"That is what it is to me

"That is what it is to me." He said huskily kissing her again except this time she pushed him away.

"No Remus no, you are with Jennifer and I'm with…ok I'm going on my first date with Kei, you can't do this. This was your choice last night not mine." Going around him she picked up her bag and slammed the door.

Her hands trembled as she thought of what they had just shared 'no Takara its wrong!' her head told her but her heart didn't listen.

Avoiding Remus was like being a private detective, knowing the person's every move but making sure you didn't get caught. That is how Takara felt, she hated the fact that he could do this to her. One minute it was just friends then it was secret kisses anytime he could get her alone. She couldn't face seeing him and when she did she found some excuse to get out of the room just so she didn't have to talk about the kiss.

11o'clock on a Saturday morning Takara stood at the front gates waiting for Kei to meet her for their date. Feeling nervous but excited at the same time she pulled at the sleeve of her sweater hoping she wouldn't be stood up. Instead of taking the girls advice about dressing up Takara went with a casual pair of ripped jean and v-neck sweater and a pair of trainers with her hair in its usual bun. If he couldn't take her for who she was then they weren't going to go too far.

Checking her watch for the 7th time in the last minute she felt a pair of hand cover her face. "Kei, this isn't much of a shock since I know you're meant to be coming." She said with a little giggle.

"Isn't it lucky that it's not Kei then?"

Takara removed the hands from her eyes and saw Remus' face looking back at her. Pushing him away from her she shook her head "What the hell do you think you're playing at? Is this some sort of sick game to you?" she asked unable to hide the disgust in her voice.

"No, it's not like that at all. Look you've been avoiding me like a plague-"

"Yeah and it's called 'I can't keep my grubby little hands to myself disease'" Takara retorted hotly as he pulled her by her hand so she would face him.

"What do you expect? You avoid me every chance you get, when I do come to talk to you, you rush off somewhere and I can't find you. Look I'm just here to say I'm sorry. It wasn't right for me to do what I did. But I'm feeling something for you I've never felt and I doubt I will ever feel again." Remus looking defeated let go of her hand and placed his hands in his pocket. "Will you just meet me tonight, kitchens at 5? I'll wait for you but if you don't come then I know nothing can come of us." He kissed her softly on the forehead inhaling her scent "Have a nice date." With that he headed back to the castle without a backwards glance.

Confuse Takara bit her lip, her body seemed to tingle from that single kiss. Just then Kei tapped her on the shoulder with a bright smile on his face and a bunch of flowers in his hand. Trying to get her mind off Remus Takara smiled and took the flowers "Wild flowers my favorite." She kissed him on the cheek and smelled the different fragrances that mingled together.

"A little birdie told me they were. You look beautiful as usual."

Not used to getting complements Takara blushing red tried to think of something to say "Well thank you, where do you want to go first?"

The date needles to say went swimmingly; they went shopping for sweets at Honeydukes and Zonko's, soon after they went to get lunch. Takara was shocked about how much of a deep thinker Kei actually was, he understood the pressures of having a big family being the youngest of 5 brothers he knew the expectation and competition of being different than and better than his siblings. He also loved the same music she did and they had a big debate about Quidditch. All the things right with Kei made her fancy him a lot, not only for his looks but for his personality, the only big problem with him is that he wasn't Remus. She kept envisioning his smile, the way he always played with her hair when they were just relaxing on the sofas in the common room, the fiery kiss they shared in the empty classroom. She kept trying to push the thoughts out of her head and enjoy her date but it was hard, she kept contemplating whether she should meet with Remus or should she give Kei the fighting chance that he deserved.

It was minutes till 5 and they both decided it was time to head back to the castle. Stopping in front of the entrance hall, Takara smiled awkwardly as Kei gave her the bag of goodies he had insisted on carrying. He had sweetly bought her a box of chocolate and a crystallised strawberry rose. The intensity of his gaze made chills go down her spine; she could hold the stare so she looked down on the floor.

"Thank you for such a wonderful time, I haven't had so much fun in a long time."

"Neither have I," replied Kei blushing slightly "I was wondering if maybe we could do it again sometime, maybe in a week's time?"

Takara was torn, she didn't want to give him false hope but she didn't want to throw what she had with him away on something that might never happen with Remus. "Um, Kei you are a really nice person but maybe could we just be friends, see how that goes first?"

Kei's face dropped slightly but he nodded in understanding, bending down he kissed her on the lips softly brushing his nose against hers. "I can wait."

Sighing with her hand over her chest and smiled, Kei had been the perfect gentleman; he didn't try anything perverted like the arm over the shoulder then try to cop a feel of her breasts. He just seemed real and it was refreshing to talk to talk to someone who knew what he wanted to do in life.

It was a chime that snapped her out of her reflection of her date. Looking at the clock she saw that it was 5, swearing loudly she ran towards the kitchens dodging other student almost colliding with professor Slughorn who spluttered and shook his fist in her direction. Skidding to a halt she stood outside the portrait of the fruit she outstretched her hand but hesitated biting her lip. On one side there was nice and kind Kei but on the other side there was Remus her best friend, they had been through so much together and he was the world to her.

Someone help me

AN: Ok it has been a long, long, long time since I have written anything and now i have this chapter up YAY! I hope to be writing on the other two fanfiction's soon.

Hope you like this chapter its been awhile as I said and I'm trying to remember how to do this all over again

Lots of love Siriusgyal.