A/N: yey another Chappie! Hey and thannks to Ginny Lopez for reviewing! Glad you like it! :)

ok this is Remus's thoughts as Sirius is in Azkaban and before he finds out the truth.

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If we could read the secret history of our enemies, we should find in each man's life sorrow and suffering enough to disarm any hostility.-- HW Longfellow

Dark Musings: Chapter two--Remus Lupin

Remus' POV

I look up at the celing as I lay in bed and I feel the same question and statements enter my head as they have done ever since that tragic day. Why did you do it? Lilly and James were your best friends and you betrayed them. You sold them out to Voldemort. You probally got a fair reward for that huh? But was it worth the lives of you friends? Maybe to you. I mean your not the one who cares right? I mean you did kill them after all. And you want to know what? I trusted you! I trusted you more then I trusted anyone and not only did you kill them, but you betrayed my trust. It's because of you Harry now has to live with his Aunt and Uncle. He will never be able to have his mum kiss him good-night or read him bed time stories. He will never have his dad to teach him to ride a broom or how to win a lady's heart. He will never beable to say my mother told me this or my father told me that. And ya know what? It's all your fult. And you were the godfather!? I just can't belive it.
He gets up and walks to the window and looks up at the sky. The full moon it tomorrow. Ah yes the moon. Many people see me as a monster. You told me that it dosn't matter that I'm a werewolf and that I should be treated just like everyone else. You said that you would stick by me through thick and thin. That we would be friends. You even suggested being an animagus to be with me on full moons. And then you did it. Was that the truth or were you just keeping up aperances for the dark side? Were you working by his side the whole time? What was you plan huh? Gain the trust of the werewolf boy and lure him to the dark side? No way. Unlike you I won't be joining the dark side. Unlike you I wont betray my friends--or what's left of them thanks to you. Unlike you I won't be a murderer. And thats the way it is. I would die for my friends, but you on the other hand...ya know I can't even think about it any more...it makes me so angry to think about it...I just can't belive it...I just hope your happy now with you being locked up in Azkaban and all...I guess it was about time that some one saw through your lies and gave you what you deserved. As for me? I'll go back and lay in bed thinking about the life that could have been.

TBC