Raven's face was dry and salty from the tears that had over flowed down her cheeks. She swallowed hard as she began to relax. That single moment from before did not erase from her memory. It was as clear as crystal. The one boy she had loved. The one boy she had respected. The one boy who enjoyed her company. .was seen being kissed by another.
"This is hell. .Why must you torment me, Lord? What have I done to deserve this?"
The sun had disappeared from sight, leaving the sky stranded and dark. Raven rose from the floor and dusted herself off. 'I do not have time for this.' She rose into the air and floated down the staircase. Her head lay low and her expression was blank. Not much was on her mind at the moment. The hallway was deserted. No one life could sensed from these darkened halls. Raven sighed deeply and walked down towards her room. She rested her hand on the door. It was cold and hard, much like her heart. The warm, welcoming feeling was forever gone. The hope of dreams was shattered like glass. There is no love dwelling this girl anymore. .However, that all changed surprisingly.
"Raven! Hey Ray!"
Raven turned around to see Beast Boy run up to her.
"Beast Boy, I have no time for foolishness right now."
"Raven, this is going to be foolish. It's important."
Raven crossed her arms and lay her blank expression upon Beast Boy.
"Well," he said, rubbing the back of his head, "you didn't hear this from me, but a while ago, Star was talking to Rob. She had feelings for him and stuff and so she told him."
Raven turned her head to the side. 'Great, I bet they are a happy couple now. Great way to tell me, Beast Boy.'
"And well. .It didn't turn out so good."
Raven payed close attention just as Beast Boy finished his sentence.
"She was. .rejected. Rob, I guess, didn't feel the same way and so he told her the truth. She wasn't too happy about it, so now she's upset in the living room. I'm doing the best I can to make her feel better, dude. Can you check up on Robin for me?"
Raven was shocked. 'But I had witnessed them kissing. Could I be wrong about. .Wait, I'll just ask Robin about this. This is confusing for me to figure out.'
"Fine, I will check on Robin. Where is he?"
"I think he's outside sitting near the ocean."
"Alright, thank you."
Raven left and headed towards the bottom floor. She walked down the stairway and was gone from Beast Boy's sight. 'Good luck,' he thought. He turned around and made his way to the living room. 'Please tell me Star's ok.' As he entered the living room, he found Star crying and burying her face into a pillow. 'Forget it, she's way below "ok".'
Beast Boy sat next to Star and placed his hand on her shoulder.
"How you feelin', Star?"
Starfire looked up from the pillow. Her emerald green eyes gleamed with tears. She sniffled and hiccupped as she attempted to respond.
"I-I am not w-well, Be-east Boy."
"It's ok, it's ok."
Beast Boy patted Starfire on the back. He couldn't bear to see her cry. He couldn't bear to see any girl cry. It just broke his heart.
"Easy Star, it's ok."
She buried her face into his shoulder and continued to sob. After a good 8 minutes, Starfire began to relax. She breathed deeply in and out. She huggled the pillow close to her for comfort.
"Can you tell me what happened?"
"Yes. I shall tell you of the previous events I experienced."
She wiped her tears away and recalled what had happened earlier.
"I had prepared myself by rehearsing a speech. When you had passed by my bedroom, I had asked you of your assistance. You had said that you approved of my speech after listening to it. After you departed, I had dressed up and practiced speaking the speech once more before a mirror. I felt ready and confident.
I had walked out of my bedroom and ran down the hallway looking for Robin. He was not present in the living room, nor the kitchen. So, I ran back into the hallway and decided to check upon Robin's bedroom. When I reached the last corner of the hall, I had found Robin standing against the doorway to his room. I approached him and asked if he could speak with me. He accepted and we entered his bedroom."
--~--~--~--~ Flash Back
Starfire followed Robin into his room. It was just the same: newspaper clippings hung up on the wall, a desk with scattered evidence and tools, and a new bookcase was set up. Robin offered Starfire a seat.
"Oh, no thank you Robin, I wish to stand up."
Robin sat down onto a polished, wooden chair near his desk. Starfire grew nervous as he waited for her to speak.
"So," he said, "what is it you wanted to talk about?"
"Well. .it is hard for me to say."
She twisted a strand of her hair around her finger as she tried to collect up the right words to say.
". .Robin, I have these feelings for you. These feelings are. .how do you say. .'joyous.' I have come to a conclusion that I. .I love you."
Robin sat there, trying to take in what Starfire just admitted.
"Robin, I love you."
Passion grew in Starfire's eyes. Slowly, she bent down to Robin and planted a soft kiss upon his curved lips.
Robin's eyes grew wide from shock. Everything happened so fast. 'Wait,' he thought, '. .this doesn't feel right.' The images of Raven appeared into his mind. Images of himself and her together. 'What. . Hold up!' Robin broke the kiss and stood up. He stepped back a few steps.
"Star. .I'm flattered and all but. .I just don't. ."
"What? You do not just what?"
". .I just don't feel the same way towards you."
"What do you mean?"
"Look Star, you are a close friend to me. Heck, you're like a little sister to me. But when it comes to this, when it comes to love, I. .I don't feel like that about you. I just 'like' you. That's all."
Starfire lowered her shoulders. Robin could sense that Starfire was disappointed. He didn't mean to shoot her down like that.
"Aw, c'mon Star. We can still friends, right? Please don't take what I said the wrong way."
He placed a hand on Star's shoulder. She looked down upon the floor.
"I am sorry, Robin."
"Sorry? Sorry for what?"
"I have embarrassed myself before you."
"Star, it's not a big deal. Stuff like this happens all the time on Earth, it's normal."
"If it is normal, than why do I feel so humiliated!"
Tears poured down Star's face as she ran out the door.
Robin called after her, but she did not respond. She ran ahead and turned a corner. She ran into the living room and threw herself onto the couch.
--~--~--~--~ End Flash Back
". .And that is what happened."
"Damn. .It sucks when the person you like doesn't feel the same. I know I've been through that before."
Beast Boy's head lay low as memories of rejection came back to him. Starfire looked at him with puffy eyes.
"You mean. .you have experienced this as well?"
"Yeah," he said grimly, "I know what's like to be rejected. But Star, you're lucky Robin went easy with you. When I admitted my love for some girl, she just scolded at me. It's been like that for the longest time. Girls just don't find me cool for some reason."
Starfire sniffled and wiped away a tear.
"I do not understand why such cruelty is out forward towards you. I think you are a 'cool' person."
Beast Boy looked up at her and smiled.
Starfire smiled and nodded.
"Thanks Star. I think you're cool too."
He wrapped an arm around her shoulder and said, "C'mon Star, there's plenty of guys out there just waiting to be with you. A lot of people like you. You're nice, you're pretty, you help fight crime. You'll find someone else soon, I can feel it."
"Thank you, Beast Boy. You are, as they say, a true friend."
"Same to you, Star."
He lightly hugged Star to comfort her. Maybe things won't be so bad after all.
Raven rode the elevator all the way down to the bottom floor. There wasn't much here, this was just the entrance floor. She walked up to the front door and opened it. Before she stepped out, she slipped off her slippers. She couldn't bear to get them dirty. She floated off the floor and into the young night air. She passed the training ground with ease and finally reached the sand. There, she found Cyborg sitting next to Robin where the ocean swayed back and forth. Cyborg looked back and smiled at Raven. He patted Robin on the back and rose from the sand. He walked over to Raven casually.
"Good thing you came, Rob wants to speak to you," he said.
Raven nodded and bid her thanks. She slowly walked over to where Robin was sitting, not too sure how to approach him. He didn't seem like his normal self. He continued staring straight ahead at the city lights from afar. Raven brought up the courage and spoke to Robin.
"Hey," he replied in a croaked voice.
Raven sat down next to him. He didn't look back at her.
"So. .I heard what happened."
Robin turned his head towards her. A tired expression was planted onto his fair face.
"What did you say that made Star upset?"
"I didn't say anything bad. I told her the truth. .I said that I was flattered that she liked me, but I didn't feel the same towards her. I couldn't lie to her. That'd be wrong. After I finished telling her, she got upset and ran out crying. I didn't mean to hurt her feelings, honest. That was not my intention."
"I know you wouldn't say anything mean to her. Robin, relax. You did the right thing. Starfire's sensitive, you know how she gets. She'll be over it. Beast Boy's talking to her right now, probably trying to get her to laugh. I don't think he is succeeding, but hey at least Star has someone there to listen to her."
Robin lightly laughed.
"Hey, to be honest, I was shocked when I heard the news. I thought you liked Star. .in that way."
"We do get along, we really do. But it's not like that for me. She's like a sister to me, she's a good friend. I just don't have those kind of strong feelings towards her. I feel bad."
"Robin, don't feel bad. You told her the honest truth. If you were to lie to her, you both would be miserable. Don't worry."
Raven rubbed his shoulder softly. She stood up and walked into the ocean. She stopped ankle-deep and stretched her arms up to the sky. The water felt cooling as the water surrounded her feet. She looked up to the night sky. The stars twinkled like shimmering diamonds and jewels. She turned around and faced towards Robin direction.
Raven looked to the side. Thank goodness it was dark out, for her face slightly reddened.
"Do you. .like anyone in a special way?"
"What, a crush you mean?"
Robin leaned back and propped his upper body up on his elbows. He looked up to the heavens as he responded to Raven's question.
"Maybe. What about you?"
Raven shrugged her shoulders.
"Really? Who is the lucky guy anyway?" he asked with a grin.
Raven looked at him with a deep expression.
"He. .well let's just say he's. .a great guy I can depend on."
"That's nice. Uh, Raven?"
"Can I tell you something?"
Robin rose from the sand and met up with Raven in the shallow portion of the ocean.
"Well, it's hard for me to say."
"Just tell me."
He looked down into her eyes. He took a good look, nearly peering into her soul.
"Raven, we've been getting along better than usual and I enjoy it. I enjoy it a lot. I love talking with you, I love spending time with you."
"Let me finish. I need to tell you. When you left my room a few hours ago, I started to think about you. I thought about how much I liked you. When Star confessed her love and kissed me, you popped into my head. Since then, I couldn't stop thinking about you and I. Raven, I trust you, I like being with you, you're a great partner, you make me laugh, I. .I want to be with you. What I mean to ask you is. .Will. .will you. .be my girlfriend?"
Raven could not believe her ears. Did he just say that he wanted to be with her? He wanted her as his girlfriend? Her hands grew numb as her stomach began to do flip flops. Her eyes glowed as the moonlight poured onto her.
"If you don't feel the same way, that's fine, I'm not offended-"
"It's ok, I know you probably don't like me that way and-"
"Robin. .do you know how much that means to me?"
She spoke in a soft whisper. It was full of emotion, something Robin had never seen from Raven before.
"I've cared for you ever since the first few days as a Titan. I liked you. You never judged me. You never were cruel towards me. You weren't afraid of me. You never teased me. Robin, you treated me like a person. You treated me like a human being, and not some freak. Robin, you make me smile. You make me want to be happy. When I see you. .I actually feel like I was meant to live."
"Raven. .You really feel like that?"
"Yes. I never knew how to tell you. I was afraid my emotions would get in the way and cause trouble. I was afraid to actually love someone. I don't care anymore. I'm not afraid. Robin, I love you. I love you."
They stood there staring into each other's eyes for what seemed like forever. Robin broke the silence with a question.
"Raven, will you go out with me?"
Raven smiled the most sincere smile she had ever made.
"Yes. Yes I will."
Raven walked toward him with open arms. But he stopped her.
"I think you should know who I really am. My real name isn't Robin."
After that being said, his hands slowly reached up to his black mask. Within seconds, he took off the mask that hid away the windows to his soul. Glowing, hazel eyes looked down upon Raven. She saw his whole face for the first time. She peered into his orbs of forest green and earth brown.
"My real name is Dick Grayson. I trust you to keep this between you and I. Raven, I reveal myself before you because I love you and trust you."
He wrapped his strong, yet gentle arms around Raven's delicate form. He held her close to him. Raven's arms rested upon his broad shoulders.
"Raven. .Let's start something new."
Robin leaned his face close to Raven's. Her heart skipped a beat as his lips brushed against her full, soft lips. The Boy Wonder kissed the dark and emotionless ice queen. .who now knew what it was like to love, and to be loved back. .while ignoring the amount of windows that were breaking at the moment.
Or is it..??
Dear readers and supporters,
When I first started writing this fic in the summer of 2003, I never figured it would actually finish. I just want to say thank you to everyone who enjoyed my fic. Thank you for encouraging me through the months. I enjoyed writing this fic very much for it was my very first one. I hope you enjoyed reading "Something New." As for the "or is it??" portion of this final chapter: It is not the end for good :)