Kiko cat: I'm so sorry for the late update…. I couldn't get onto my fanfiction for a while… and figuring what to write… But hey! Here's the new chapter! This chapter may be a little dark because it talks a little about Kai's past… And I made some scenes up… Oh let me stop the talking now…

Enjoy!
Chapter 4: …Because a phoenix never dies...

His life flashed before his eyes. The years when he was small to now; he could remember it all. It renewed him with more sorrow than he could take. That memory again…

Bang!

That sound, again could he never forget it?

Her face held shock, confusion and betrayal. Her body was rigid, as if frozen in that one shape. She looked at where the bullet had gone through her. Slowly as if her senses had come back she touched the fast spreading blood on her dress.

Her deep crimson eyes glazed and blood clouted her mouth as she tried to speak.

The beautiful angel of death was she.

Crystal tears fell down her face,

"Father, how could you?" She asked the man named Voltaire who was holding back her screaming son. He smirked,

"Your death was just necessary, Yukashi"

She widened her eyes in anger,

"Yes, my death is necessary, but you will never capture Dranzer, Dranzer will never be yours! Never! Because a phoenix," She whispered "a phoenix will never die… Kai…. Dranzer will obey you and you only… she's yours," She smiled the last, "My little fire phoenix…"

Her eyes rolled back and she fell. Her jet black hair streamed forwards; as she hit the ground the small Kai had screamed,

"MOTHER!"

He almost found it funny. His mother was killed by a bullet and now he was too. Was it inherited in the family line?

He was going. He was dying. His breathe grew more rapid. He was fading away. His body felt numb, he was so cold. Where was the fire that was once in him? When was it now? All the courage of holding him together in the abbey. Where was it now?

I've failed

Memories he had buried for all years were resurfacing rapidly: the pain, the fear, the shame, the loss of hope, the loss of innocence, the loss of the will to live...
…

I've failed.

He was bracing death, all those years made him stop struggling. The times when his body and soul was broken, he had struggled. All the pain tearing through him, he had struggled the brutal purple eyes, the hard mouth… he had struggled. It just made everything worse. He stopped struggling.

But when had the great Kai Hiwatari ever given up?

Why? Every time he closed his eyes he saw screaming. He saw so many people's last moments that it would haunt him forever. The blood. The glazed eyes. The dying breathes.

He tried so hard to distant his life from everyone. He wanted no one to touch him or him to touch others. No more hurt. Just no more pain. No more. He would never forget the first time he was… taken.

But what would happen to Rei? His grandfather didn't care what Boris did to him… and he was the Lord's grandson… what would happen to the Chinese boy? Would he be broken too? Would he be touched like he did? Rei himself had suffered but not losing his innocence… Not yet.

Let him deal with his own troubles. But… but…

He was the one who made him let his guard down… he was the one who taught him how to feel emotions again. He was the only one who had made him laugh in all those years apart from Tala. Oh god Tala what would happen to him? Voltaire had been obsessed with getting into the boy abbey since he knew that Rei was a member of the Kon family and since the display of the dark aura of hurt.

It was so unfair. IT'S SO UNFAIR!

He thought again to the time when Rei had lost Drigger when he had fought Kevin, they had gone to the mountains to look for it or rather train. That time when emotions filled him again.

The full moon was in the sky. Yet the night was dark, it was black like the shadows. It was the darkest night they had all experienced.

Kai sat there in the blackest corner, listening to the breathings of his team mates. He had thought them all asleep until he heard a muffled sound of crying.

Crystal tears were falling from the amber. One by one the sorrow poured out from the heart. Each telling their own story. The boy had pulled his knees till his face… The face looked so broken... the innocent eyes were over brimmed with tears.

Anger had filled the phoenix. Kai stalked up to his team mates. Hard words had come tumbling from his lips

"Why are you crying? You have nothing to cry about! NOTHING! YOU HAVE A LIFE UNLIKE OTHERS! YOU- YOU HAVE YOUR INNOCENCE! AND YOU CAN ALWAYS GET YOU'RE BITBEAST BACK!" He stood breathless for the moment. Suffering Amber glared at the phoenix with unspoken hatred.

"And how do you know I haven't been… and how would you know I haven't suffered? I have never known what you have been through but can it get worse than living in a so-called camp! This pretty face of mine was getting me no where! My bitbeast was the only, the only thing that was with me the whole time! And finally being adopted into Lee's family- that was the worst. Eyes roamed me do you know it? I felt their lust, I felt them seeing through me! Maybe that's why the whole white tiger team despised a slut leading the team! That was the only way to survive! To gain the favours through others by putting on shows… YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE SUFFERING FROM THEIR CHILDHOOD!

So why do you care? Kai! You would never understand me! Understand these tears! Understand why they are shed! UNDERSTAND WHY I EVEN CARE! CAUSE YOU WILL NEVER KNOW SO LEAVE OFF AND MIND YOUR OWN BUSNESS!"

It was then Kai realised that this boy was putting on a mask for everyone. There was so much hidden hurt in this person and that he realised with shock Rei had seen through him.

Avoiding eye contact he felt the familiar stab of pain through his frozen heart. He had felt pity... after all those years of turning his heart into ice.

"I'm… Get some sleep Rei, we are getting up at exactly six," with a softer tone he added, "We'll get Drigger back"

He turned from his room mates' bed and returned to his bed.

It was then he had begun to trust again. He understood the feeling of being unwanted.

He closed his eyes welcoming the dark. His insides lightened and the pain didn't seem to weigh him down anymore. He was going to leave soon. He felt so light. He was leaving this place forever…. But what bout Rei it asked. Was he going to leave him to suffer again in the hands of Boris?

…Don't give up…

I can't

…Don't give up

I really can't

…Don't give up…

HOW?

…Don't give up

Tell me how!

… Never give up no matter what…

Bright lights blinded him. He gasped.

Tyson gazed.

The red lights were still on. The operation room, he was still in it….how long was it now? Six hours? Max was sleeping in one of the plastic chairs. It had been too much for him- this entire ordeal was too much for anyone. No matter how much Kai had always tried to push them away they had always stood by him… Didn't he know that by now? They had always stood by him even though he was Voltaire's grandson and everything in Russia.

He turned his eyes on the sleeping Max, and felt his heart anger in rage.

He had thought that beating Tala in the Demolition boys would have solved everything. But Tyson guessed not anymore. That Tournament had cost so much.

It had taken Dranzer and Draciel away and nearly killed the Chinese boy. It had also turned the heart of their captain.

"OH WHEN WILL THIS ALL END?" the champion yelled into the silence of the hospital.

Black Dranzer spun away rapidly avoiding all the other beyblades attack. Drigger and Dragoon were barely spinning.

"We gotta keep going!" yelled Tyson. Sweat was covering his entire body he looked at Dragoon, he knew one more fatal attack and all would end. But Rei seemed to still attacking the dark phoenix with all his might. What was wrong with Rei? He was being too reckless and that would cost him his bitbeast.

"Rei! Stop attacking like that! You're going to lose!" Ignoring Tyson, Rei screamed.

"Drigger! Tiger Claw!" The white beyblade flew towards the black beyblade. The black beyblade avoided it with ease and countered, sending sparks and Drigger back.

"Heh, Rei you cannot win, weakling! This is how you attack! As I thought I would need to show you BLACK DRANZER!" His crimson eyes were darkened in delight.

Tyson watched helplessly as Rei's beyblade flew through the air into Dragoon.

"Move Dragoon!" The wind dragon flew into the air sending the white tiger back down on its feet.

"Phew" Tyson breathed a sign of relieve. But he saw then that there was no will in Rei's eyes. He didn't want to fight anymore.

The white beyblade also stopped spinning in its place; there was no point in fighting if there was no hope in the blader itself.

"… You win…" The Chinese boy gazed with dead eyes, "…You win… I'm so sorry Drigger .I'm so tired of fighting, I'm so tired of being with people that also seem to deceive me."

"Rei?" Tyson asked uneasily, there was something wrong. He couldn't place the feeling, "Rei, Kai is being controlled don't let him hurt you now!"

"Is he? He craves for power he got it! I'm nothing! He said it! I'M NOTHING! WHY DO I CARE! LET HIM DIE FOR ALL I CARE! THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO NOTHING!"

Just then a green Beyblade flew down from the sky sending black Dranzer back from its prize.

"Whoa Rei! I can hear you all the way from here, and nice to see you by the way!" Beamed a blonde haired boy from the helicopter.

"You're back!" yelled Tyson in delight.

Max suddenly skydived down from the helicopter, a huge green parachute erupted from behind his back. "You're going down Kai!"

"We'll see."

"Go BLACK DRANZER!"

"GO Draciel!"

The green turtle was strong. Kai had to admit it. Max had gotten a lot stronger from the last training session they done.

He was now a worthy opponent.

Each move he saw as the beyblades clashed was perfectly delivered, less damage to the turtle and more to the black phoenix. And it was sending Black Dranzer back with each attack.

Black Dranzer was supposed to be unbeatable. And the Draciel was pounding it.

Black Dranzer was wearing out. He looked up into the eyes of his team mates and saw hate. Amber eyes looked at him in hate. Dark blue and bright blue looked at him in disgust. His friends were looking at him in hate. What had Black Dranzer done to him?

"NO!"

Black Dranzer and Draciel collided in mid- air creating a blinding light. The impact had caused the ice underneath them to break apart.

To his shock he fell into the cold water.

"KAI!" All of his ex-team mates yelled. Rei tried to grab his hand but he wouldn't take it.

"Don't you hate me?" He asked bewildered after all he had tried to steal their bitbeasts.

"NO" yelled Tyson.

He offered a hand to the Dranzer Beyblader, but he still wouldn't take it. He didn't notice he was sinking deeper with the ice.

"Don't you hate me?" He repeated, "Because you can leave me right here right now."

"You are our Captain and out friend we would never leave you here no matter what you have done to us and we need you to train us."

"But… but…. What I…"

"Come take my hand!" Shouted Tyson and offered his hand. Kai looking at the rest of his team mates faces.

He took a firm grip of Tyson's hand.

The lights on the operation room turned green. Tyson woke up Max.

"Max! Maxie! The lights have turned green. Weary Blue eyes snapped open, he scrambled to his feet.

"Where's the doctor?" He gabbled

"They're coming Max! Calm down!"

Calm down? I can't believe that just came from me after all I'm just as scared.

The doors open and five people came out.

"So how is our friend Kai doing!"

No answer.

"HOW'S KAI!" The two boys yelled.

No answer. The doctor took off his gloves.

The feeling of dread was settling in the atmosphere.

"CAN'T YOU HEAR US!"

"We did our best."

"You- what." Yelled Tyson.

"Kami, he can't be" gasped Max

"Your friend is dead."

Tbc…

Kiko cat: Now now don't cry... there'll be more of him...hint hint. anyway don't sue or flame me! and remember to reveiw!