Now That You're Gone...

My heart feels like it has been ripped it two.

I'll never see you again.

I'll never hear you laugh.

You'll never look at me as if I was all that you could see.

Because you're gone.

You're lost to me now.

You died in my arms,

Saying my name.

Telling me how you felt.

Those where your last words.

Three simple words.

“I love you.”

That was what you said to me.

And I could not reply.

I could not say the only thing that mattered at that moment.

I could not three words,

The same three words that you said in your last breath.

Instead I froze and stared at you,

Memories flying through my head.

This was the day that we first me.

That was when you did this for me.

Each little thing that you did,

That I never thought was of importance,

Until I lost the thing that gave all of those things to me.

Now I have lost everything,

But none of the other loses amount to how much this hurts,

For now you're gone,

Never to come back.

Never to carefully apply your eye makeup in front of a mirror again.

Never to dance.

Never to do any of the things that most girls take for granted,

But that you never really got a chance to do.

You where so young.

Too young.

But you still loved me with all your heart,

Even though I pushed you away again and again,

Not even realizing that I felt the same way,

Until it was to late.

And now you will never know.

You will never know how much I cared,

For you are unable to hear me whisper the words;

The words that you said as the life ebbed from your body.

And now I look at your corps,

And my heart begs for me to let myself cry,

For I am crying in my heart.

Did you know that?

My heart is crying for you.

But the tears will not come to my eyes.

They will not spill over my eyelids,

And gush down my cheeks.

They will not show the world that I am in pain.

For I cannot show that I am in pain.

Because I am frozen,

Just looking at you,

Dead in my arms.

Your death will kill me.

I don't see how I will live on without you.

But if I die,

Then your sacrifice will be wasted.

Because you died for me.

You sacrificed your life for mine.

So in my life is ended,

You might as well not have died.

And because of that,

I will push on,

And find some way to deal with this pain in my heart.

For you.

For you I will defeat this foe.

All for you.