Sometimes sunshine
Does not want to shine on me
And sometimes I find myself blind
At first I cannot see and then I see it's me

I chose a road when I was young
In search of fun temptation won
And all my soul I did surrender
If I had a chance to go back now
Would I redeem my moral vows
Or would I repeat for my own laughter

Miguel paced the train station platform nervously as he waited for Kay's train to come in. It had been a year and a half since they had all last seen Kay. Her progress had gone a bit slower than they had all hoped, but it was finally over. She was coming home.

True to his word, he had watched over his friends. He noticed that they had all noticeably cut down on their drug intake in preparation of Kay's homecoming. They wanted to surprise her by being completely clean and sober when she saw them. Sometimes that had been the only thing keeping them to their vow, the thought of Kay being proud of them, not that she ever indicated she felt any way otherwise.

Sam and Grace had gone ahead and gotten a divorce. Sam and Jessica now lived in a large apartment downtown. The two of them and the gang, were getting ready for Kay's welcome home party. He was the one elected to coming and picking her up, though they had all wanted to come.

He finally heard the blaring of a train whistle and smiled. She was finally here.

Sometimes I hide somewhat
Like a bulb behind a shade
And sometimes I ask myself why
Is it cause the lights are too bright
Or because my eyes are closed too tight

Sometimes I find myself blind
Don't use my brain don't use my mind
Distorted feelings always leading my way
But I must forgive myself
And let the past lay down to rest
And I'll be prepared to face myself in another day

Kay sat in the window seat, watching the scenery pass her by just as she had a year and a half earlier. She was right, it had been hard at the rehab center and she had hated it. The only things she had looked forward to were the calls and letters from her friends and family. She missed them all more than she thought she would.

At the center she had worked on not only breaking the habit, but on getting her priorities in order and on making life goals. The whole experience had been part hospital, part boot camp, and part therapy. And now that she was out, she found that she was kind of missing it. But she had her sponsor's contact information and the addresses of the nearest support meetings in the towns around Harmony, most of them being in the sister town of Castleton. She had also gotten her G.E.D. so she wouldn't have to repeat her senior year of school.

Before she left the school, Kay had been asked the question of if she had been able to go back in time and live her life over again if she would play it out the way it had happened or if she would change everything. She couldn't come up with an answer. She had been thinking about it since she left. She didn't know what she would do. Both sides had their advantages. She guessed she'd just have to wait and see how she felt after being home again.

She had taken the idea from the rehab story she had read and created her own journal. She hoped to get it published; she hoped that it would help other people going through what she went through. While writing it, she discovered that she really loved to write. She was already in the process of writing a horror novel. It was coming along quite well.

She had, in fact, enrolled herself by mail in some creative writing courses at Harmony College. They started in a month's time and she couldn't wait. She knew she'd be living with her father and her sister to begin with. They had moved most of her stuff from the house to her room in their apartment.

Kay was jolted out of her thoughts as the train's whistle blew, clear and sharp. She gathered her notebook and pens together, shoving them into her backpack. She didn't know who would be meeting her at the station, only that someone would be there.

The train slowed to a stop and she stood up to leave.

From now on I will behave
But in the back of my mind I will be enslaved

From now on I will behave
But in the back of my mind I will be enslaved

Sometimes sunshine
Does not want to shine on me
And sometimes
Sometimes I get lost
I get lost

I chose a road when I was young
In search of fun temptation won
And all my soul I did surrender
If I had a chance to go back now
Would I redeem my moral vows
Or would I repeat for my own laughter

Miguel kept getting more and more jumpy the longer he had to wait. He guessed he was just impatient. He wanted to see his best friend, tell her how much he had missed her. While she was gone he had come to the revelation that he did, in fact, love her. More than he ever had Charity. Kay was right; her cousin had been an obsession of his. The past eighteen months had proven that, had shown where his heart truly laid.

Finally people began to depart the train, and none of them moved fast enough for Miguel. He knew that it had been too much to hope that she would be the first one off. Finally he caught sight of her, of her dark brown mane of hair, her somewhat nervous smile that turned into a grin when she saw him.

The moment she got to him he pulled her into a tight hug. "I've missed you so much. Don't go away again," he said softly into her hair.

"I missed you to," she said, returning the hug. "But I'm back now and I don't think I'm going to be leaving any time soon." She pulled away and noticed the odd look on her friend's face. "What's up with you?"

Miguel refused to back down and now was as good a time as any. "I'm in love with you. I have been since before Charity came to town but, like you said, I went off on a tangent with one of my obsessions. I'm so sorry…please, tell me that you can give us a chance," he said, all in a rush that left Kay staring at him in mute surprise. "C'mon, please say something. Anything."

From now on I will behave
But in the back of my mind I will be enslaved

From now on I will behave
But in the back of my mind I will be enslaved

From now on - Hey, Hey, Yeah
From now on - Oh, hey, hey
From now on I will behave
But in the back of my mind I will be enslaved

Sometimes I find myself blind
Don't use my brain don't use my mind
Distorted feelings always leading my way
But I must forgive myself
And let the past lay down to rest
And I'll be prepared to face myself in another day
Hey

From now on I will behave
But in the back of my mind I will be enslaved
I mean it

"I don't know what to say. I've dreamed of this for so long, but never expected it to happen. I had given up hope."

"Do you think it's too late?"

"I love you, Miguel. I don't think that I've ever stopped, only ignored it for a while. Of course it's not too late," she smiled.

Miguel broke into a grin and pulled her into another hug, spinning her around in a circle before kissing her long and deep. "I promise you, Kay, from this moment on that I will do nothing to hurt you. I love you."

"I love you too, forever and always."

Kay finally had her answer. She would definitely live her life out like she had and not have changed a thing.

From now on I will behave
But in the back of my mind I will be enslaved

From now on
From now on
From now on
Yeah

The back of my mind
The back of my mind will be enslaved
Yeah

From now on
From now on
I mean it, I mean it

I will behave, I will behave
But in the back of my mind I will be enslaved

THE END

Discography:

Prologue: None
Chapter 1: "Whatever" by Godsmack off their album Godsmack
Chapter 2: "Voodoo" by Godsmack off their album Godsmack
Chapter 3: "Lost in You" by Chris Gaines (Garth Brooks) off his album Chris Gaines' Greatest Hits
Chapter 4: None
Chapter 5: "When I Grow Up" and "The Trick is to Keep Breathing" by Garbage off their album Version 2.0
Chapter 6: None
Chapter 7: "Miserable" by Lit off their album A Place in the Sun
Chapter 8: None
Chapter 9: "That Day" by Natalie Imbruglia off her album White Lilies Island
Chapter 10: "Dangerous" by Busta Rhymes off his album When Disaster Strikes…
Chapter 11: "Just Like a Pill" by Pink off her album Missundaztood
Chapter 12: "Sinking" by No Doubt off their album No Doubt
Chapter 13: "Sometimes" by No Doubt off their album No Doubt