Author's Notes: A very short oneshot. Will probably seem confusing.

Deluge

written by Melfice

Do you know what it feels like to drown? To feel yourself sinking deeper and deeper into endless black, weighted down by your own body, grasping at nothing.

You can claw at the water all you want, but you'll never make any progress. As you sink further down, all your efforts only help to tire you further.

Do you know what it feels like to watch the surface move further and further away? All you see is a forever of blue and black, all you feel is yourself falling through it all.

You can't hear the desperate calls of those still above, can no longer see the sun against the surface, and you realize just how alone you truly are.

I am drowning, falling farther from stable ground.

There is nothing to grab hold of, nothing to place my feet upon, and I continue to fall. It presses against me, pushing me further away from the safety and warmth, further away from everything I once knew.

It's so easy to let go, to stop the struggle, to let myself only drift.

What use would it be to fight against it? What can I possibly do to stop this?

I tried at first, thrashing violently against the invisible hands that pulled at me. I tore myself from their grasp again and again, but they always found their way back.

I want to grab hold of your hand, I want you to pull me from this.

Yet I could never ask this of you, for I know you would never concede. As much as I want you to save me, I know you would not...

Do you know what it feels like to give yourself up entirely? Drop all of your barriers, sacrifice all of your pride...

Do you know how it feels to hand someone your soul?

I am drowning in these feelings, in this sea of emotions that seems to have so easily consumed me. All around me is the weight of a hundred feelings...

I can see a thousand reasons why I should never reach the surface.

The words you speak to me have mended the once brittle trust I had when we first began this. The soothing look in your eyes has broken down so many of the well placed guards that were once untouched.

All of the fears that haunted my every move always seem to fade so easily out of my mind whenever you're near.

Even though I am so lost within this, so far gone that I would never wish to return, I cannot help but hesitate.

Even though I wish to remain here forever, I can't help but believe that I will lose this.

Am I scared of finding the surface again?

It would be so much easier if you would save me now, if you would allow me to leave.

How can I know that you will still feel this way about me as our road goes on? How can I be certain that I will still feel the same?

Yet how can I ask you to kill these feelings, to pull both of us from these waters...

"Heath?" you open one eye to look at me, still half asleep. "What's wrong?"

The longer I drown in this feeling, the longer I want to stay.

I lay back down beside you, close my eyes, and I can't help but smile. "Nothing. Sorry to wake you."

The longer I stay here with you, the harder it is to imagine how things will be if you are to leave.

"Mm..." you slip an arm around me and rest your head next to mine. "Goodnight, Heath."

Even if there is a chance that your feelings towards me will someday change, I won't ask you.

"Goodnight, Legault."

I won't ask you to save me, because you were the one that pulled me in.