A/N: This is for Peggy (PMD) for being a such good friend. It's told from
I finally allow myself to smile as my father walks out the door, then pour
myself a glass of Brandy before moving to the window to look out it as I
think about the conversation we just had. My father said that friends are a
weakness. A weakness I cannot afford. He's wrong. They are a strength I
cannot do without.
My friendship with Clark is obvious, as are the benefits we both get from
that friendship. My friendship with Lana is very different. It's simpler.
We're friends who are also business partners. There's no need for the
deceptions that are so much a part of my friendship with Clark. His
deceptions, and mine, make it a complicated friendship, but one I value.
My friendship with Chloe is somewhere in between. There's an . . .
attraction between us that keeps the friendship from being simple. But the
lack of deception makes it different from my friendship with Clark. I think
that's what I value most about my friendship with Chloe. There is no need
for me to deceive her. Unlike Clark, she is able to accept me as I am. She
can handle my dark side, as well as see the good in me. I don't need to
hide the darkness in me from her.
Whether we will simply stay friends or one day act on our mutual attraction
is something I do not know. She's still in high school, still too young, so
it's better to leave things at friendship for now. But one day she will not
be too young. Part of me hopes that we will end up together. Another part
of me fears it. Mostly because I am afraid of hurting her. I also fear that
a romantic relationship will end our friendship. I don't have so many
friends that I am willing to lose one.
That's another thing I like about Chloe. She really is a friend. Most of
those who claim to be my friend just want something from me. Lana is one of
those, but still somehow a friend. At first Lana wanted the Talon, and
since then she's wanted my help with other things, like Adam. Clark has
never wanted anything from me but my friendship, and occasional help. Chloe
is the same. The only thing she wants from me is my protection. As a friend
she d entitled to that.
I also love her spirit. In business I'm surrounded by 'Yes Men'. That is
something Chloe has never been. She loves to argue with me. Our games of
Vebal Judo are becoming a Smallville legend. It's also why I value my
friendship with Clark. He's also willing to stand p to me and tell me when
he thinks I'm wrong.
No, father, my friends are not a weakness. They are a strength. And that is
why you fear them. Because they give me the strength to fight you.