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Buffy summer sat in her room, crying her eyes out, not only that she lost he man she left, he just left her for England, he said he'll never leave her ever, but yet he did, Rupert Giles, left her earlier that morning, to go back to England. She thought back to when they first got together.

*~*Flash Back*~*

"Happy birthday Buffy," Giles said, while handing over her birthday present, and watched her opened it, hoped out a kitten."I know that you have lots of stuff already to look after but I saw her and thought of you." He said to her, as the little kitten pawed her, it was the same color as her hair.

'Thank you Giles."

"It's female," he said.

"Well she so cute, I'll think I'll call her Joy," she bit her lip from threatening tears, that still came to this day about her mother.

"It's alright Buffy, just let it out I know who it is, but you can't keep it all inside always," he pulled her into an embrace, her tears started soaking his shirt.

Buffy I need to tell you, that I'm going back to England," he said finally after she quieted down a little.

"no you can't Live you can't not again, please I can't live with out I love you,' she said the suddenly stopped from what she was deep with in her heart all this time. All he did was kiss her, not chaste kiss on the forehead or on top of her head but, a real kiss, "I love you to."

That day made him stay, at least for longer, there were together for one straight year, Buffy never thought she could get pregnant, the were practicing "safe sex' as they told others, 'safe my ass,' when she saw the test, then fainted dead away. By that time it was four months since her Giles left.

*~*Flash back end*~*

"Gileighanna Lily Summers get up now,' she said to her almost four year old daughter.

"Mum I am up, I'm up way before you," said the little girl coming behind her, "remember Arthur on in the mornings, I can't miss it."

"Well baby come on mummy has to get to work, and you have to get to preschool."

"Fine why do I have to go anyway?'

"Cause Auntie, Dawnie and Anya, Will, have to work so does Uncle Spike and Xander, that's why baby," Buffy said well pulling on her jacket and got Lily's for her, they called her Lily instead of her first name.

She watched her daughter shrug on the jacket, and smiled, her daughter light brown hair was in two neat French plaits, her daughters blue eyes, that Buffy had no clue were she got, Made on her father side, but she pushed the thoughts of Giles away. Then chuckled at her daughter falling glasses, and watch her push them up like always.

Mean while back in England, Rupert Giles sat among the watchers Council, three years again they broke Buffy him apart, and know there requesting for him to go back after almost 4 years.

"Are you crazy I just can't just step in to her life again, she vex me, form three years ago she probably hates me now,' eh was practically shouting at them.

'She might hate you she may forgive you, but someone else will never hate you, as you put it."

"Who is someone else?'

"You well see, and you well go we order you to," said the head council member.

"How many days do I have to get ready," Giles gave up.

"One week."

"Fine," he got, it was not he was not happy to go see Buffy he still loved her with all his heart but, did she still love him.

"Lily time for your bath, then Uncle Spike and Auntie Dawn will be her,' called out Buffy.

"Ya!!! Uncle Spikey," she smiled her daughter who loved her Vampire Uncle, and even Spike liked the little kid, and often called her Little Brit, for her slight British accent that she got from Giles, and her glasses.

"Mummy, can Uncle Spike, come to preschool, for daddy day since I don't have one."

Buffy was shocked at it she always known spike was some sort of father figure for her daughter, "Sorry honey, but you know what happens, when Spike goes in the sun."

"Toasty Uncle Spike," she said giggling.

"Hey what about me," Spike, from the door way.

"nothing uncle Spikey, just asked Mummy if you come to daddy day, the teacher said I could bring uncle or something since I don't have one, I heard from friends, that's there parents said he left mummy not caring about me, and well you care about me."

"Listen Little Brit, you daddy loves you very much but he just can't be here with you,' he looked up at Buffy, she said a silent thank you to him..

"Now little one bath time, get up stairs, mum well be up in a minute," said her mum.

"Alright.

"Thanks Spike, for saying that, even through he knows nothing of her existence, she looks so much like him,' she wanted to cry.

"I know pet, you better go up, I'll wait down here, and Niblet should be here soon," he said and Buffy nodded, and went up the stairs.

After her baby was washed hair was plaited, she went to change from her soggy clue, she turned on the radio and heard.

Of all the things I've believed in

I just want to get it over with

Tears form behind my eyes

But I do not cry

Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old

It feels like I'm starting all over again

The last three years were just pretend

And I said,

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes

And it seems that I can't live a day without you

Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away

To a place where I am blinded by the light

But it's not right

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything

And nothing at the same time

I want what's yours and I want what's mine

I want you

But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything I thought I knew

You were the one I loved

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall

I will lie awake

You're my shooting star.

She fell onto her bed, trying not to cry, she heard Dawn come in her room.

"Shh, it alright, Buffy, just let it out you can't keep it in forever," said dawn hugging her sister.

"But I have to be strong for Lily, I'm her mother, I have to be!"

"But you have a right to be human, you have every reason to cry, and you have a beautiful daughter that showed your love for each other, I could see that he never wanted to leave you, but if you keep hiding Lily from him, he may never come back," said Dawn.

'You think I don't know that, you think that every time I see the phone I want to call and tell him but I can't, or every time the phone rings I think it's him," said Buffy, wiping away tears, then getting up, "I have to go patrol,' then walked out.

"Is mummy mad at me," said Lily in the hallway with Spike.

"No little brit she's just mad at herself she'll be fine don't you worry,"

"Is she mad at daddy for not being here," she asked curiously.

"How about I get you some ice cream and a movie, you can stay up a little later, since it's a Friday," he said changing the subject.

"Monkey mint freezer, I'll get peter pan.'she ran off to go get her favorite movie. He smiled at her.

It was late when Buffy returned, both Spike Lily and Dawn Asleep on the couch, she shook her sister and Spike awake, then picked up her daughter and brought her to her bedroom. Then went back down stairways and said good bye to her sister and Spike.

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Rupert Giles got of the plane at Sunnydale Airport, still wondering what the council said about someone else not hating him

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"Mummy, mummy."

"Lily wait, mummy can't run in heels," said Buffy.

"Sorry, but it going to close soon, and I'll miss out on Monkey Mint,' her daughter pouted.

'Monkey mint, won't close for another hour, or so,' she said.

"Oh,' is all her daughter said

Giles was walking down the street, he saw Lily, overly excited for ice cream, her neat plaits of light brown hair flying behind her, her glasses falling down her nose, she pushed them up, he felt some sort of reorganization her but had no clue how, then saw a Woman, trying to keep up to the little girl, long blond hair hid her face.

"Lily stops pulling my hand," said Buffy, "I swear she has some of my slayer strength," she thought to herself.

"Chocolate Chunky Monkey Mint, please,' said Lily, to the counter man, her head couldn't see over the counter, the man.

"Why hello little Miss Summers, where's you mother," passing her a cup full of ice cream.

"She had to get some stuff across the street, but she's coming," Lily said the ice cream all over her face, causing the man to laugh.

"Did you know that Lily was my middle name, not my first name?"

"Really, you mother always called you Lily," he said.

"My names really Gileighanna," she said eating more.

"That's a really pretty name," he said as Buffy came in and wiped her daughter's mouth off.

"come on Lily, we have to get back,' she handed money to the man, and got a cone for herself.

"alright bye Mr. Adams.'

"Bye Lily, Ms Summers.' They left the shop and for the first time Giles got to see the woman's face

"Oh my god Buffy!"

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Author note

Hope you like it; I know my spelling is not good, but I try to get it as good as I can. There is more to come so don't worry, oh and please Review, and the song is by

Michelle Branch - Goodbye to You

And you Say Gileighanna like Gi Lee Anna ScB