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Chapter One

You know I never thought I'd ever say this... let alone think it.

But I actually had a friend.

I, Hiei of the evil eye, had a friend.

One and only one very good friend.

I'm not saying that I didn't know other people.

I knew people. I knew the baka oaf, the idiot detective, the old woman, the annoying ferrygirl, Yukina, and Shizuru... there's more but they just aren't worth mentioning -cough-toddler-cough-. And out of those people I just mentioned I think I would only think of the baka oaf's sister as anything more of an aquaintence. And Yukina. Well duh for Yukina though. She's my sister and too stupid to not befriend me (even if she still doesn't know I'm her brother).

Not to mention the fox.

He also, is one who was incredibly stupid. Very stupid. So stupid I actually considered him a good friend.

That's right. The fox was my best friend.

But have you noticed that I've been speaking in past tense about him?

Had.

Knew.

Was.

Considered...

Getting any idea's here? Good. Then you should be able to guess the next part of the story.

Yeap...

He went out and got his readheaded self killed.

Why?

To protect ME!

The moron should have just let me die instead of risking his own life to protect me. Stupid, stupid, stupid kitsune.

Didn't he know that I'm not worth being protected? I mean, look at me! Murderer, thief, assasin, liar, deciever, all around criminal, forbidden child... Hell, I am the walking cliche of evil. Evil glare. Evil eye. Black clothes. Black dragon. Red eyes. Black hair. Fangs. A taste for blood and rotting flesh. Control of demonic flames.

"Stupid fox..." I mutter outloud. I'm standing outside in the freezing cold, in the dead of night, on christmass eve staring at his grave.

"You just had to go and save me like that didn't you, fox." I say huskily. There's an emotion in my voice that I can't understand. Stupid human emotions. Stupid grave. Stupid snow. Stupid Holiday. Stupid.

It's all just so fucking -

"Hiei?" I jump slightly and turn my head. It's Yukina. I don't mind Yukina but still... for the past few weeks NO ONE has let me out of their site. It's like they think I'm going to do something stupid. I haven't had five minutes alone to myself - even if I have to use the bathroom they wait really close by - like on the other side of the tree of bathroom door.

It's really quite annoying.

I mean...

Would be crazy enough to kill themselves while going pee?

Come ON people...

Sheesh...

"Hiei?" A light touch on my shoulder. The only people (person now) I've ever allowed to touch me were Kurama and Yukina.

I grunted.

"Please come inside and join us." she pleaded. A look up at her. She really is beautifull, my sister... but I wont be swayed by that nor her innocent actions and demeanor.

I shook my head no and turned back to the grave. I needed to get away from my sister... Yusuke... all these people who think they 'care' about how I am feeling and what I am thinking.

I need a vacation.

I need a nice long vacation...

I will miss Yukina.

And Shizuru... Yes, I'll mis her also. Why? I don't know. I just will.

"I'm leaving..." I say bluntly. "Don't look for me. Don't worry about me and tell them all to leave me the hell alone."

With that I turned heal and jumped away from the grave, my sister, and the life I had briefly known and enjoyed...

OOOKay...

That was chapter one! What did you all think? Was it good? Bad? SO FUCKING (excuse my french) HORRIBLE THAT YOU'LL FLAME ME ALIVE?

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Later peepers...

Bomb-O-Maniac