Part 6.

Jubilee opened her eye´s and sat up, she looked around and blinked, Where the hell am I she thought and stood up. She was in a place she had never seen before although it felt familiar, on her left there was a beach with white sand and the bluest ocean she had ever seen, and on her right there was a beautiful flower garden filled with all her favorites' flowers.

She closed her eye´s and took a deep breath smelling the sweetness of the flowers and the freshness of the ocean, she opened her eye´s again and looked down at what she was wearing, it was a long white dress that felt like silk to her body but it wasn't and she couldn't hardly feel that she had it on.

"Where am I?" She asked out load but with a smile on her face, everything here was so peaceful so beautiful. Suddenly she heard a laugh a child's laugh; she turned around saw a little girl with long black hair and blue eye's. She was dressed in a pink summer dress and her hair was pulled back slightly with a pink silk band that matched her dress.

"Who are you?" Jubilee asked.

You know who I am and you know this place you created it The little girl answered. You have just forgotten about us Jubilee smiled at the girl, why was it so hard to remember?

"What´s your name?" Jubilee asked her.

I´m Jubilation The girl answered smiling back at her.

"Buts that's my name"

No I´m the one you used to be, your Jubilee you wanted to be called that but no one called you that until you started living on the streets, that's the new you and I´m the old you The girl answered. Come The little Jubilation offered her hand to the elder Jubilee took it. They went inside the garden until they reached a small waterfall with silver sparkling water almost dancing down from it.

You used to come here all the time when you were younger, you hated it whenever someone was yelling at you which was a lot Little Jubilation said and sat down.

They would always yell at you and you just…

"I just wanted to be me" Jubilee said and sat down.

Yes and so you made a place…

"Where I could be me, where I could forget all my problems, where I could hide" Jubilee looked down at the younger version of herself. "But why am I here now?"

To say goodbye

"To who?"

To me, to the past Jubilee looked around and then back at her younger self. She wanted to leave the past behind, all of it…..Bastion! Jubilee fell back slightly as she heard the name. Bastion!

"Why are you calling for him?" Jubilee asked

You need to face him

"No!" Jubilee stood up, the silver water in the waterfall started to turn into hot lava and the grass under her became dead and gray. She started to run she could fill him coming closer and closer and… she felt someone grab her, she didn't wanna turn around but she did. Feeling the old fears coming back to her.

"You cant get away from me mutant" He spoke. "I will destroy you" Jubilee felt a tear going down her face as the evil laughter field the once so beautiful place.

In the mansion.

"I have it" Hank said as he removed the small chip placing it in a small box.

"Good now lets stitch her up" Jean said and gave Hank what he needed. "I just want it all to be over"

"As do I my friend, as do I" Hank answered.

Outside the operation-room the rest of the X-men stood looking in at the whole thing thru a glass window. Feeling a bit relief as they saw Hank taking out the chip and stitching her up.

"I´m gonna go an get some coffee, somebody else want?" Bobby sighed with relief.

"Yeah sure" Was the response he got from most of the other members, Bobby was just about to leave when the monitor that Jubilee was hocked up to stopped making the sound of small beeps and replaced it with a very long one.

"Hank?" Jean asked.

"Her heart has stopped!"

"O my good!" The other members of the X-men watched helplessly as Jean and Hank were trying to bring their firecracker back to life.

In Jubilee´s mind

"You are mine and I am going to hunt you for the rest of your miserable life!" Jubilee was chained to a wall, the chains were burning her skin and Bastion kept hitting her over and over again just like he had done before.

Jubilee could feel the taste of her blood and feel it running down her nose.

It was like he had put all the pain she had felt her whole life in to just one of his hands and every time he slapped her she was forced to relive it all over again.

The pain of never being good enough, the pain of finding her parents murdered the pain of being all alone on the streets, the pain of seeing her friends die and all the pain he had cost her…all at once it was too much.

Make him stop! A small voice yelled at her, she looked up and saw Jubilation standing just a few steps behind Bastion. You can make him stop! You half to make him stop!"

"Why?"

Because you have people who love you for whom you are! They love the person who you wanted to be and become

Outside at the operation-room

"Jubilee!" Logan yelled as Warren and Scott tried to hold him back.

"Logan you can't go in there!" Scott screamed at him. "Let Hank and Jean do their job!"

"The hell I can't! She is dying! My girl is dying"

"I know!" Scott said with a thick throat and realist him. "Let him go" Warren did what he was told and realist him as well. Logan rushed into the room at the same time as Beast was about to declare Jubilee dead.

"No!" Logan went over to her. "Don't you dear die on me! Ye hear don't ya dare!" A silent beep could still be heard in the room.

"Logan…" Jean said and put a hand on his shoulder.

"No she is not gone, she can't go!"

In Jubilee´s mind.

They love you let go of the past! You can't change what has been but you can let it go!

"Jubilee! Another voice was heard. "Come back to me"

"Wolvie?"

Listen to me! You are still gonna have nightmares and you are always going to remember but you can't let him take over your life, don't let him take you…then he will win Jubilee looked at her younger self and then at Bastion who stood before her.

"Jubilee come back to me I need you…I…I can't live without you" She heard Logan´s voice plead, but as Bastion came closer to her Logan´s voice faded away, she couldn't hear it she wanted to hear him, she didn't want to leave him…

"I hate you!" She said out loud and looked Bastion strait in the eye. "I hate you! I wanna go back! Let me go!" She slowly stood up so that she could face him, she could hear Logan´s plead again. If there was something she never could bare herself to do was to hurt Logan.

"This is my mind and I don't want you in it!" The chains that had been holding her and burning her skin started to disappeared, then she could feel a small hand grabbing hers she looked down and saw her younger self smiling at her.

I knew you could save us, now make him go away Jubilee smiled back then she looked up back at Bastion still smiling, she raised her free hand and unleashed a white sparkling light that surrounded them and started spreading all over the garden and the ocean.

"What am I doing?" She asked Jubilation.

Your healing Was her answer, Jubilee looked around continuing to spread the light around her until she had restored everything to what it once was. She looked up one last time at Bastion still with her smile.

"Ya know she is right" She said and nodded towards the little girl by her side. "You are always going to be here and in my nightmares you´re a part of me…but that doesn't mean you half to be a big part" She said and reached forward to touch him.

The white light went around him and thru him until all that was left was a black rose.

"And that is always gonna be there right?" Jubilee asked.

Yes but he wont grow, we wont let him Jubilee kneeled down and hugged her past self.

"No we won't, so now what?"

You know you can always come here if you really want to but know you are going back The little girl stepped away from her and looked up towards the sky and Jubilee did the same.

Goodbye and remember me

"I will good bye"

Back in the operation-room

The beep still echoed thru the empty hallways of the med-lab but now it was joined with the sound of tears falling and the sound of people hitting the cold walls in anger.

She was gone their firecracker was gone, she would never wake up again, she would never complain over her homework, she would never bug Scott for a longer curfew, she would never hug them and kiss them again, she wouldn't heal them no more.

Logan refused to leave her side he held her close rocking her back and forward stroking her hair. Jean stood in the arms of Scott both of them crying, the rest of the X-men slowly entered to the small room.

Small parts of them still wanting her to be alive, no one knew what had happened the operation had been simple and it had gone so well then her heart had just stopped…

Logan hugged her closer, why didn't he listen to her when she said she didn't want to have the operation,Sometimes you half to trust that we know what is best for you he had said and she had, she had trusted them and now she was dead, his beloved girl was gone…

Hank went over and turned of the monitor making the beep stop now you could only hear the tears and pain of the people in the room.

Don't cry I´m still here A small voice said in their heads, they all looked up even Logan. I´m right here Then suddenly the lifeless body in Logan´s arms took a deep breath and her eye´s flew open giving him a smile. Then her head turned towards the rest of the X-men still with her smile.

I´m not leaving yet She said in their heads. Your stuck with me…so just deal Logan looked down at her and smiled right back at her before he pulled her into a tight hug.

"I won't leave you" She whispered in his ear. "I love you"

"I love you to darlin" He said back. "More then you'll ever know" Her smile grew even bigger if that was possible, then she felt a hand on her shoulder she turned around and saw Jean and Scott, Logan realist her enough so that Jean could hug her.

They all love you just the way you are She heard her younger self say. And yes that includes Scott even though your bad at fallowing his orders…and you love them all of them Jubilee felt a tear running down her face and as Jean let her go she turned to Scott and hugged him. She loved them all every single one of them.

Five Days Later.

The sun was shining bright and the sky was blue, Jubilee was sitting in the grass letting the sun shin down on her and the cold breeze go thru her hair. She was wearing a blue tight summer dress…yes she was wearing a dress! She looked out over the green hills of the Xavier estate, sighing happily she loved this place, she loved her home.

"Jubilee?" She looked up and saw Bobby and Kurt.

"Hey" She said.

"The foods ready" Bobby said. "Scott and Hank has only burned half the burgers this time" He smiled down at her and offered her his hand which she took.

"But don't worry mein freuend Logan saved the stakes" Kurt said and smiled. "Now come on" He said and put his arms around her and Bobby and a few seconds later they were at the outside dining table. Jubilee took her place between Logan and Warren.

"Ya feelin okay darlin?" Logan asked looking down at her with concern in his eye´s.

"Yeah I´m fine" Jubilee answered and smiled at him.

"Ya know ye did die five days ago…are you really…"

"Wolvie I´m fine and yes I was dead…but only technically"

"Yeah only technically, but don't ye ever think about doin that to me again, you scared the hell out of me"

"Really I scared the hell out of you?" Jubilee asked.

"Hey watch your mouth!"

"Sorry" Jubilee said and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Ya know its really hard to picture the mighty Wolverine scared"

"Well I was deal" He said and smiled at her before digging in to his stake.

Jubilee looked around the table at the people their, she meet Professor Xavier´s eye´s and smiled at him he returned the smile. Then there was a loud noise coming from the grill they all turned around to see a black faced Scott with a hamburger on his head and grease covered Best and it didn't take long before the laughter broke out. Jubilee laugh to and that was something she hadn't done in a wail, for the first time in a long time everything felt just right.

"Hey" She suddenly said to Logan. "There is one thing you could let me do to make me feel better"

"Oh yeah and what´s that?" Logan asked.

"You could let me ride your motorcycle?"

"Oh no way in hell kid" He answered. "I like my bike, I don't want it broken"

"Oh come on Wolvie please, pleeeeaaaasssseeeee" She begged. "I promise that I will not die for a whole year" She said, Logan smiled and looked down at her giving her a kiss on her forehead.

"Fine we will take a ride down to Harry´s later tonight" He agreed. "But don't tell One Eye"

"I won't thank you Wolvie" She said and returned to her meal.

She slowly looked up and around the table smiling at the people whom were sitting there.

Okay so they weren't perfect but who was? She didn't care anyway, she loved them and they loved her and that was all she needed to know.

She was home, she was safe and she was happy being here with the X-men.

Her family.

Young girl, don't cry

I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

Young girl, it's all right

Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream

Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems

No one ever wants or bothers to explain

Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else

Look inside yourself

Like your oldest friend

Just trust the voice within

Then you'll find the strength

That will guide your way

You'll learn to begin

To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide

You'll never change if you just run away

Young girl, just hold tight

Soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed

It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid

No one reaches out a hand for you to hold

When you look outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else

Look inside yourself

Like your oldest friend

Just trust the voice within

Then you'll find the strength

That will guide your way

If you will learn to begin

To trust the voice within

Yeah...

Life is a journey

It can take you anywhere you choose to go

As long as you're learning

You'll find all you'll ever need to know

(Be strong)

You'll break it

(Hold on)

You'll make it

Just don't go forsaken me God

(No one can tell you what you can do)

No one can stop you

You know that I'm talking to you

Chorus:

When there's no one else

Look inside yourself

Like your oldest friend

Just trust the voice within

Then you'll find the strength

That will guide your way

If you will learn to begin

To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry

I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

Yeah well I guess that was that…not the best but hey I never claimed to be the best either so like just deal) And hey check out some of my other story's to) Love ya all. I´m also thinking about making a sequel but I´m not sure yet.