EYES WIDE SHUT

Heh, this chapter certainly took me shorter then the last one! xD But heh, it's shorter in length too… /sweatdrop/ no, no assassins/backs away, scared/ X.x

Warning: this chapter contains big BL fluffiness and playful flirting xD yay!

Thanks for all the requests to keep writing on this story, in hard times like this I need all the encouragement I can get ;) Review responses at the end folks! On with the story:

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Chapter 7

So Called Chaos

So called chaos clouding my mind,

so called chaos running through my veins.

Everything I feel just feels so right

with you by my side to stay.

The way you touch me feather light,

the way you try to protect me and fight,

I can't fight back more longer,

you scared logic and made it run away.

"Rem! Wait! Remus! For Merlin's sake Moony, stop! Let me explain!" I yelled. I knew he was there. I'd seen his back at the end of the corridor when I was at the beginning, but… He just had to be!

"Remus! Remmi damn it, just-" I was almost at the end now.

"Just what? You kissed her!" he yelled at me. After having turned the corner I almost bumped into Remus, who glared at me, furiously. "You sodding kissed her!" he repeated, voice shaking.

"She's a girl! Dear Godric, she's my date!" I yelled back, going into defence. "Why can't I kiss her? And hell it wasn't even on her bloody mouth! I just tried to comfort her, she was bawling her bloody eyeballs out!" I paused momentarily and gasped for air, clinging to the wall for support when my legs refused to let me stand any longer. Then something suddenly hit me. "And how do you know anyway? Have you been watching me? Bloody Merlin, I can't believe it if you-"

"Stop! Stop, stop, stop! Just stop that! Yes, I watched, what else could I do! Have you got any idea-" He abruptly stopped mid-sentence, paused and took a deep breath. When he continued his voice was less shaky, more controlled, but extremely tense nonetheless. "Nothing. Just nothing. You promised me you would be there for me, not for some blonde bimbo you want to screw so badly!"

"She's not a stupid blonde bimbo. Not even really blonde in the first place. And she has a name!"

"I don't care, I don't know it!"

"Remus, you can't tell me what to do! You're not my mother neither my bloody lover so just fuck off already! You're acting possessive and jealous!" Three seconds later I could've died from a deep feeling of guilt and embarrassment. I saw the hurt building up in his eyes and faintly registered he was crying.

Shit, now what. Not another one!

"Remmi, I-"

"Siri, you-"

We spoke at the same time. He looked down and went silent. I took a step closer to him and attempted to touch his face, wanting to look into his eyes. He only jerked away.

"Don't. Touch me. Just don't," he snapped. "You don't even care. You lied! You said everything would be okay, and that you would be there for me! But not even twenty-four hours later you promise the same thing to some random girl! Don't I mean anything to you Padfoot?"

His voice was so angry… So hurt… Bitter.

"Do I, Padfoot? Anything at all?"

"Of course you do, you idiot!" I half yelled back. "You know my friends come before everything… And the Marauders even above that, always." I sighed, his facial expression was still angry and hurt, and it didn't seem like it would change that soon. "You're a part of me Moony, how could I not care?"

"A friend. A Marauder," he repeated slowly. "What's the big difference. Part of you, you say? Then you must be friggin' numb if you can ignore my pain!"

Wait. Did Remus… My Remus, the Remus I know so well… Just swear? Again? I blinked at his outburst. Wow. So he does have that other touchy part. Shows how good I know him, really.

"Remmi."

He didn't move.

"Look at me." I bowed down, searched for his eyes. "I'm sorry okay, honest. I didn't want or mean to hurt you, never. You are a part of me, a special. You're my brain man, I couldn't do it all without you, I would be nowhere." He smiled softly, the corners of his mouth twitching up. I touched his cheek with my fingertips, brushing away his tears with my thumb.

"This okay?"

He smiled again, nodded.

"What are you doing out of bed anyway, you should be resting now! You know how much you're weakened after the full moon." I swung my arm around his shoulders, pressing him against me for a short moment. "And don't you even dare to worry about classes, you can borrow my notes. Ain't I a great friend?" I grinned at him.

He playfully hit me on the head and rolled his eyes. "Whatever you say, playboy."

"Playboy?" I raised my eyebrow.

"Never mind." He put his arm around my shoulders too, leaning on me while stumbling back to the dorm.

"Homework."

"That's scaring me."

"Be glad instead of that." I looked up to face Remus, who was lying across from me on his bed, and flashed him a grin. "But I know, it's freaking me out too in a way. Why aren't you sleeping? Staying awake isn't good for you."

"I can decide that for myself, thank you very much. But seriously, why are you making homework?" he repeated, his tone showing clear disbelieve. He sat up, watching me sitting on my own bed, surrounded by several books. "Not that I mind though," he added hurriedly.

"I'm sure you don't, as the bookworm you are. Today's just so boring. James is gone with Lily, I don't feel like hanging in the crowds today and I want to avoid Peter before he will think that I as much as can stand him," I mumbled, looking over to Remus again.

"He's not so bad. Right?"

"Ask James about it," I only snorted. "And to me, I think he resembles more of a pig then a normal human being."

"Well…"

"So you agree with me?"

"Didn't say that."

"You didn't have to. Did you know I can read your thoughts?" He slightly reddened. "Okay, a knut for your thoughts. Who?"

"No one!" he retorted, a little too quickly.

"Sure…" I smirked and winked. Why was I so eager to know? "Remus and mystery-girl, sitting in a tree, K-I-"

"Stop that!" He crawled under the blankets, hiding deep under them. I stood up from the bed and walked over to his; nudged the lump and laughed at it.

"You're planning on staying there long, or..?"

No answer.

Okay, I just decided to do it the hard way. I jumped on the bed and strangled the lump, pulling the blankets off him. What came out was a furiously blushing and heavily breathing Remus Lupin with his dark blond hair all messed up, not knowing where to look. I grinned. Caught like a deer in the headlights. Or… Wolf in the headlights, that would fit better.

"You're making me really curious now, Moony. Can't you tell?"

"It's none of your business! Now get off me, you're heavy, I can't move!" He wriggled underneath me in a useless attempt to throw me off him. Instead he- Bad thought, bad thought!

"You really need to?" His blush deepened. And I called James nosey… But I want to know! …Jeeze, when did I begin whining mentally? Whiejh, I'm now officially declared loony!

"Well?" I poked him, wanting him to look at me so I could get the answer out of him by giving him my irresistible puppy dog eyes. Success guaranteed.

"Can't you get off me now? I can't breathe!"

Neither can I… Hey, who said that!

"No. First tell me." Who said being stubborn was a bad trait? I didn't.

"And you're the one talking about me resting," he mumbled. "You're freaking hyper."

I blinked owlishly. "I heard that, you know. And since when do you ever swear?"

"To be honest, I began today," he said resolutely, sitting up and crawling out of the bed, meanwhile pushing me off.

"Hey!" I glared at him, needing all my concentration to stop myself from breaking into a grin when he suddenly looked like he was sorry for me.

"Did it hurt?"

"Yes." I pouted and began to theatrically rub my now sour back.

"Good," was his short answer. I gasped when I noticed the slightly wicked smile on his face. Not a good sign. Definitely not a good sign. I know that smile. I invented it.

"You're evil."

"Learned it from the best, now didn't I." He shrugged.

"Didn't know you were into Malfoy that much, Moony." I cocked my eyebrow in mock-surprise.

"I mean you, you stupid!" He pushed me off again when I tried to sit down on his bed again, grinning at me. My third try finally turned out to be my lucky shot, since I was finally save from his wrath and could safely sit down.

"Didn't you have homework to do?"

"No," came my prompt answer. He only shook his head and smiled lightly. "Unless you'll help me?"

"You mean: copy all my answers. Nope, sorry, not going to happen." He paused. "I could tutor you though… That is, if you stop bugging me about that non-existing mystery-girl."

"What mystery-girl?" I looked at him, eyes blinking, waiting – a long time – for realisation to dawn on me. "Oh, I got it. Sure, no problem. Is it a guy then?" I grinned evilly.

But was I…

Feeling hopeful?

No!

"Sirius!" I rolled of the bed again, this time from laughing. "That's not funny!" Yes it is!

But I really need to work on those eyes… So far for irresistible.

"You know-"

"What?" It was later that day, dinner had passed sometime ago already, and now we were back in the dorm. The room was empty again, leaving only us two together on our beds, books open before us. I was attempting to continue doing my homework, keyword being attempting. How teachers think we can do all this and on time too, it's still unclear to me. I'm not a Ravenclaw, and it's not like we can do magic… Well, not on homework anyway.

"You first."

"No, go on, what?" I looked at him with curiosity. "Ready to tell names, Moony?" His face fell and I immediately regretted saying anything. "Didn't mean it like that," I quickly apologised. "Sorry. What is it then?"

"'Tis okay. Nothing really. It's just that… Well… We've been working for so long now. I never thought you, well… could. In all those years you've never paid one bit of attention, and now you're flying right through it all. I'm just a bit surprised."

"So am I. Normally I never work. Guess I'm a genius then." I sat up and shrugged, then yawned widely and let myself fall down between my books. Lazily turning my head his way I looked at him again, a grin now plastered on my face.

"Caring for a pause, Padfoot?" He raised an eyebrow.

"Thought you would never ask! You're right, we've been working for too long now. Though to me all working is too long… Seriously, how can you possibly do this, day in, day out?"

"And then there was me, just wanting to ask you whether we could do this more often or not. But oh silly me, I should've known you would be too wild!" He crawled towards me over his bed, stopping at the side closest to me, one hand clamped over his mouth in an over-theatrical manner. Idiot.

"Cut the sarcasm."

"My, my, did I insult the gentleman in some way? My dear heart mustn't fail me from shock!"

"Ha-ha." I crossed my arms.

"Thee mustn't laugh about what thee does not find funny." Remus now stood on the bed, arms spread like an eagle and face reflecting my earlier grin. "Thy mustn't look so angry, wrinkles do not fit a pretty face like yours." With that he pointed to my forehead, grin growing slightly wicked.

"Pretty face? Pretty? Why, never thought you saw me as girly, Moony. Should I thank you now or later?" I remarked, rolling my eyes.

"Pick, it's your choice," he laughed. "What would you rather have heard then? Handsome? Sexy?"

"For example… Don't forget to add babe-magnet to your list. And Remus? Stop reading that Shakespoof-guy his stuff. It's outdated and it sounds weird." I screwed up my face. "Thee shall not read the old weirdo his shite again," I drawled.

"The name's Shakespeare, just that you know. And he was an underrated genius. You would know if you would take the time to read some of his work," Remus snapped at me.

"You can read it for me as a bedtime-story, I'm sure it's boring enough."

"You're mocking me and it's not funny. Stop it." He crossed his arms stubbornly, same way as I had just a few moments before. Mirror, mirror…

"Oh, so now it's suddenly not funny anymore? And it is when you do it? Can't stand a little teasing can you?"

"Not from you I can't," he grimaced. "Both physically and mentally," I thought I heard him mutter after that. What, physically? I'm kind of lost now…

"Pause?" I offered hopefully, my stomach agreeing with me by grumbling loudly.

"Great idea." He sat down on the bed, got off it and walked to the door. "Well?" He looked around when I didn't follow. "I guess you idea for a pause contains a trip to the kitchens, so come on," he grinned.

"So the sweet little prefect wants to break the rules?" I reflected his grin.

"Never said I was 'sweet' you know. But thanks anyway." He grinned even wider. "Let's go."

I just shook my head and followed him out, thinking about how even a prefect could one day turn into a real Marauder. It would just be a case of hanging out with him enough, really. And I liked the idea of hanging around with him some more. Somehow.

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Okay, so week 1 is over… Next chapter will begin at Monday I think, from then will race through the rest of the week… /hint/ I can't wait to start writing on the rest now… /hint hint/ Though inspiration hasn't really hit me… I'm going to Rome in 2 weeks, so I have a tight schedule to get up this chapter EWS, the last chapter 'Mistletoe Trouble', a one-shot I recently wrote and maybe even a chapter 'Accidentally In Love'… Anyway, I'll try to get as much up as possible! School's been killing me, exams really suck… x.x meh And then to think of it that when this year's over, I still have one more to go… DAMN YOU EXAMS, DAMN YOU/shakes fist at school and exams/ I swear, once school is over I'll make a fire in the backyard and burn my books/cheers/

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Lorelei6: yeah, it surprises me he's so mushy 0.o; this chapter just… shocked me… x.x but I think that it might work out in the story anyway.

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