Alc: Hello all! I just thought of this fic after I got done watching the new Energon episode "Megatron's Sword". CYCLONUS AND DEMOLISHER ROCKED THIS EPISODE TO BITS! ^-^ The flyer and the tank bot manage to pull it off again in their awesomeness! But poor poor Demolisher! He isn't even sure of what he's doing anymore...he said so himself...and so after watching that episode this little fic came into mind...also I just love reading Pivot's POV series...especially "Mistranslated", or course I think I'm probably the only one who liked that fic...heh heh! Anyways here's my own view on a POV from Demolisher...not really like "Mistranslated" but that fic did inspire me so PLEASE READ AND REVIEW!

words mean inner thoughts...just read to understand... ~'s represent a flashback

"Help me, I don't know what I am."

I didn't even hear what Kicker said...or if he even said anything at all. I was too caught up in my grief...what the SLAG was going on here? It's not possible that Megatron's alive! I mean the whole slagging ARMADA was there when Megatron freed his grip from Optimus and plunged to his death. There's no way that he could've lived through that...but when Megatron's sword landed in front of me...something just willed me to grab it without thinking. Then Kicker stopped me...and I realized what I was doing.

Good

Evil

Right

Wrong

Autobot

Decepticon

"IS THERE EVEN A DIFFERENCE!" I screamed in my head. My fists pounded into the ground.

"How could he? How could Cyclonus just leave like that?" I thought in my mind as the other Autobots came over to where I was. The fire from Scorponok's attacks was starting to surround me now...but I really didn't care. And then I figured it out...Cyclonus was being manipulated...just as I almost had been. Scorponok and Tidalwave were manipulating him. Tidalwave was being manipulated too of course...he just didn't know it.

"Well I'm too smart for them! I won't be so easily manipulated. And besides...even if Megatron did come back...at least Optimus respects his soldiers." I thought and then I remembered something.

Starscream...

That was all he wanted...respect...and in the end he sacrificed his life for the humans...because he cared for them. In the end...I think he won Megatron's respect.

Even so it's not like if he returns you aren't going to think about rejoining him are you?

Of course I would...he's downright crazy...even I have to admit that! I never wanted to be a part of the war in the first place...

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"YOU ARE GOING TO BE A SOLDIER IN THE DECEPTICON ARMY! DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME!" shouted Megatron as he punched Demolisher. Demolisher landed near the wall with a large crash and glared at Megatron as he wiped the energon that was seeping from the corner of his mouth.

"Like slag I'll follow you or your 'minions'!" Said Demolisher as he shakily stood on his feet and held the wall behind him for support.

"WHAT DID YOU SAY! YOU FOOLISH NEUTRAL! DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU HAVE A CHOICE! EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO JOIN ME I CAN ALWAYS MAKE YOU!" Megatron grabbed him by the shoulders and lifted him off of his feet and to his face.

"If you don't join me I will personally kill everyone you care about...and make you watch, helpless!" Megatron whispered, venom lacing his voice.

"THEY WON'T BE BIGGER THAN A PILE OF ASHES WHEN I'M THROUGH WITH THEM!" He threw Demolisher to the ground with such force that he collided with the wall and created a dent.

Demolisher rubbed his head in pain.

"I can't do this...but I have to...if I don't everyone will be gone...including Cyclonus..." he thought to himself as he again shakily stood up.

Megatron glared at him. "So have you decided?" Demolisher lowered his optics to the ground.

"I'll serve in the Decepticon army...under your leadership." Demolisher wanted to shoot himself for saying those words. He had just doomed himself to an eternity of torture.

Megatron smiled cruelly. "Very good...and that's LORD Megatron to you!" ************************************************************************
Just because I'm a former Decepticon and carry the sigils for that faction doesn't mean I'm evil...I'm probably more of an Autobot at heart.

It's sad the Autobots call themselves righteous and peacekeepers and they can't even tell the difference between a good heart and a bad one! HA and they call themselves mighty!

"SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP WILL YOU! The Autobots have flaws yes...but no one's perfect...least of all Transformers." Demolisher shouted in his head as he willed the voice to go away...the voice that always spoke of the dark things a Decepticon COULD and SHOULD do. The other Autobots surrounding Demolisher stared at him, as he seemed to be having some sort of internal battle with himself.

"Wha-What's wrong with him?" Asked Ironhide as Demolisher gripped his head in his hands. Demolisher held one hand to his forehead as the other fist slammed into the ground.

"I'm not really sure Ironhide." Said Optimus as worry filled his optics. Suddenly Demolisher screamed.

"LEAVE ME ALONE! I DON'T WANT TO REJOIN MEGATRON! I'D RATHER STAY WITH THE AUTOBOTS! AT LEAST THEN I'D BE CLOSER TO MY NEUTRAL ROOTS!" Demolisher gripped his head in pain as the voice tormented him again.

Once a Decepticon always a Decepticon...there's nothing you can do to change that!

The Autobots stepped back as Demolisher's inner voice spoke through him...he was arguing with himself.

"That's not true! What about Starscream?"

He was a fluke in Decepticon programming...as are you, you poor excuse for a Decepticon!

"I was never a Decepticon to begin with...I was a neutral...I was forced to become a Decepticon." Said Demolisher as his optics switched from being red when his inner voice was talking, to their regular purple.

Sure...but you know you loved the feel of battle...you loved every aspect of the bloodshed, the carnage, the destruction...admit it you did! Demolisher's inner voice laughed.

"I hated battling...you don't understand...if I hadn't of battled...Megatron would've killed everyone..." Demolisher had a faraway look in his optics.

You poor poor fool...you don't get it do you? Eventually you'll be controlled by the revived Megatron anyway...you know he'll come into power if he really is alive!

"I'm not going to let that happen..." said Demolisher as he smirked.

WHAT!

"I'll prevent that from happening with all of my spark...even if I truly don't know what I am...an Autobot or Decepticon...I do know this...no one deserves to go through what I did...I don't want another war on our hands..." Demolisher's optics flashed from purple, to red, to black as he collapsed on the ground.

*Later*

Demolisher's optics brightened as he sat up on the med bay table.

"Where-Where am I?" He asked as he saw Optimus out of the corner of his eye. He turned his head as the Autobot walked over to him and placed a hand on his shoulder.

"How are you feeling?" He asked as Demolisher moved so his legs were dangling off the side of the table he was laying on.

"I'm fine...for now anyway...did you...did you really witness me talking to myself?" He asked as he remembered seeing the Autobots around him.

"Yes we did...but don't worry...we heard enough to understand you...we don't think you're crazy. But I never knew that you were a neutral...it's just, kind of surprising." Said Optimus as he watched Demolisher.

"Well that's good...and I really meant what I said...I don't want Megatron to return." Said Demolisher as he realized that the voice in his head that pestered him all the time was gone.

"You're a good soldier Demolisher...and a good friend...I just hope you never forget that." Said Optimus as he walked out of the room, the med bay doors closing softly behind him.

Demolisher looked at the doors for a little while and then looked up at the ceiling.

"Help me, I don't know what I am." He whispered to the sky. Outside it was nighttime and as Demolisher said this a few stars twinkled.

Alc: Well there's my Demolisher POV! ^-^

Demolisher: I feel loved! *hugs Areia*

Alc: *sees Carl, Don, Sideswipe, and Backtrack with various sorts of harmful weapons in their hands glaring at Demolisher* Uh...guys please don't...Don wouldn't you be hurting yourself if you hit Demolisher with that mallet? Guys? GUYS! *Runs out of the way as the guys all tackle Demolisher and fight in a big cloud of dust*

Starscream: O.o Well that's...different!

Alc: Yes...Yes it is! *grabs a bag of chips* Chips?

Starscream: *nods his head and watches the fight* Chips!

Alc: I hope you all read and review! It'll make the guys stop fighting...