Turning Around

A/N: I know what you're thinking. Another fiction Lily won't finish. But I am working on the second chapter of The Mystery, but I need a good beta.

Some notes, before you read this: Yes, I am already writing a fic about the end of this season, and the beginning of the next. This is my prediction of what might happen, no spoilers. Promise. Really. I do. Swear. I'll also warn you, that this fiction is probably the weirdest I've ever written before. So you better damn enjoy it. Just kidding, hate it if you'd like, I can twist my art however the hell I'd like. With some boundaries of course. Okay, so, do you want me to keep rambling, or shall we start the story? So this is Lily's crazy episode 5-22.

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It had been raining all damn month. Damn rain. Damn Chris. Damn Luke. No, strike that last one. Don't damn Luke. She loved Luke. Of course, Chris had to go and ruin it, and Luke had to go and be the stupid friggin' hero. Then she had to turn around and end up with no one. Fuck 'em all. Except for Luke. No, fuck Luke. She already had. No more fucking Luke. Oh fuck. She really needed to get out of the house.

Lorelai was in a crisis. No doubt about it. She had spent four days wallowing. Funds were dwindling, and Joe's would eventually cut her off. In fact before she barricaded herself in her little town Taylor had banned her from his ice cream store. Well, fuck Taylor. Eeww...Don't fuck Taylor. Strike the fucking Taylor, but up the fucking Luke dosage. Good plan. If only Luke wanted to fuck her. If only Luke was close enough to fuck her.

Luke was gone. Luke was history. But not only that, Luke was gone. A week ago he had left, a week ago her heart had been broken, a week ago she'd been five pounds lighter. Chris had insisted they go out for dinner, to discuss something. Little had she known it was to discuss 'them.' She'd told him there were no them. Later that night, he'd caught up with her on the way to Luke's. He'd begged her; Luke had seen it all. Ten minutes later she reached Luke's confused, and Luke sat down next to her. "You guys have a kid together," he told her, "If there's even a little chance, I don't want to be the guys who gets in front of that. I shouldn't interfere, no matter how old she is, she's still your daughter. Maybe we shouldn't do this, anyways. I can tell you've been withdrawn ever since he came back. I'm going to leave Stars Hollow. I promised the town I would." Lorelai looked down to the ground, this wasn't happening. She begged for an hour, but he wouldn't.

That night she safely reached home, and broke down into sobs. She felt more suicidal than ever. If she had a gun, she probably would've blown herself into fucking outer space. Would've been better than where she was. She searched everywhere, nothing to kill herself with. Like she would've done it anyways. 'I need a cat to ward off these thoughts. Cats solve everything.' Lorelai thought to herself. She found an exacto knife, maybe she'd be a cutter, maybe cutting was for her. Maybe she was crazy. Or not sane. Deep...

She took it for a moment, looking at her arm, her perfect porcelain arm, Luke had broken up with her...To think a day ago she was happy. Fuck happiness. She took the exacto knife and pierced it into the skin. It bleed, and for a moment Lorelai felt something rushing out of her. She still felt incredibly depressed. Cutting wasn't for her, no way. She put it away, and picked up the phone, tears quickly coming from her eyes. "Luke broke up with me twenty minutes ago." She said as soon as Rory picked up, Lorelai explained why, and she could hear sympathy mixed with anger in Rory's voice. Why was Rory angry? At Chris, apparently. "Mom...Are you okay? I'm coming home, just stay calm, okay? Get some chocolate, or coffee." Lorelai nodded. "Okay."

That night when Rory came she found Lorelai in a ball on the couch. She spotted the bloody exacto knife in the sink, and the scar on her mothers arm. "Mom...Its not that bad, why'd you do that?" Lorelai looked to the ground, and then looked up to Rory, "I don't know." And that's what Luke did to her. He confused her, he confused her like hell, and he depressed her.

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Lorelai woke up on the couch, to the ringing phone. She groaned, "Get out of bed already, Lorelai. You haven't been to work since Luke left. If you're not here in a half hour you'll be dragged into the inn in your pajama's missy." Said Sookie perkily. Lorelai moaned in acknowledgement. She got into a dark suit, brushed her hair and studied herself in the mirror. She was a little chubbier than usual. She looked depressed, her hair was sort of messy.

The wind was blowing; it was still raining. Her hair blew in all different directions as she climbed into the jeep. Luke felt like a ghost to her, she'd told Chris to get the hell away from her. She felt so weird, so different. 'What's wrong with you, Gilmore? This is crazy.' She was starting from square one again, she had to find someone again, and she had to date, again. She'd fuck it and buy some cats, but she was pretty sure she was allergic. And she really didn't like cats. Maybe a dog? Too goddamn needy.

She reached the inn in five minutes, and sat in the car for five, then finally got the motivation to open the car door. Sookie came out of the inn and greeted her with a warm hug, "It'll be okay, I promise." She whispered to Lorelai, she just nodded in Sookies shoulder. Sookie lead her into the inn, it was still standing, Michel stood in front of the desk and gave her a weak smile. Dean was working on the floors in the study, apparently they needed a good sanding. Dean and Rory had broken up, it had been mutual and now Rory was apparently with Logan, an asshole from Yale. But he made Rory happy. Dean gave her a wink. Luke had left her, and everyone knew it. Babette and Patty stood up during their lunch and hugged her tightly. "Oh doll..." Babette whispered. Lorelai just stared down at the ground during all of this.

Finally Lorelai was left alone in her office, and she had to admit it felt good to work again, it felt good to be slightly normal again. She sighed and looked up for a moment...Was she off because... Was she? She jumped up and immediately got her purse rushing off to the nearest drug store that wasn't in Stars Hollow.

A half hour later Lorelai was sitting on her toilet. She picked up the stick, and saw how bright blue it was. Tears cascaded down her cheeks, she was pregnant, and he was gone.

A/N: That's where ASP would fade out, and it would say written by Amy Sherman Palladino. So next chapter will be episode 601.