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"Everything is flux."

Red downtown heaven
By:Red Joker

If you must really know who I am,I am a funny thing is when you
you are walking across a street or wandering through the streets full of people you will only see me as a normal boy.I too have my mask and adjust it when I come in contact with of us put on different masks but they don't fool
me.I am not saying I will be able to stare into your naked soul or 's just
that it has been a long while since I have stopped seeing with my
people come near,I let my senses wander and just feel their I was
sitting in the library hall,my back towards the world and losing myself to the to the universe created inside that little flickering box.I have and e-mail from my sister.
No I don't wanna go back.I don't wanna go back to those hollow stares,to the
emptiness, to nightmares...I get world is quiet,the silence surrounding me
is made of glass.I shatters.I pick up a broken piece and I cut my flesh and it bleeds and bleeds.I dig further till I get to that nightmare lingering somewhere in my uncouscious.I wanna cut through that too.

One great thing about this new life is that I don't have to cope with my family
were a really good family in case you are wandering if I left home
because I was was one thing wrong with them all
all came from some exotic universe and they were pretty amazing people when you thought about them as as natives of a distant planet.I left home because I was rotten inside and out.

My childhood was pretty funny thing is I wasn't so naïve and good
as other children even back then.I remember myself stealing crayons and hiding
shoes that I had filled with mud.I remember myself throwing a gold wedding ring
down a pipe,My sister's wedding ring to be precise and getting in trouble for it.I
am proud of myself for that.I never was like other kids.I was simply a selfcentered
idiot but a happy one.I lost myself in the world of poetry and book and made up
the oddest characters from the people I saw in the everyday life.

It all changed pretty quickly.I split apart when I was just all happened
because I had to grow up over one year.I don't blame anybody for that really.
I lost my friends,my sanity and my sense of belonging.I grew distant and one
day I just took off on my wings and ran away from it all.

Now I travel playing my fiddle in the corner of the street and gather money.I
don't belong anywhere and I am not committed to anybody not even God or
myself.I have slept in lots of weird me prostitution is a form of survival.
I am actually afraid of sex and you know something I die every time it happens or
else I would be screaming or crying from pain.I like my life this way,I get to be
reborn a thousand times in a life time.

When I am all by myself lying on the wet asphalt staring at the red downtown
heaven,I dream of the stars I will see can disturb my peace as I
open my chest and let the night sink in bringing the all the beauty and bitterness
of an unknown mystery inside of mystery of night.I am not a stranger to the hides in the castle of darkness and when I am down it sings to me or
takes me to chase the moon in the water puddles till I am nothing but a faint shadow,part of the background of this city,of this world 's why you can
never tell I am a prostitute even if you stare into my naked night I am baptized again in the forever cycle of death,birth,life and eternity.