DISCLAIMER: I do not own a thing from beyblade, if I do, there would be some changes, starting with more Kai.
WARNING: abuse, rape, incest, Mariah bashing, maybe some slash as background. I don't know yet.
A/N: there will be some changes in the characters, and it will not really follow the story line of the series, but it calls FANFICTION for a reason.
Summary: you all have heard of stories where Kai is changed into a girl. Well this story is what would happen if Kai was born a girl, but had to keep it a secret, because her grandfather thinks that girls are weak. Then she runs away from him, and from there on, her live changes. Dramatically.
A/N: will have rape, abuse, and who knows what else.
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It was a stormy night at the end of December. In a mansion, a few miles out of the city, you could see a women laying in a bed.
This women was Kayla Hiwatari. Only daughter of Voltaire Hiwatari, one of the riches men in the world.
She was a beautiful women, blue and white hair, red eyes, a slim figure and pretty small. She was fourteen year.
She was in labour, having a child of a men she didn't love, the father was unknown to the doctors, only two persons actually knew who the father was: she and the father himself.
She was screaming and cursing, puffing, groaning. She never imagined that having a baby would hurt so much.
She hurt, and she wanted the baby out of her, she never wanted one anyway, if she had anything to say against it, she would have an abortus, but her father didn't want her to have one.
Her father, he wanted her to have a son, an heir to take over his place when he dies, his daughter could never replace him, she was after all a girl.
It is strange that there are still men who think that women are less than men these days, but Voltaire was one of them (A/N: my history teacher to, and he doesn't like me or my sister, because we are a bit more straight forward then others.)
Finally, after hours pushing, pain, and hoping it would be a boy, the baby was born. The doctor took the baby away, to make sure it was in a stable condition, after all it was born two months to early.
It was expected that the baby would be born to early, if you looked at his mother. Only fourteen year, and small for her age.
It was a miracle that she had carried the baby for so long.
When the baby was born, the mother had tore something. She was losing blood rapidly. The doctors where trying to stop it, they where not succeeding.
Kayla was loosing blood to fast, death was knocking on the door, and there wasn't a way to stop it from coming in.
Eventually the mother died, without seeing her unwanted baby, not knowing if it was a boy or a girl, not knowing how it looked.
Voltaire didn't spare more than one glance at the death body of his only child. He went to the other room where the baby was been held.
The women, who gave her love for the child, was no longer of any interest of him, only the child was. The last change for him to have an heir.
"So, you are my grandson, my heir." Voltaire said to the baby, who was sleeping, with a grin on his face, that would make even the most evil of persons shiver in fright.
"Um, excuse me sir." Said a female doctor. "but it isn't a boy, it is a girl."
Voltaire looked at the baby, blinked, took the sheets from the little body, and saw that it was indeed a little girl, because if it was a boy, it lacked certain parts.
"Who knows this?" he asked harshly. Wanting to know if he could create an illusion, a grandson, who is actually a girl. Maybe, if not to many people know.
"Well, just me and you. The others where to busy trying to save the live of your daughter." She said, a little afraid at his behaviour.
"Good, from now on you are her doctor, and if you ever think about telling anyone that she isn't a boy, than I kill you, and anybody you told, understood." He said, with such an evil look on his face, that she felt that she was going to faint.
She nodded softly. Voltaire was smart, the only person that knew that he was a she, would be the only person that saw her naked, and only when they did a medical examination.
"From now one, she will be called Kai Hiwatari, the one and only grandson of mine."
Kai was starting to fuss, opened his eyes and started to cry.
"Take care of him." Voltaire said, throwing a look of disgust at the crying baby, and than walking away.
She took the baby in her hands, and gave her a bottle, from which the baby greedily drunk from.
"Hello little one." She said to the baby. "my name is Sata, and I think, whatever may happen, that you always can trust on me."
Sata knew that Kai wasn't going to have an easy live. The next day she went to Voltaire and was ordered to not tell anything before it was needed.
She asked about when she reached puberty, the changes that would happen with her body.
He only grinned and ordered her to way nothing about it, thinking that it would be amusing to see Kai struggle with being a boy and a girl at the same time.
And thinking that it was her deserved punishment for not being a boy.
Kai was growing, soon, being a curious and smart girl, she learned that she really was a girl, but she knew better than say against her grandfather that she wasn't a boy.
At the age of four, she was heavily abused, the abuse was so bad, that if it became worse that she would suffer a few mental scars from it.
She was used as a outlet for all the fury her grandfather holds inside. She was beaten daily, her grandfather used all the techniques on her: cane, hands, whip, sticks, belts, etc... as long as she suffered it was okay for him.
She wondered how live would be if her mother was alive, she heard a lot of horrible stories from her grandfather, and each time she tried to ask who her father was, he would just smirk and punish her for asking unwanted questions.
At her fifth birthday she was sent to the abbey, where she got Dranzer. She also got some friends there, like Tala, Spencer, Ian and Bryan.
She and Tala had a big/ little brother relation ship. Tala would always look out for her, he didn't have a clue that Kai really was a girl.
Spencer was a saviour for her. She was small, even if she was surrounded by girls, she still was small. This often caused bullies to go after her.
She had less muscle mass as the boys, but she had an higher tolerance to pain. (A/N: this is scientific proven that girls can handle pain better than boys.)
Spencer would always try to save her from being beaten.
Ian was a good friend, somebody who would listen to her, and somebody who was smaller than her, but he was strong, and the bullies seemed to know that.
Bryan was also like a big brother to her, always playing with her, when he could, and helping with her training.
Soon they where inseparable.
But then something happened.
They discovered at her seventh birthday that she wasn't a boy.
She was showering after an intense training, thinking that all the others had already left for lunch, she took her time, she hated always having to wait until everybody has left and then hurrying in the shower, in case anybody forget something.
She thought it was save, but then she heard voices coming from the outside.
'oh, no what do I do.' She thought, seeing that her clothes and towels lay to far from where she was, how quick she may be, she wouldn't be quick enough.
The showers had no curtains there, since it was an all boys school.
The door opens, in steps Tala and the rest. They see her, they froze in mid- step. They where watching at he with open mouth, while Kai was trying to cover herself.
"You...you...you aren't a boy!!!!!!!!!!" Tala said in surprise.
Kai knew that she had no other choice than explain this to them, and so she did.
Bryan, who was the first to come by his senses, went to get her a towel to cover herself.
They sat down.
"Kai," Said Tala, "if that's your real name, why didn't you tell us about this." Tala was a little hurt that Kai didn't trust him enough to tell him a secret, he was a little sad about it.
"Tala, Kai is my real name, and the only reason why I didn't tell, is because my grandfather."
Then the explanation started, when they heard about the abuse Kai suffered, they felled sorry for her. They didn't want her to get hurt, so they all promised to keep her secret.
And after that they became even closer friends, they all felt the need to protect Kai for all the evil that was in the world, knowing that it wouldn't work as long as she had to pretend to be a boy. (A/N: you know, the kind of protective when you are the youngest girl, in a family where there are only four or five sons, that kind of protective.)
On her 8th birthday something terrible happened, something that would repeat itself for year and years, something that would change her world, forever.
Boris called her to his chambers after training. This happened occasionally, mostly to be beaten until you can't stand upright anymore, because you have done something wrong, or just when Boris was bored.
Boris was the only person who knew from the beginning that Kai wasn't a boy, Voltaire told him.
Boris was Voltaire's right hand, and knew everything. He was also the leader of the secret company Biovolt, that trained kids to be emotionless soldiers.
Kai was standing nervously in Boris his rooms, waiting until she knew the reason she was here.
"Kai, the reason why I called you in here is because I overheard Tala saying you are a girl, this was in a conversation with Bryan." Boris said, looking her up and down, all the while with an evil smirk on his face.
Kai had paled a little, she knew that she would get punished because she had let someone knew her secret. She just hoped, that her grandfather didn't know.
"I told this against your grandfather, he was angry. So angry that he personally came to this place to punish you." He said. Damn, he knew. That isn't good. Kai didn't know how to get out of this one, Voltaire wouldn't believe the truth in a million years.
Kai was brought to an other, smaller room. It was a sleeping room, there was standing a bed in the far left corner. On that bed Voltaire was sitting.
"Boris you can leave." Voltaire ordered. Boris bowed and went away, leaving Kai al alone with her grandfather. But before Boris left, he had an evil smile on his face, a small sign that was saying, that it couldn't mean anything good.
"You have disobeyed me, for that you will have to be punished, have you anything to say." Kai didn't say anything, knowing of she did, that things would only get worse.
Voltaire was always like that, the more words you said in your defence, the longer the punishment would take.
"good, this is a favourite of mine, this I never did before on you, but I used it on your mother. She obeyed very good, after I did it once to her." He said, an evil glint coming in his eye.
Kai was frozen in fear, knowing that it couldn't be good, Voltaire only got that glint in his eyes, when he was doing something very painful, like lashes, with salt on the whip or something like that.
Before she could ask anymore, Voltaire pushed her on the bed, and started beating her. After a while, her face was red with the blood from a cut above the eyebrow, one eye was blue, and the rest of her body was black and blue.
Then Voltaire started taking of her clothes, pushed her legs farther apart, and did his pants out.
He was kissing her, licking her, touching her. She was starting to cry. She may be young, but she knew what he was doing, and she would never forgive him for what he would do today.
He positioned himself between her legs, and then, in one trust, he went inside her entrance. She felt something tear, and the feeling was like she was ripped in two. She wanted it to stop.
She didn't care that she wasn't strong enough to handle this kind of pain. She started to beg, cry and scream, hoping that soon, it will end.
Blood was coming from in between her legs, Voltaire did not care, he only trusted harder, ripping the wound farther apart.
When he was done, Kai curled up in a ball, crying and sobbing. Voltaire looked at her, his eyes betraying the disgust he felt for his granddaughter.
"Oh, what is it Kai, I thought you wanted to be a girl? Well this is the way girls are treated. If you ever dare to disobey my rules again, Boris will do this with you, and he will not be this merciful, any questions?" he said, cruelly, on a business like tone of voice.
Kai wanted to know only one thing, one thing she had wondered about for years, one thing, that she knew, that this was the only change of her ever finding out.
"If you have done this to my mother, does that mean you are my father?" she asked, hoping against all hope that the answer will be 'no'.
Voltaire smiled, like recalling a good memory.
"Yes, and she was such a good little girl, she did not struggle or anything, she just laid still, letting me use her." He said, in a tone of a proud father.
Kai was disgusted, and, at that moment she swore to try to disobey him whenever she had the change. She would never bow to him. She lost all respect, how little that may be, for the man who she called grandfather.
When she was eleven she was raped a few times a week, as an average. It wasn't nothing, she never grew used to it, and Boris always like to hurt her as much as he can. She didn't care anymore about the pain, and she always struggled.
She refused to cry, something Boris always tried to do. How painful it was, if it was anal, vaginal or oral, she refused to show that kind of weakness again.
All the other boys wondered what happened so many years ago, that she became so wild, so disobedient. No one knew why, this she didn't even tell Tala, her best friend out whole the abbey.
Kai still looked like a boy, there where only a few differences from the rest of them.
She was shorter than the other boys, well only Ian was shorter, but that was because he was used as an experiment and , well, it had some side effects.
She also had two toned hair, and the blue triangles, the triangles where rubbed with some sort of paint, and only went off with warm water.
She always wore them to show that she wasn't one of the boys, no one may know this, but she still felt a little defiant when she wore them.
All the boys knew that Kai was special, only few knew the reason. Kai was a proud child, one that never gives up hope, and that was rewarded on the 5 January, only 8 days after her birthday.
It was a change to escape.
In the abbey, a new bitbeast was created. Out of Dranzer. It was almost an exact copy, only a few difference. It was stronger than Dranzer, evil and black. Even with all this, it still kept a few trademarks from Dranzer. It was a phoenix, fire beast, strong and proud, and it was concerned on Kai's well-being.
Together with Black Dranzer, Dranzer and Tala they made a deal. They would never tell Kai about it, not until the last second. She would want to take everybody with her, but she could only take Dranzer with her.
Black Dranzer would help Kai to escape, if Dranzer promised to keep him save. That night it happened, Black Dranzer gave a diversion, and Tala woke Kai, so that they and Dranzer escaped, running away, not looking back.
They where being followed, and Tala said against Kai to keep running, while he created a diversion. Afterwards he never returned.
They where still being followed when they reached the port.
Kai could jump and hide on a cargo ship, not knowing where it went until she arrived. When she found out, she was glad that it was in Japan, because she spoke the language.
She was wondering around the streets for a few months by now, she didn't know what to do, now she was free. It was a whole new experience.
For this, she was used to being locked in a building, first the mansion of Voltaire, and then the abbey. The abbey was the first place where she saw children of her age.
She misses Tala and Black Dranzer, but at least she has Dranzer to keep her company. She wondered what happened to them, but she didn't know if they would be alive, after all that happened.
She was losing weight rapidly, not wanting to live anymore, she was starting to eat less and less. She wished she had died a long time ago, but she was against taking her own live, thinking it was an act of cowardice.
She was raped a lot by beggars, and other people who lived on the streets, especially junkies. She was tired of that, so she was trying to find an alley with no people in it, so she could curl up, and die in the cold of the winter.
On a day like many other, she was just walking around, in her clothes, which slightly resembled rags, she was stopped by a boy. She looked at him, with an empty gaze.
He looked about four or five year older than her.
"What is such a little boy like yourself doing here all alone, in the middle of my alley?" he said. It was clearly a gang leader, you could see it. she had seen many of them. The moment they discovered she was a girl, they would use her body, and she didn't struggle anymore, she just let them.
And when they didn't look at her, you could see a lonely tear, sliding down her cheek, and falling to the ground.
The boy was arrogant, wore leather clothes, strangely had a nice face, his eyes where a dark shade of blue, he was quite tall, and had spiky black hair. You didn't saw the cruel look in his face, like she saw with so many others.
Instead of answering Kai just walked away, she didn't feel like having a conversation, with some punk that thought he was better than other people.
But when she tried to walk away, her path was blocked by some other guys. They where all older than her.
She wasn't scared or anything. She just looked at them, with an empty expression on her face, still thinking that she isn't worth the trouble.
"I asked you a question." The leader says, with an angry look on his face.
She looks at him.
"Walking." She says in a calm monotone voice.
He looks at Kai, bewilderment on his face, he didn't expect her to answer so calmly. When the shock went away, it gave place for anger, and so he ordered the other members of the gang to attack.
Kai put up a brave fight, but not even the best fighter can win, when she is half starved, from a mob of more then ten people who are all older than her.
"Strip him, we'll see how cocky he is when he lays here in the alley with no clothes on. Maybe he will beg for forgiveness before he freezes to death." He says, laughing.
The members of the gang are laughing to. They start to strip her, she can't move anymore because of the pain, but still she tries to struggle.
They don't care about her struggling, it's not that she can hurt her or anything. Somebody tries to pullout her pants, she curls up slightly, and crystal tears are slipping from her tightly closed eyes.
Her pants go out, and the one who pulled it out gasps. Everybody who can see her gasps.
"What is it." asks the leader, wondering why everybody is staring at the boy.
"Oh my god." He says, surprised at the sight he sees.
It was a girl, but her tights where full of bruises, cuts and much more, and there was coming a lot of blood from between her legs.
Not only that, but all her body, except her arms and face, was full of scars bruises and cuts. It looked like she was beaten and raped a lot.
"Sir," asked one of the people who helped Kai dressing out.
"we can't leave her like this, that would be too cruel."
"You are right. We will take her with us." He said, looking at her. Kai's eyes where open now, and she was trying to cover herself.
She was shivering and completely naked, she didn't want to be there so vulnerable, like this, but she couldn't do anything about it.
The leader whose name was Daemon, gave her his sweater, and then lifted her. He was surprised at how light she weighted.
It couldn't be healthy. When they where walking to their save place, everybody was staring at the girls, who, by now, passed out. They didn't know what bastards could do something like that to a little girl, but they wont do it again.
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