Is this what it feels like? Oh, god, the pain... It hurts so bad. I'd cry
out, but I can't even breath. Is this what it feels like? I'm sorry I ever
wondered. I'm more then half dead already, and he's still going. I'd push
him away, but I'm getting weaker every second. The worst part is that he
doesn't even realize that he's killing me. I never thought that this would
be how I'd die, never really thought about it at all, but if I had, I never
have even considered this, of all deaths. To die at the hands of my lover,
my soulmate, my reason for living. Ironic like Alanis, and I'd laugh, but
it's not that funny. It isn't even Angelus. That I could handle. And he
didn't even want to do it. I made him.
Goodbye, my love. Please don't blame yourself, and never forget me. And
please avenge my death and hurt her like you hurt me.