Chapter 11; Why?
'I wonder why I am doing this.' Genki thought as they stopped to let the
horses rest after having them run at a quick pace all morning. It was the
afternoon and they had stopped at a small lake to get a drink and rest. He
stared down at his hands which were wet with water that he had been using
to wash the blood from off his skin and clothes. 'I don't understand
why...why I have so much hate in my heart...'
"Genki..." Senki stared at his brother worriedly. "Your not acting like
yourself at all. Why did you do that? They are...were...your friends,
"Then why? Why the past tense?"
Genki sighed, closing his eyes. "I don't want to be hurt again."
"Last time I came hear, I was happy. They were my friends, I thought that
we would be together forever...but we weren't." Genki opened his eyes and
stared down at his hands which were shaking. "With my own two hands I was
forced to combine them, which is rather an equivalent to killing them.
No–wiping their very existence out, a fate worst then death. With these own
two hands...I destroyed the best friends I ever had."
"But their back! So why....?"
"I don't ever want to do it again!" Genki's voice turned angry as he
clenched his shaking hands into trembling fists. "Now that their
back...what if I have to kill them again?"
"So...is the reason your so angry at them an defence mechanism to distance
yourself so you don't hurt them?"
Genki laughed a little ruefully, and shook his head. "No. Senki, you should
know better then that."
"Once upon a time I loved the monster world. I would spend much of my
waking hours thinking about it, and about going there–but now...."
"Now I hate this world—and everyone in it."
Senki stared at his brother a little frightened. "Why would you?"
"Because this whole world betrayed me! Used me!" Genki could feel his anger
rising and fought to keep it under control. "I had fought so much, cared so
much, shed so many tears for this world and the creatures living on it. I
suffered–I killed. I did things and saw things that has left permeant deep
scars on my heart and my reward for it all—was to be tossed out as soon as
my usefulness was over. The only reason why I was ever brought here was for
me to kill my friends, use my energy to combine them into that damn
Phoenix. After that–I was no more use and sent away. I was not even allowed
to stay even a minute to see the rewards of all those tears, all that
suffering, all that slaughter! No....this world got rid of me as soon as
'my job' was done. It did not even give me a choice in coming here...if I
had known what I would have to do and what would happen then...I never
would of came. I don't want to kill anyone anymore...and I don't want to be
used by anyone anymore."
"You blame them....your friends...."
"Yes. I blame Suzo, Tiger, Golem, Hare and Mocchi for leaving me, for
making me kill them, and I blame Holly for bringing me into this world in
the first place. If she had never unlocked me then..."
"I blame this whole world. This whole world used me....I trusted this
world...but it betrayed me. My friends promised that we'd always be
together but it was a lie. I don't ever want to be betrayed like that
Senki knelt down next to his brother reassuringly, and hugged him. "Don't
worry. Even if this world betrays, uses and abandoned us, we'll always have
each other. I'll never leave or will I ever betray you."
Well, this was a big update eh? Nine chapters in one night! I'm on a role!!
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