I saw her
Again, don't own then characters!
It was going to be the last night I spent at Hogwarts.
I never thought myself capable of such cowardice, but my body was tired, my
mind was tired.
I needed release, from the world, as a spy, from my life.
Nothing mattered anymore, so that evening I spent as little amount of time
with the staff at dinner as possible, remaining my normal aloof self, and
yet Albus still knew that something was wrong, I could fell him watching me
with his fatherly expression, worried about my behaviour but I wouldn't
give him an answer and refused to say goodbye in case he understood what I
was going to do next.
Walking silently to the astronomy tower I looked at the stars for what I
believed to be the last time and stood on a small broken piece of wall,
looking down. Willing myself to jump.
Then I saw her.
The Gryffindor head girl, or in my mind woman.
Staring at the sparkling show above her, as though they held all the
answers to life, and I found I couldn't stop looking, I don't remember ever
being that innocent.
Looking down again I thought about the fall, could I bare to put a student
through the pain and guilt of seeing me do such an act? It would more than
likely screw the girl up for a long time and it had seemed such a pity to
waste such a mind. So standing down I watched her and the stars from the
shadows, my mind holding the promise that tomorrow I would find an end.
But not tonight.
Or the next it seemed.
Or the day after.
She came back every evening, and just stared at the sky, or the forest,
deep in thought, and soon I found her presence more alluring than the
promise of death and peace, because soon her very being brought me more
peace than anything else in life.
I don't remember who spoke first, I just remember finding myself surprised
at the conversations we held, and would go over them in my mind every night
before succumbing to sleep, silently hoping that she would be there the
And she was.
My Angel saved me every night and returned me from being the broken spy to
a happy man, who started to actually enjoy teaching and conversing with
actual human beings again, she truly was amazing.
Which is why when the realization of her impending graduation came into
play my panic and fear of losing her rose.
Was I in love?
I didn't even need to second-guess.
Yes, I loved her, I couldn't live without her, she had saved me from myself
and showed me what I was missing.
So taking my new feelings into hand I thought about what to do about them.
Propose? Seemed a good idea.
But it wasn't big enough, it didn't tell her how strongly I felt, anyone
could propose, I wanted to show her my true intentions.
To have her in my life forever, and mean it.
For the next two nights the sand man ignored my pleas for sleep and let me
dwell on what I was to do, when the perfect plan came to me.
"What are you plans after graduation?" I asked, sitting near her small
body, my hand so close to her own that it was shaking with the hope that I
would soon be able to hold it in my own, to claim it one day with a ring.
"I don't know" she said quietly, thank Merlin! I thought.
"I have a home, in Italy, its beautiful, my mothers family pass it down
through the generations in hopes to preserve it"
"It is, I haven't been there since she died, I promised her to only take
the women that I loved and intended to spend the rest of my life with, the
keep it a secret, so the Snape family would always be protected" And I had
kept that promise, no one knew about it, bar Albus but he was practically
Her beautiful brown eyes that I always found hard to take my own from
seemed to tear slightly, she doesn't think I mean her I realised, my mind
went blank, how could she not know? She was one of the smartest witches to
come out of Hogwarts in centuries! She must have some clue?
"I'm sure she would love it" Ok, so she didn't.
Time for action old man.
"Hermione, What are your plans this summer?" I asked again, looking at her
full on this time, refusing to take my eyes from her own like I had always
been doing, in fear that she would see right through me.
There was silence for a moment, before that gorgeous shining light that
beams every time she gets something difficult which no one else can master,
shine through her.
She gets it.
But I still down have an answer...
"Going to Italy, with the man I love"
My heart almost stopped, she means it, I can tell, and I cannot remember
the last time I ever felt so happy.
There seemed to be only one way to show her, so leaning down I capture her
lips in my own, pouring all the love and feeling I can into this women who
saved me that night.
It was because I saw her that I lived and found the most precious gift I
could, her love.
I know! I Said that 'He sees me' was a one shot, but it needed to be done!
Hope you liked it, I may make a third! You never know!