Author’s Note: This is going to be a series of songfics. They’ll be about Faith, Chris, Wyatt, Alicia and Matthew from my other story ‘Never Lose Faith’ (I suggest you read that one first to understand these stories). Some of them may be about the events when they grew up, some of the time Never Lose Faith is located. Have Fun Reading!! (and please review!!)

Scared – Judith

“I’m so sorry… I just hope you understand…” Faith said with a voice trembling of pain. A fourteen year old Chris sat opposite her on his bed, avoiding her look. “I really, really liked you Chris, and still do… but…” Faith sighed. “I just love him more. I want you, but as a friend. I hope you understand that.”

Baby, do you understand

That I have to say goodbye to you my friend

Please don’t think it’s easy for me to do

You’re my best friend and I still love you too

She continued while he stood up and walk towards the window, so Faith now talked to his back. You could see the sun set from the window. “You always were my best friend, Chris,” she continued clearly, “and always will be. I hope you feel that way too.” He didn’t answer.

Into the night I cry

Can anybody tell me why

I’ve got to leave before my heart will die

Chris felt a hand placed over his shoulder. He turned his head slightly to the left. Faith gently turned him and looked deep in his eyes. The soft red light of the setting fell over her and made her face look even more beautiful, and made her hair shine brighter than ever. This made it hurt even more to hear… “Please don’t think this is easy for me…”

I’m so scared

I’m so scared

I’m scared of what the future will bring

I’m scared of almost everything

Help me

He bowed forward and for the last time, they shared a kiss. Faith looked down, avoiding his look. “I better go…” Quickly she glanced in his eyes before shimmering out to her bedroom. Slowly she walked to the bed, lay down and grabbed one of her pillows and held it tight. She closed her eyes in disgrace and a tear ran over her cheek.

Baby am I making a big mistake

Am I chasing a dream

Is it better for me to wait?

But I can’t ignore it, I keep feeling blue

The world invites me to find love that’s true

Her crying was interrupted by her cell phone. Distracted she grabbed it from her bedside table. ‘Alicia Calling’. She threw it at the end of her bed, where it rang for a few seconds. Crying she buried her face in the pillow, trying to fight away all of the good memories she had about Chris.

Into the night I cry

Can anybody tell me why

I’ve got to leave before my heart will die

I’m so scared

I’m so scared

I’m scared of what the future will bring

I’m scared of almost everything

“Faith…” Faith didn’t move when hearing the caring voice Wyatt. She could feel him sitting down on the edge of the bed. He gently stroke her hair. Slowly she lowered the pillow and faced him, not saying a word, still crying. Wyatt didn’t say anything either, he just lifted her up, put his arms around her and held her tight while she kept crying.

Who am I who am I now

Who am I where will I go

Who am I what should I do

I am so… I am so… I am so, so, so, so scared

I am so scared

I am so scared

I am scared of what the future will bring

I am scared of almost everything

Help me

Wyatt gently let her loose and took her head in his hands. “I love you… if you love me too, you don’t have to cry anymore. Then you did the right thing. It would be betrayal to stay with him, while you loved me, and not him… you know that, right?” Faith nodded slowly. “I do love you Wyatt… it just hurts… hurts so much…” she replied, not stopping crying. Wyatt didn’t reply and held her again. “It’ll be alright… It’ll all be alright…” he whispered while gently stroking her hair. But Faith just couldn’t help thinking… Will it..?

I’m scared of what the world might give

I’m scared to loose the life that I live

I’m scared to make a big mistake

I’m scared that what I feel is fake

I’m scared, I’m scared

I’m scared of what the future will bring

I’m scared of almost everything

Help me