Last year, Hikaru died in a car accident. Tomorrow would be her death
anniversary. She was only sixteen, her life had hardly begun! All her
friends mourned her passing, many left the funeral with lingering looks.
She was an optimistic person, never failing to keep others around her happy
as well. It was her own unique gift.
Till this day I can remember vividly how she looked like during the
funeral, it was the most painful thing I had ever gone through. Her long
ruby tresses finally being let down, dressed in a simple white gown edged
with lace and wearing satin gloves on her small hands which held a white
tulip. She was beautiful.
A photo of her sits on my desk, everyday I never fail to look at it.
It was a photo of me, Hikaru and Fuu when we were playing with her dog-
Hikari who has mysteriously vanished after her death. Hikaru's ruby eyes
looked without any trace of worries as she smiled fondly at Hikari. That
was the way we all remembered her as, a free spirit who has a heart so pure
and compassionate. Her flaming hair was in a braid as usual with a small
golden ring at the end. I confess, it was my handiwork, I just wanted her
to look prettier. Not that she wasn't, she just prefer people to see her
true self, who she was , not someone hiding behind a mask of make-up. I
used to think that was silly, lately I found that it made perfect sense.
Fuu stood there silent and elegant with the wind blowing back wisps
of her short blond hair. She was the smartest out of the three of us, it
did not make much difference though, after she had learnt of Hikaru's death
she had became frail and fragile... like a delicate piece of glass. I
should know no matter how well she tried to hide it, all three of us were
best friends. She had this dark aura of sadness surrounding her, it felt
awkward to say anything to her thus everyone avoided being around her. She
was being cloaked in eternal mourning and only her boyfriend, Ferio stood
by her. I still don't like him much, but I know how worried he is. After
all we share the same sentiments when it came to Fuu.
Her family was being deeply affected as well, her three brothers
haven't really been the same ever since. The Shidou dojo they were so proud
of had lost its former reputation and glory. Satoru, Maseru, Kakeru looked
like the only reason they were living was because they weren't dead. Yet.
Their eyes devoid of any emotion, faces gaunt and they never laughed nor
smiled since. Nothing anyone did helped.
Still the ones who took it the worst were Lantis and Eagle. Lantis
finally blew his top at Primera who is still in denial that 'her' Lantis-
kun would ever treat her that way. I'm shocked to say the least, all these
years he hardly spoke a thing to anyone, it was considered an miracle if
you were honored enough to hear Lantis Sol's voice. Hikaru was an
exception. He had deep feelings for her, somehow I could just sense it. He
had quitted school, I heard a couple of rumors that he went into some kind
of career where he taught kendo to others. Eagle? Geo and Zazu tried their
best, I give them credit for that but he wasn't the same. It was plain
obvious. His smiles weren't the same kind of smile girls used to swoon over
and label perfect. But he was in a better state than Lantis, at least he
stayed in school. Not that it made much difference, he was flunking
I grieve for my friend always, although I knew she would want me to
move on, live my life to the fullest. But I couldn't do it. I wasn't strong
enough, so I pretended. I appear to be okay but every night I cry, alone,
never letting anyone know. I should share my problems, I just can't...
Neither Clef nor Ascot knows about this , neither do I intend to let them
know. I have to stay strong for the rest of them now that she's gone...
This burden, I carry alone. I have to be everyone's pillar of support and I
don't want them to have to add me to their already long list of worries.
This is a secret I'll carry to the grave. It's eating me inside, slowly one
day I fear I may not be able to continue like this anymore. I'm afraid, I
feel that the day is coming soon...
Hikaru... you will stay in my heart always.
Umi Ryuuzaki gently placed the pen next to her diary. Grabbing a
paper napkin she tried to dry her tears without much success. What would
she wear tomorrow? She sighed, this wasn't really what she was worried
about. What she really feared was... She shook her head to clear her mind.
Closing her diary, she placed it back in its drawer. Tomorrow would be a