised and lead the life of an outcast. I was ready for that. After my mother died and my father left, I knew it was a harsh world out there. A part of me knew well that Yuki would never be defeated, at least not by my hands. I still had to give it a shot.

I tried to accept myself, I tried to live with being the cat. The damn rat lead the happy life, I never could. I've never loved anyone and saw them last. I've cared for people and only succeeded in pushing them away and hurting them.

If someone asked me what am I afraid of I'd say it'd be me. I have the third form. A most hated form in the Souma clan. When I was abandoned I was scared and I asked myself a few questions. What am I? Why is everyone so afraid of me? Why do I have to live like this? It's hard a monster inside, it's hard being cursed when you know haven't committed any sins. It's hard being rejected.

I'm afraid of the monster I am. I'm afraid of what I can do when I lose control. I'm afraid of what I can do when I love.

I really believed Akito when he told me that I had dare not love anyone because after all- everyone who loves me, leaves me.

Then, you came in. You joined the cling and clatter. I saw you smile and I told myself you were an innocent moron and the frickin' rat had eyes for you. You said you loved the cat. My heart leapt, this girl loves the cat. Could this be true? Or was she just playing with my mind? Nonetheless, I couldn't stop myself from falling in love with you. I am a fool.

You really did care about me. I was flattered. No matter how many times I've scolded you and pushed you away, I did it so that you didn't have to lead a miserable life with me. There's nothing I can offer you other than pain. Yet you still insisted in caring. You were so polite and not a mean bone in your body. Hell, I was in love with you the moment I met you.

But I wouldn't let anybody else get hurt. I would dare not allow that. Not to you, annata.

Do you know that song? You know 'If tomorrow never comes'. Yeah, that one. It talks about not being able to tell someone you love the way you feel before it's too late.

I also remembered you and your mother. I knew you bear the guilt of not being able to wish her a good day on that fateful day. You're so naive, Tohru. That's why I love you. You're innocent.

I wanted to repress this feeling inside me. I didn't want to let it develop but it did so right under my nose. I'd curse myself randomly. Why the hell am I trying to hurt someone? Haven't I caused enough suffering? Then I remembered all those things. I want one chance, just one chance to tell you how I feel. That's all.

I love you, Tohru. Do you love me?

If you do (and I keep telling myself not to get my hopes high), I'll move heaven and hell for you. I'd rather be with you and leave it all behind. I won't be afraid of me. I know you aren't.

I'd rather be with you

I'd rather not know where I'll be than be alone and convinced that I know

You're the first person to really accept me. Maybe, you won't be the last.

I'd rather lead an unsure life with you out there than cry to myself about the inevitable.

Unless a miracle happens (from you), I'll have to lead my life in a cage. I don't have much time. I'll succumb to my fate if I have to. You'll live to see another day. You'll live to have grandchildren.

God knows I've tried beating Yuki. I'll try telling you about my feelings and that shouldn't be hard, or maybe not.

Please Tohru, I need you.

And the world keeps spinning round

My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing

The world spins around on its accord. It doesn't stop.

I always knew that world would keep spinning around, no matter what. When you came into my life, my world came into in existence. It actually started spinning around.

My world's full of flaws like I am. But we'd be lying assholes if we were to admit that our lives are perfect. But when you were with me, I felt utopia. Sure, there were certain things I would have like to got rid of to make my life a true utopia but between you and me, I wouldn't have changed a thing.

I've got nothing else to lose

I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change a thing

A cat is destined to loose things. It's part of it's fate.

I never really had much before you. I probably had a bit more respect from Akito, pent-up anger, hate and sadness.

I lost a lot of it when I found you or rather you found me and I gained a whole lot more.

I'm sure we wouldn't change any of that annata.

No you and I wouldn't change a thing

The odds don't look but I dream of future of you and me. An imperfect one. A one where I try not to scold you for everything and try to make you happy. A one where we have a family and we make the best of what we have. I know neither of us would change a thing about it, not if we love each other.

Everything I know has let me down

So I will just let go

I have been mocked, jeered at and taunted all my childhood. My mother was afraid of me, embedding a fear in myself. My father hated me, he couldn't stand me and left me.

I had no one to trust till Kazuma-san came and I had to let him down. Of course, he was an understanding father but like I promised. I'd make him proud. I just hope he lives to see that day.

I'll let go. I'll let it be.

Let you turn me inside out

Cause I know I'm not sure

About anything but you wouldn't have it any other way

I'll try to let you do the things you like to do instead of scolding you constantly. I'll try Tohru, it won't be easy but I'll do it. I'm unsure but I know that you'd tell me not to worry.

Spinning, turning, watching, burning

All my life has found its meaning

Walking, crawling, climbing, falling

All my life has found its meaning

After all the jeering, all the mocking, all the taunting, and after all the pain I've experienced, I think I've finally found love in my life. I believe I've found meaning to my existence.

You and I wouldn't change a thing

No you and I wouldn't change a thing

I'm nervous. My fists clench and unclench. Why the hell does everything have to be this damn complicated?

I called you to the roof. No backing out now Souma Kyou. Not today.

"Kyou-kun!" You say in your happiest tone.

God, you're such a beautiful person.

And the world keeps spinning round

My world's upside down and I wouldn't change a thing

I've got nothing else to lose

I lost it all when I found you and I wouldn't change thing

"Eh, Tohru," I look at tiles frustrated. Damn. I hate my screwy life.

"Is Kyou-kun feeling bad? Should I get you something? You shouldn't be here if ..."

"I'm fine, damn it! I'm fine!" I interrupt you brashly as usual. "I'm sorry."

"No, no, I'm sorry ..."

"I want to tell you something," my cheeks glow. I can feel the blood rushing up my cheeks.

"Hai."

I look at those innocent green eyes. Those happy eyes; please don't be perplexed. I don't want you to get upset.

"I ... I ... I ..."

"Yes, Kyou-kun?"

"Damn it! I'm getting there." I yell as a drop of sweat falls from your head. I'm good at intimidating people, aren't I?

"I was going to tell you love you!" I yell abruptly. I stop. my throat feels uneasy. Oh god, what did I just say?

I'm nervous again. I think I'm going to throw myself of off the roof.

"I love you too." You say simply.

I'm shocked. I can feel tears rolling down my eyes. Nobody's ever said that before so simply, so sweetly, yet sincerely to me. I can feel my chest getting warmer. God, this is beautiful ...

"I've always been fond of you, Kyou-kun. I've always wished you'd love me back," you touch my cheek softly, smile with those beautiful cherry pink lips and brightening those emerald orbs. You struggle to reach my mouth. I lean over your mouth and silently dip mine into yours. Our kiss is soft and affectionate, lacking desire. Your hands slowly brush against my cheek. My arms snake around your waist. For a moment, I can feel you and hold you for a while without transforming.

Poof! I'm in the cat's form.

No you and I wouldn't change a thing,

No you and I wouldn't change a thing.

You pick me up gently, brushing your head close to my form and cuddling me. I affectionately lick your face.

No, you and I wouldn't change a thing right now.