Farther Away:

Summary: Hermione has done everything in her power to get Harry, but once she has him she starts seeing someone else in a new light......

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I took their smiles and I made them mine.

I sold my soul just to hide the light.

And now I see what I really am,

A thief a whore, and a liar.

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There he stood. I watched Harry laugh with his newest girlfriend, Paravati. They were laughing at something. Laughing at me. I knew that's what it had to be. I knew they all hated me; they probably knew what I did. I knew I couldn't let Harry stay with her any longer. I had to end this relationship also. I needed to know how though. I had already used so many ways. Dammit Harry why do you have to be so beautiful? I felt tears fall down my face. I wiped tem up. No I can't show any weakness I must be strong or Harry won't want me.

"Hermione," Ron came up behind me. "What's the matter?" What's the matter Ron? My true love is with that stupid bitch Paravati. But I couldn't say that or it might raise suspicion.

"Nothing is wrong, why do you ask Ron?" I turned to face him, his face held worry and concern.

"Because you're right palm is bleeding." He said softly looking into my eyes. I had to turn away and looked at my right hand. I had dug my nails into my palm and it was now bleeding.

"Oh well I was thinking about school and I guessed I never realized." This was a lie. I don't think he believed it. He didn't push the topic though.

"Well I have to go see you later." He walked of muttering something shaking his head.

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I run to you,

Call out your name,

I see you there, farther away

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I wanted to go talk to Harry but he was busy talking to Paravati, I had to think of a plan. I decided to go to my room where I could be in peace. I dashed up the stairs taking them two at a time. I couldn't afford to take my time, I had to break them up and fast. I went into my room; I had my own seeing I was head girl. I turned to my wall closest to the door. I had a wall of all the girls in our year, Cho and Ginny. I had a great portion of them crossed off. Cho was the easiest to get rid of. I just told her that she should talk to Harry about Cedric considering he was there. Others I had lied to ensuring that they wouldn't tell Harry. They had all worked out so far. I had to dispose of Paravati, but how? I could always tell her Ron liked her, everyone knew she liked him. Well I was fresh out of ideas so I decided to use it, besides then Ron could leave me alone.

I took my time when leaving downstairs because I knew I might encounter Paravati on her way to get ready for a date with Harry. MY Harry. As I thought I saw her going upstairs, alone.

"Paravati, can I tell you something?" I asked trying to sound as innocent as possible.

"Yeah, of course Hermione anything." Paravati walked up to me trying to keep up with my quick long strides. "Can you make it quick? I have a date with Harry."

"Oh yes of course that..." I drifted off.

"Hermione what's the matter?" She's trying to sound concerned but I know she just wants to get rid of me.

"You know Ron Weasley?" I asked as if she didn't know who he could be.

"Uh yeah, of course." I saw her start to blush, it was sickening. "What about him?"

"Well, how do I put this? He told me he really has a BIG crush on you." I empathized on the word big.

I saw her face light up and a smile crossed across her face. This was actually going to work.

"Well he asked me to tell you he wants to go out with you and I'm supposed to send an answer so if you could give me one." I think she was trapped thinking about herself. She is so selfish.

"Oh uh tell him I'll meet him in The Three Broomsticks. I have to talk to Harry." She ran down the stairs like she was on fire.

'Now where would Ron be...?' I thought to myself. But to my luck Ron came running down the stairs at the precise moment.

"Ron!" I yelled. I acted quickly and jammed my foot into the trick stair. I don't know why but I panicked. It's not like someone goes up to their best friend 'Hi can you go out with Paravati and break her and Harry up? Pretty please?' You just don't do that. Oh crap he turned around and here I am staring into space. "Uh can you help me?" It was pathetic but it worked. He ran to me eager to help.

"How did you get stuck in here?" He asked trying to pull me out.

"I was thinking about what Paravati said." I wanted to leave him wanting more.

"What did she say?" He stood up and looked into my eyes like he was pleading for me to tell him want he wanted to hear.

"Well she just said that she wanted to go out with you sometime, so want to go get lunch?" I tried to sound as casual as possible.

"Whoa back up there Hermione. What did Paravati say?" He looked so excited just like Paravati was. This was going to work perfectly.

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I'm numb to you - numb and deaf and blind.

You give me all but the reason why.

I reach but I feel only air at night.

Not you, not love, just nothing.

I run to you,

Call out your name,

I see you there, farther away.

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"Paravati said she would meet you at The Three Broomsticks if you accept." He was about to run of to her but he stopped and looked at me.

"Hermione I thought Harry and Paravati were dating?" I had anticipated this and had already thought of a reply.

"They broke up because Harry's interests changed."

"But wouldn't Harry tell me first?" God doesn't this boy ever shut up?

"He thought he would surprise you." He ran off before I could even say 'you'.

Now that Paravati was gone I could cross off her picture. There were only three girls left in our year. I had already gotten rid of Ginny. I remember it like it was yesterday.

****** One Year Earlier ******

"Yeah Lavender, Harry told me he was going to break up with Ginny." I spoke my words loud enough for Ginny who was near-by to hear without raising suspicion that I was purposely doing it. I saw Ginny come closer to me.

"Hermione what do you mean Harry wants to break up with me?" She looked like she was going to cry. Stupid weak little girl.

"I'm sorry Ginny; I tried to talk him out of it." My voice sounded rather convincing. "He wouldn't hear reason though, something about you being too young." I put my arm around he shoulder. "It'll be okay you're very pretty." I knew I had her then.

"You think?" She looked up at me her checks tear-stained. "I'll miss him."

"Why don't you get back at him and break up with him first? You know to teach him a lesson." She looked at me I saw a glint in her eyes.

"Y-your right Hermione I should." She said through her sobs. "After dinner I'll take him on a walk and we'll see who breaks up with who."

"Actually it's who will break up with whom Ginny." She started giggling and I joined in just to seem sincere.

***** End Flashback*****

Ginny had broken up with Harry that night, he was crushed. But I was there to console him. I had almost had him but Lavender stole him away just 2 months later. I couldn't even remember how I had broken those two up. It didn't matter that was in the past, all I knew was I am so close to having Harry as my own. Tonight I'll tell him how I feel, he won't be able to resist.

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Try to forget you,

But without you I feel nothing.

Don't leave me here, by myself.

I can't breathe.

I run to you,

Call out your name,

I see you there, farther away.

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"Harry are you okay?" Harry had his head hanging down; he looked sort of depressed I knew it was my fault but I didn't care as long as he became mine.

"I just can't believe Paravati broke up with me, you know? I thought we were happy." He looked into my eyes. Dear god I wanted him. He was so gorgeous with his pools of green emeralds for eyes. His silky mat of black hair.

"I know Harry I can't believe she would do that to you. I thought she loved you. I guess I was wrong." I turned away to make him think I was crying. That was the money-maker he grabbed my shoulder.

"Hermione? What's the matter, why are you crying?" He turned me around to face him.

"Oh Harry I just feel so stupid! I was wrong about you and Paravati and I feel so stressed out about school. I feel so idiotic." I let more tears stream down my face but wiped them up. Why do I cry I wasn't planning to why do these tears come? I'm not sad I broke them up. Is Harry what I really want? Of course he is! I'm being silly. "Oh Harry I love you!" I embraced him in a kiss; he was reluctant at first but then accepted me.

"I love you so much Hermione." I knew I was just a rebound from Paravati but that didn't matter to me, I just wanted him so much. At last he was mine. Those eyes were mine, that hair, his lustrous blonde hair. Blonde hair?! I meant black I swear! I love his steel grey eyes. Dammit! I did it again! I meant green! I was just thinking about how much I hate Draco Malfoy yes that's it. I love Harry not Malfoy, Harry. In fact I hate Malfoy. I finally have what I want.

But why do I feel so incomplete?

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I run to you,

Call out your name,

I see you there, farther away,

Farther away,

farther away,

farther away,

farther away,

farther away.

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AN: And that's the first chapter! Well I know Hermione is very occ but I need her to be like that for this to work. Okay? Okay.

I'll have the next chapter up when I get FIVE reviews.