This is my first Fan Fic in English, please, please, please be nice whit me.

"Nothing Else Matters"

By Yersi Fanel

In the middle of the nigh, I look at the Moon and see the picture of the nothing, the dark night tell me about the past and the wind says my name in his journey.

In this lonely castle of metal, in this place, the base of the so called "my master", I see my life go and return whit nothing more than a painful expression and a tragedy in the face, like the end of the days, the end of my days.

They call me

Always as a shadow, a dark picture of the nothing, I’m come from the nothing and I always will be the expression of the dark, the evil inside and the painful look of the past.

But

I’m not what they want, I’m more than a dark figure, but they never care about that, they just gave me this life, this power, this curse, and never say to me what to really do whit it, they just walk away and live me in the darkness.

She asks me, log time ago, in the place that I called ‘my home’ too many times and now I see that it wasn’t, She look at me whit sadness in her blue ayes. We were in a dark room, see the third planet from the sun in front of us, in the long space. I look at her and say nothing, I was reflecting the question, deep in my soul I see the answer, I close my eyes and say:

That is want I wanted, whit all my heart, soul and spirit, I want to run away from everything and find my true self, not the life form that they created, not the monster of destruction, not the shadow of a life…

I returned to the reality, to the present, this prison of metal and destruction, the evil desire of the successor of my master, so sad is this, it huts me a lot, but I can’t say it, I just keep in silence, in the silence that a always live, because I chose that, It is difficult to understand? May be… May be not…

The wind move my fur, my dark and red unnatural fur, the night was cold and silence, the white snow in the ground tell me the reason, but I keep my feelings, and not move even a step to get out of this cold.

Then I heart it, the voice of that man, screaming my name and hit everything in his way, He was angry, because I didn’t what I suppose to: Hurt a little girl and take away a chaos emerald.

I remember what happen, I was in the forest, and see her, she was looking for flowers, the last flowers that the winter left, a storm comes and everything will be cover in snow in a few hours.

She was along, a little girl, a little rabbit girl, the faker calls she Cream, that girl was so… so cute, and happy, I felt envy, latter, hate… hate whit my self for see a little girl whit envy, pathetic, I feel so pathetic.

I scream and run away form that place, She move her ears and see in my direction, the emerald was in her back pack but the doctor gave me the instruction of kill the girl, I just can’t do it

She calls for me, but I just can’t return to that place, that peaceful place, that lake and the trees… the beautiful place whit Her tenderness and innocence in it.

That is why I not look back and say to that girl that I want to stay whit she in that place, I say nothing, just run, run again….

He slaps me in the face, but I not even moved a little, just turn my face to my left, whit the slaps force and close my eyes, He was angry and yell to me a lot of things, bad things of course. Some thing about be a bad experiment, a waste of time and other things that a don’t really care.

I don’t remember the moment went I became His toy, when I surrendered to the time and life, one day I become a puppet of the evil desires of the now called my absolute master. That stupid man of ridiculous ideology… I feel repulsion of my self

I wasn’t listening to him, May be that is the reason for my punishment. He feel more angry, whit stench and frustration, He took my arm and dragged me to a dark room and close the door behind him.

I can’t see nothing, not even my hand, I was alone in darkness and in darkness I fell…

Say a voice, I open my eyes, but the room still in darkness, I stand up and walk to the door whit the arms extended and the hands open and touch the door. I put my ear against the door and try to listen what was happen.

Sonic? I listened right?

The girl was in the castle?, In the castle in danger?, I can’t believe, what was Eggman doing this time?. I can listen a little voice calling for help, It was near of me.

The room stars to move, in that moment I realized it, It wasn’t a room, it was a part of one of Eggman’s machines. The think moves and I fell on my back. I was inside of that creepy think!

The voice was on my, the girl was in the superior part of the machine, I try to jump but I fell again, there was something, that thing not let me move, whit my hands I search for the reason and I found it, it was a chain the one that held my ankle, whit my hands I try to break it but I failed.

She’s voice tell me all, she was afraid and lost in the moment, because of me, because a wasn’t able to steel a gem and run away letting she confuse but safe.

I struck the chain whit all my force and break it, my hand was hurt and bleeding, but in the moment, it really don’t care. I jump and punch the ceiling of the little dark room, one time, then another, and another, I pay attention and recognized her voice, she was confuse, I’m sure.

Jus a couple of more hits and I will be break, and it happened, I jump and see her face of astonishment, I say nothing, just use my spin dash and break the glass of the machine, take her in my arms and jump away of that think.

When I let she in the floor, She look at me and smile, the run whit the faker end his friends, they look at me whit a strange point of view, I don’t really care what was they thinking.

My "master" screams and whit his walker machine, catch me whit a metal hand and it made me feel much pain, I can’t take it, so, I scream, the metal was hurting my body and the blood was falling to the ground, I close my ayes.

I feel so used, so abused and hurt… This is why I was taken to this world? in order to suffer? If that is the real reason… I hate my life.

The blue hedgehog say and jumps to me machine, but my "master" punch he whit the other metal arm

A slave? That is what I am? Just a toy for the world?, I stop the screams, close my eyes one more time and let the pain cover my body, I was so lost…

Eggman move his machine, whit me trapped in it, I open my eyes and see what happen, He we leaving the area, that coward, I just can’t believe it, this man was so… I don’t’ find a word for describes this action.

I struggle against the metal arm, harden, I just want to running away for everything form everybody, I don’t want more lies, this hurt me so much, I can’t take it any more.

-"Stop moving!"-

He says, but I don’t listen him and continue my action, my struggles, He push a button and the oppression of the metal arm increased.

-"Enough!"-

Say a voice and the metal arm release me, but it was broken, some one broke the machine and release me of it, I was so weak and hurt, some one touch me, I can’t heard anything any more, I was so near of pass out.

And then, every thing goes black, I’m alone in darkness… one more time.

I had a dream that night… I was in the forest, in the lake, the white snow in all the ground, trees and around the water, I see myself standing in the center of the lake and the cloud touch me the face, I open my eyes and then, I fell in the water, alone, but in the light.

I woke up and find myself in a bed, a warm and soft bed, I see the white blanket, I touch it, feeling the texture of it, for a moment, I forgot everything, I was in peace and silence…

Then, He comes to the room, Sonic, he walk to me and seat in a chair next to the bed and smile, I really don’t know what happen, I don’t understand why he help me… why he saved me, I don’t’ ask, I don’t want to know the answer, I don’t want to heard some thing like "just because you can be useful" besides, all the world thinks that I’m a toy…

He asks me, I say nothing, just nodded, and close my eyes

-"No.. you are not…"-

I look at him, puzzle, I say a word in my sleep or something?, What hi knows?, I open my mouth to ask but stop, I really don’t’ want to know it… or I want?…. The reality is, I don’t’ want to be hurt anymore… never again…

He looks me confuse, but nodded and walk away, close the door behind him, and one more time I feel the loneliness in my heard.

Some noise is out side of the room, I’m sure, a machine, Dr. Egmman’s Machine, what is going on?, I run out side to see, the pink girl was trapped in the inside the machine and the tentacles of the think were at Sonic.

I run and use my spin dash, releasing Amy of the crystal of the machine, She jumps and run away of that think, but seconds later, one of the tentacles grasp me and put me inside the machine, the crystal was replaced with metal curtains.

I punch the machine but nothing happen, I star to feel dizzy, some thing in the air was not right.

-"Poor little hedgehog… are you scare? If you are not… soon you will be…"-

Say a voice, Eggman’s stupid voice, I can’t breath…the air is so… dense… my eyes are blurred… why this is happening to me?… why?….

I open my eyes, I cant’ move, my arms and legs are bound to a table, whit metal shackles, by body was so hurt, I was used for a experiment again, all time is the same…

She asks me… long time ago… "You have this precious life, the beautiful world and all in there an be your, the peace and love… so, why are you so sad?" ant now I have the answer…

Is because in fact… I cannot have nothing of that

He yell to me, use me, hit me and punishes me, I don’t want to do any thing any more, I just want to die!, all of this is so hard, so unjust and I…. I can’t Take it…

I scream, He fells to the ground, I use all my power and release myself of my bounds and run, run away of that bastard.

When I was out of that prison of iron, I see it: The white snow, it was could, I run to the forest, the snow was falling from the sky and the day was so… white

In the middle of the forest was that lake, and that lake was congealed, whit little steps I walk in the ice to the center of the lake, I lay in the ice, and bent over in a ball, some red points were in the ice, my blood, but it wasn’t too much…

The white day, the peaceful wind, the holy life, the purest love… all of those things were in my mind, Her words… His words… the sound of the forest, the smile of that girl.

All of the thinks of this world, all the thinks she say long time ago, the time and my life, all of those thoughts are resting in my head right now, just because I want, no matter what, I can’t forget... may be... just may... I really don’t want to forget...

Then I close my eyes.

-"Is He Okay?"-

Say a little voice, I open my eyes and see the face of the girl of brown eyes, I blink and try to move, but a strong hand prevented it.

-"Really?"- I ask, He smile

In the middle of nothing, Empty goes by the world my spirit, waiting for the chance to by happy and find my true self, I have to wait, I know, just because in this world, in this life, in this time, nothing comes so easy and so fast, but I have this time and this life, by the way… is not to bad…

The pink hedgehog was worry?…and that little girl too?… why?…

Walking in the forest a can see the sky, the moment wend the afternoon gets red and the clowns redden pink, blue and yellow, the silence is the king of time and all of this precious world is in the palm of my hand.

Is funny, a moth ago I wanted to disappear of this planet, but now… now I’m fine, just because I not have to run away, just stay and be myself.

The crimson-stained sun has illuminated everything, if eternity knows what manner of darkness, So the eternity know my destiny…

This is what I have imagined within this twilight, long time ago, In the space, now I am in the moment, In that true moment, and I just want to know more.

The night comes down, and the star shine in the distant space, The temple of her rest, I’m sure, She is seeing me now, and smiling, I can feel her love and peace around me.

I look away, to my angel in the sky, and my eyes focus in a star, The beignets of the past and my former life.

Then, He comes to me, the hero of this planet, Sonic The hedgehog, He was playing whit Cream and Tails near of me, whit laughs and happiness, they look so happy, that is good that makes me feel so good… I close my eyes.

I say in a little voice, just for myself and then look they again. Cream see me and call my name.

-"Come on Shadow-san, Let’s play!"-

-"Yes Shadow, come"- say Tails

-"Shads come here!"- continue Sonic

I Look at them, the mountain around us and think in it for a moment. Then I stand up and walk, to return whit they, the now called my friends.

Cream jump and run whit me, She took my hand and took me with them, smiling, I just feel the peace of the moment. This was so… perfect….

They gave me a second chance, She gave me this filings, and He gave me this life. More than my own hands can accomplish? I don’t ting so.

I have this and I want to learn how to use it, please some one teach me who to life.

I look at the sky, The night was so close, the crimson sky was beautiful, I can see it all my life….

Time ago, I've become a rebel, I've overlooked things and just want revenge of all of the people who hurt me, but know the time do his part and I forgot that thoughts.

Sonic ran to me and, whit a neutral look, Talk to me.

If there were many tears falling down, Every heart would become gentle. If everybody expresses what they think, every heart can be satisfied.

Overcoming all problems and dilemmas, we live the present, now I know that, we can’t surrender so easy, Live is precious, the way that you born is not important.

I look at Sonic and smile, but say nothing and walk away, In this warm place to be, The stars separate us from the future, We can be so brilliant, so shine and that’s why I want to become stronger, our future roams around now.

I looked always to yesterday, to the castles in the sky, when will I be able to follow them?, may be soon, may be not, but until that moment, I have to live.

But know I can say, whit all my heard one thing.

Owari

Well, well, what do you thing?

I use some parts of the lyrics of Boa and Do as Infinite, Because a really like it.

Please review, I hope that this fic have liked, see ya!!

Yersi Fanel, November 20, 2003, 1:22 p.m.