Starlight Rhapsody

Oh lookie I finally updated like after a year… Please don't hurt me, you know the risk of reading anything written by me that isn't a one shot, it might never get finished… Any way To Nowhere is an insert song from Dot Hack. Couldn't find the artist and really didn't care at the time but everyone knows I own nothing, I mean it's on my profile. Anyway here's the 5th Chapter of Starlight Rhapsody.

Chapter 5: Side Tracked Emotions

(Song: To Nowhere Artist: Dot Hack)

Okay she had admitted to herself that she had become side tracked. For a second she had let the lovely emotions that her pregnancy was causing make her become rash and turn down the dirt path toward Kouga's house instead of the concrete one that would have taken her to Kagome.

But there was really nothing she could do now, well except attempt for the umpteenth time to push her car out of the forest since her tire had decided to so lovingly get stuck in a hole. Rin sighed and refrained from soft curses as she made her way up the hill abandoning her car like faith had abandoned her.

Can you hear the calling of the raving wind and water?

We just keep dreaming of the land 'cross the river

We are always on the way to find the place we belong

Wandering to no where, we're paddling

Down the raging sea

"Hello, Kouga open up it's me, Rin… You know the kid that you practically grew up with… It took me awhile to get up here… you can't hide from society forever!" Rin yelled at the door as she heard some shuffling inside of the small house. "I know you're in there Kouga open up… Me and company need to sit down before I have a case of morning sickness in the afternoon…"

The door opened slowly and Kouga appeared. He looked just as he always did. Rugged, energetic but his eyes were sad but he threw that emotion in the back of his mind as he looked Rin over. "You're having a pup?" Kouga asked tilting his head to the side and then sniffing her belly. "Yeah, it is Sesshoumaru's, just starting to smell…"

"What's that supposed to mean? I don't see you in the longest part of forever and you don't even greet me you just get straight to the point. Kouga you've become even more of an ass…" Rin said as she drew him into a tight hug. He pulled her into his house and showed her to a seat.

"Sorry Rin I haven't seen anyone in about 6 months, my social skills have almost completely vanished. You've been taking good care of yourself right? I'm surprised Sesshoumaru's not up here with you as protective as he is…"

Rin looked away from Kouga and stared at the floor. "I-I left for a while… He doesn't even know…" There was a silence in which Kouga got up and hugged Rin close to him, she was like his little sister but he wasn't going to push the subject. Rin sniffled a bit and then smiled. "But the real reason I came the jewel has been broken."

Who can cross over such raving wind and water?

On the rolling boat we sit, shivering with coldness

Come by an island, come by a hillock,

It's just another place, we paddle on

Down the raging sea

"I'm sorry Rin but I'm not getting involved with that thing ever again. It ruined everything…" Kouga said softly.

"How could it have ruined everything if you didn't try to fix up the mess it created?" Rin asked.

"Rin we tried but after that whole episode. We just couldn't trust each other anymore. I didn't think she believed that I wouldn't come for her. So when she transformed it broke our trust…"

"But did you two even try to rebuild it?"

This time Kouga looked away. "No, it was just like in that moment when she lost it, everything we had built disappeared. I mean this time, we grew up together. We'll all of us did the way Kagome had wished on the jewel but…"

"In the end, it still seemed like all of us were doomed again. I really thought Naraku was gone. But when the jewel was being purified and Kikyo got a hold of it, our twisted fates were sealed once again… Maybe none of us were meant to be happy."

But in one morning we'll see the sun

Bright shining morning dew singing

They who will search will find the land

Of evergreen

Search will find the land

"I still sometimes accidentally call him Sesshoumaru-sama…" Rin muttered more to herself than to Kouga.

"Hey, old habits die hard Rin. I still prefer sleeping under the stars that was something my foster mother didn't understand." Kouga said shaking his head slowly. "Rin, can I ask you something?"

"Sure Kouga…"

"I would've thought that after the Sengoku Jidai, well, even though we are in a different era I was the reason technically for your death and…"

He stopped as Rin hugged him. "I didn't know you then. And that was the way of life anyway. In the warring era I think I might not have liked you or held some amount of resentment but Kouga we grew up together here. And five hundred years is a very long time to allow the past to lie itself to rest." Rin said with a small sigh as she sat back into the sofa. "What kind of life should I live when given a third chance?"

Can you hear the calling of the raving wind and water?

We just keep paddling down the sea, up the river

No destination, but we are together

"I'll meet up with you in a month Rin. I have something to settle first…"

"You're going to find Ayame?"

"Yes, and I'm going to do something that I should have done long, long ago… wish me luck…"

"The luck of the Irish…"

"I'm going to help you find the shards. And then I'm going to help everyone move on, starting with myself."

"I almost forgot to tell you, Miroku's back…"

"How? He was dead, he got sucked into his wind tunnel… Never mind, I'm not going to let you go anywhere this late at night in your condition anyway, explain it to me over dinner."

In the silent sadness we're paddling

Down the raging sea

Down to no where

Okay next chapter Kouga is off to find Ayame. Rin heads home and Kagome receives the jewel shard. Wow, I think I'm going to need a long song. I guess I have time to update the things I have up. I finally got over my writer's block for Attic, aren't you all proud of me? Probably not, also I'm almost ready to post up the next chapter of Unspoken Fantasies and I'm thinking about making The Cell with the Padded Walls a short fic like I did 99 Bottles but I need more feed back on that idea. Going to work on Unspoken Fantasies bye bye…